This archive now contains over 230 articles, and will be expanded as time and resources allow. To contribute to the upkeep this website, please contact me directly or press the “Donate Now” button on the right.

Tears for Paris

by Dr. George H. Elder   11/13/2015

Over 150 dead in Paris tonight, and the tears flow far and wide. There is a war raging between radical Islam and the world, as we all know. We try to ignore the grim reality, and like to pretend this war won’t influence us directly–as it did during 9/11. After all, we won the wars in Iraq and Afghanistan, and our armed forces are bombing ISIS on a daily basis. Well, the war always finds a way into our lives. Blood will be matched with blood, and I do not know how we can get out of this endless cycle. We are dealing with an implacable existential threat, much like the WWII Kamikazes. But these suicide attackers are largely stateless, so all we can do is kill the killers en masse. There is no government or nation to defeat, so there will be no surrender, treaty, or reconciliation. The Germans have taken in thousands of potential killers, and so chaos will reign in Europe for many years. It is so damn disheartening because many of the refugees are running from the likes of what has happened in Paris. As the news reports come in, I find myself rearranging my model ships–trying to ignore a stark reality. ISIS will surely reap a terrible whirlwind, but will it matter? How does one kill an idea that embraces killing? Even after we eliminate all the radical leadership and thousands of their followers, the idea will linger… Will it eventually become a war of extermination? That is how ISIS sees it. How does one respond to that perspective? So very sad.


Illegal Aliens

 by Dr. George H. Elder   10/18/2015

            My kin came to New England in 1638, whereupon we were given a land grant in Hartford, Connecticut. Now mind you, I am fairly sure the original inhabitants of the area were not consulted as to how their seized lands were being distributed, but our forefathers had firearms, heavy artillery, cavalry, ample numbers, and very good military organization. Indeed, we had a more developed lethal technology, and thus the natives didn’t stand much of a chance. Oh, “The People” fought mightily against our incursions, especially when my ancestors began to migrate into northern New England. In fact, the natives killed two of my kin in separate engagements, but the flow of blood definitely went against The People.

            It strikes me that we had no legal claim to the land, other than what was granted by others who had no legal claim to the land. We took because we had the power to take, and their territory became “our” territory through force of arms and ruthless policies of ethnic cleansing and extermination. It is the typical Western way of things, although other cultures are equally piratical. As a result, many of our ancestral histories are linked to those who slaughtered people who called this land home for at least 600 generations. It thus seems peculiar that a multitude of my kindred are so ardently against “illegal immigrants.” For heaven’s sake, nearly ALL Americans are the sons and daughters of illegal immigrants, even those whose families settled here over 400 years ago. It is as if we have no sense of history, no inherent culpability for what unfolded on this land that we now call the United States. Then again, perhaps we fear getting the same treatment we served up to so many others.

            Now don’t get me wrong. I love my country deeply, despite our various flaws, inconsistencies, and moral lapses. This brief essay is a perfect example of why I love the US, for where else would one be allowed to so critically examine our own past? That gift of freedom is precious, rare, and can form the basis for countless great things. But against this we must weigh our myopia concerning history and our incessant rapaciousness. There is no doubt we are possessed by a vanity and arrogance that is common to many conquerors, and thus we wallow in our ancestry and form organizations that celebrate our glorious past. We laud our families’ great accomplishments, works, and deeds, and hardly pay any heed to those we displaced and annihilated. Then we troop off to our churches and thank God for our bounty, as if God hears the invocations of those who steal and murder.

            And now we want to protect our booty from those damn Hispanics–even though amongst our blood-soaked prizes were Texas, California, and the entire southwest. Yeah, we kicked Mexico’s ass in a few wars to secure all that land. The way I look at it, the Hispanics are merely coming back to settle on the turf they took from the natives. Of course, many Hispanics have a very high percentage of Native American blood, and thus their claim to the land may be more morally sound than those who are “real” Americans. So I have no problems whatsoever with the Hispanics coming back to settle in what we call the United States. I consider the vast majority of those who oppose them as ignorant, red-neck, sons-of-bitches who have no sense of history, justice, or morality. We have met the real enemies, and they are us.

            My family has roots that stretch way back, but I am also a child of more recent Italian immigrants who settled here in the 1910-1920 era. They worked hard, endured privations, and built a legacy that includes the likes of me. So I see the old and the new sides of the immigration debate, and will be damned if I laud the singularly stupid ideas of closing “our” borders or building great walls and fences. Yeah, ask the Chinese how well that approach worked out. Moreover, the real strength of America is its diversity, and ongoing influxes into the gene pool are not a bad thing. Indeed, new blood can be very beneficial, as the success of this country amply demonstrates. But rather than fight about all this, I say we let the Native Americans decide what kind of immigration policy the collective we should employ. Let the true owners of this land decide how it is to be shared, or if it is to be shared at all. They might have a far better sense of perspective than any of the illegal immigrants who currently call themselves Americans.     



 by Dr. George. H. Elder – 9/29/2015

I have no right to be safe from gun violence, at least in this land that I love. It has been ordained that owning guns is a personal right in the US, and this trumps my right to be secure from them. I cannot be safe in my home, on the streets, in school, or even in a church. In fact, there are about 89 guns for every 100 people in the US, making us the most armed society in the world. Gun owners tell me to get a pistol or shotgun if I feel threatened, and thus to make my personal safety predicated upon the willingness to harm another. This type of “freedom” is not the way I want to live, but personal choices are limited in this land of the free.

I know many responsible gun owners, people who are not a threat to anyone. I also know nut-cases who own all sorts of weapons, and they are a clear and present danger to anyone who happens to be near. But unlike cars or other dangerous tools, one doesn’t need any test or set of criteria to own a gun. If you’re not yet a convicted felon, that’s good enough. Thus Mad Tony has several guns. He’s half crazy when he’s drunk, which is over half the time. The walls of his trailer are pockmarked with bullet holes. Yeah, he’s out there, just waiting to cook off. But it’s all legal.

This is an odd country, a land wherein one personal freedom impedes one of the most fundamental rights we should all share–Freedom from fear. There is a bar down the way, and late at night the drunks stagger by. I sometimes wonder if Mad Tony will be one of them. His seething rage may become the death knell for some poor soul, or a cop, or a classroom full of kids. But this is how freedom works in America. There are no easy answers here. Most countries address firearm issues far differently than does the US, but the collective we are being forced to suffer the dreadful malevolence of Mad Tony and his cohorts. Every day the blood spills on our streets, in our homes, and even in churches. And so it goes in this land of the free.  



by Dr. George H. Elder

 Friday, September 18, 2015 – 3:11 AM

Another strange dream, but brutal in its theme and meaning. There were several wild animals chained to tree trunks that lined the far side of an open field. There was a doe, ferret, very large wildcat, goose, tubby woodchuck, raccoon, squirrel, and others, all of which were securely tethered to their respective posts. Every so often, a particular animal would lurch out and attack one of the others–but their arrangement was so contrived that it put one creature or the other at a great advantage or disadvantage. For example, the doe was built for speed and agility, a God-given ability to avoid attackers. Well, this was all taken away by the chains, and thus even the ground-hugging woodchuck could nip the doe’s legs if so inclined.

This greatly amused those watching, who hooted and howled with each inflicted wound. But I found the odd blood sport cruel and barbaric–the kind of stuff that went out with the middle ages. The wild cat really took it hard, being repeatedly set upon by creatures it could normally easily avoid or kill. The cat had by far the fiercest bite, and inflicted deep, bloody wounds on several of its compatriots. But the chains insured that it could not flee far, not that it tried to. Indeed, the feline was savagely attacked. The raccoon got a hold of its upper left arm and shattered the bone, leaving the wildcat limping on a mangled and disgustingly deformed appendage. But the worst damage was inflicted by the ferret. At one point, the fierce little beast tore a piece of the wildcat’s upper jaw off, a truly gruesome injury. I turned away in disgust.

Even during the dream, I knew what the theme was about–as in debate politics CNN style. The rating beasts were all tethered to their respective podiums, and ardent picadors asked each school-yard gibes designed to bring out conflict, the role of lancers in many blood sports. “Donald says your face looks real bad… just butt-ass ugly.” And so it went, with some monitoring the audience response to each and every word. Of course, Donald, the wildcat (?), supposedly got pretty ripped up–much to amusement of many. I found it much ado about ratings more than anything else, the press’ incessant need to make news rather than to report it. To be perfectly honest, I did not watch the debate, for I do not feed feral pigs if avoidable. My imagination took care of “real” content issues during this dream, albeit via a very disturbing and bloody metaphor.

As I reflect on the dream and debate, I find myself thinking of Alice and the Cheshire Cat. One day, the only thing left of Donald will be the fading image of those glaring eyes, that mocking mouth, and his famously-quaffed hair. The press is on the hunt, and such a tethered target has no chance. As for others, the best we can hope for is a wounded animal to crawl out of the bloody carnage, one of the few who managed to survive the press’ cull. As for me, I’ll have none of it. What is being conducted in neither debate nor news. It is puerile entertainment, an appeal to all that is vulgar and violent–those lowest possible denominators. Well, maybe I can get back to bed. Much to do today, and I am very tired.



 by Dr. George H. Elder, 9/16/2015

Given all the Texans who have died in the name of the United States in the last 100 years or so, I am sickened by those treacherous “Texicans” who now want to secede. Yeah, they have this big old petition going, and hundreds of thousands of long-horn lamebrains are signing on. You know, a growing number of us want Texas to go. We see many Texans as whiny little bitches who lack the courage and fortitude to be Americans. If you folks want to bug out, so be it. By historical rights, Mexico ought to make a claim, but I cannot think of ANY country that would want a horde of turn-coat traitors. So by all means, take a hike–you damn bunch of ignorant, inbred wusses. Go! You Texicans are an unmitigated shame to your fallen ancestors, your neighbors, the country, and yourselves.


Lord of the Flies

 by Dr. George H. Elder, 8/23/2015

Many of us are very close to nature in rural New England, with walks through cow fields occasionally providing wonderful analogies to the human condition. Of course, cows defecate, like all animals, with the freshest, smelliest, and juiciest cow pats attracting the most and largest flies. You can check it for yourself and find this is indeed the case, with some piles of poop attracting multitude flies. Now, it seems to me that American politics is strikingly similar in some ways. Take the ongoing Trump hysteria. Here is a guy who reminds me of the biggest manure pile possible, with every extreme claim and position being designed to generate the largest imaginable stink. So, McCain isn’t a hero, anchor babies is an acceptable term, Hispanic immigrants are criminals, and so it goes–spew, after oozy spew. Of course, the press is neither imaginative nor principled, being very much like flies in their knee-jerk stimulus/response behaviors. Thus, the press buzzes about smelly old Trump, leaving the lesser poopers to wither. Indeed, CNN and the others have an endless stream of special reports whenever Trump breaks wind and releases a mess, and the talking heads make the loudest buzz over each and every word. Hell, it’s so much easier to follow what gets ratings than to do anything akin to a public service, and so the drumbeat goes. Those eager beavers who love hyperbole and don’t reflect all that much on what is actually being said attend all the noise and hullabaloo. Some even like and admire the pungent fragrance of what is being served up, finding it a refreshing change from the bland odor they are accustomed to. “Yes, sir, it’s a great idea to put up a big fence to keep them damn Mexicans out. Get ‘er done! It don’t make no never mind how we pay for it.” And so the tea flows. I am amused by it all, cow-pat politics in the US. Yes, people are pissed off, but they don’t truly know why. They blame our collective ills on out-groups, politicians, foreigners, lawyers, and everyone but the person they see in the mirror. Truth is, America is dying of irresponsibility, as in looking towards others for faults that are clearly our own. It’s the teachers fault my kid is not doing well in school. It’s the cop’s fault I got busted for stealing. It’s the bosses fault my job sucks. We eat this crap up, such is our myopia. The fact that Trump’s dung has attracted so very many flies is ample proof that we are a lost people, for no thinking creatures could ever tolerate such a stench–let alone devour it. Ultimately, those who care about the country and this world have to save it by their own thoughts and deeds. One can only hope there are enough people to take up the slack and do the things needed for the species to survive, beginning with the person reading these words. As for those who prefer to buzz around piles of festering feces, there will always be hoards of those folks.    



by George H. Elder – 8/4/2015

I have not gotten any writing done for four or five months, mostly due to medical issues. But tomorrow, I will go out and about on the mobility scooter and enjoy the day. Nancy and I got a lot done lately. For example, my final affairs are now all paid for, so that’s a big pain out of the way. I should begin working on the time capsule and finish a few book projects. Alas, I must confess that the writing hasn’t been going well since this MSA flare-up, but that’s a lame ass excuse. The inspirational aspect about living in Rogers House is that one is provided with daily examples of people who display great courage while living with devastating illnesses and injuries. The point is, we ALL strive to live fully no matter what we are facing! And I have not felt more alive than I do now for the last four or five years. Sure, walking can be a problem, falls happen, and staying awake isn’t easy at times. But none of that matters here. Lots of us are in the same boat. We shoot the breeze, care about one another, and try to help each other as best we can. We have pot-luck dinners, play cards, hang out, and generally enjoy life. We plan community trips and special events, which are all part of a life well lived. I have never been in a community like this, and it is the perfect place for someone like me. I feel blessed to have landed in this place, and am, at long last, content. Life is good.   



by George H. Elder – 5/30/2015

Let us assume the person reading these words rejects the concept of God altogether, along with the notion that there is an underlying order or logos that gave rise to and sustains all that was, is and ever could be. In fact, let us also assume that one believes that the only forces in play are wrought by chance, random possibility, and similar views. It strikes me that these beliefs and ideas have a metaphysical essence, an underlying ideational pattern of thought that is based on assumptions, associations, inferences, and observations. This metaphysical pattern can serve as a self-replicating and perpetuating “spark,” one that invites contemplation, memorization, and sharing. With time, this pattern can become part of the socio-cultural tapestry that helps define our thoughts, views, and behaviors, especially since it can be spread and nurtured via the tools of communication–as in words and symbols like these. Thus, what began as an idea, the stuff of the metaphysical, becomes an organized and expressed impetus that can influence the physical through our teaching, art, and actions. For example, the idea of slavery became a tangible reality for many generations, at least until it was subordinated to other marketplace concepts–as in emancipation and freedom. The ideas of rockets, splitting atoms, cell phones and much more all became realities whose underlying properties and validity could be quantified, predicted, and demonstrated. To be sure, numerous aspects of our shared reality that began as mere thoughts were provided with an ideational basis that is far from random in its nature and complexity. Indeed, the fundamental logos underlying nearly all ideas can be given a sharable rationalistic basis, be that logic as complex as Special Relativity or as simple as, “It is so because it is so.” It strikes me that if we extend this logos, perhaps it is thoughts that provided the impetus that gave rise to thinkers such as you, the person reading this line. If this possibility exists in the metaphysical sense, one wonders why we ‘need’ to reject the Divine as an existential impetus–as in a thought about thought. Perhaps it is more efficacious to contemplate the nature and relationships of the potential metaphysical essences that may have helped spark what we are and what we share than to content ourselves with the simple notion that all is born of happenstance. Contemplating the possible roles and relationships that the metaphysical, energetic and physical might share takes us into a close examination of imagination, epiphanies, knowledge, and discovery, the very cusps of where thought and being intersect. To me, these contemplations are a form of prayer, which is the very thing we are doing at present. It is all is about pondering thoughts on thought. But what the hell do I know? 



by GHE101  March 6, 2015

Madam Leonedria: Oh, you did get my call! I was beginning to wonder. Alexander: Don’t get out much anymore. Madam Leonedria: Small wonder. My goodness, Alexander, you’re enormous. Alexander: Yeah, I’m pushing 350 pounds. Madam Leonedria: I’ve never fathomed your kind of narcissism. On the one hand, you feel bright and worthy, a veritable reflection of what created us. On the other, you willingly don a grossly obese body–which is neither bright nor worthy. Alexander: Madam Leonedria, it’s cold as hell out here. Madam Leonedria: Yes, yes, yes, do come in. Perhaps I’ve a chair that can suit your portage. But what a wretched creature you’ve become! Heavens, you need forearm crutches to walk. Alexander: Most of us age, and some don’t age gracefully. Madam Leonedria: Is that an excuse or a reason?   Alexander: A bit of both. Now where do you want me? Madam Leonedria: There’s a brown recliner in the living room that I reserve for those of your ilk. Goodness, it’s amazing how much you’ve changed. Alexander: Haven’t changed that much! Look, I’ve been over 300 pounds my entire adult life. Yeah, I’m the fattest ever right now. I’m also crippled, weak, impotent, ataxic, diabetic. . . . Oh, the list goes on and on. But I come to you in friendship, and a little of this fat-crap goes a long way! Madam Leonedria: What kind of friend would I be if I ignored the obvious? No person who was fortunate enough to have survived the “Widow Maker” should be gaining weight! You seem to have rejected the gift of time, a singularly ungrateful and nihilistic thing to do. Tell me, what plagues your soul? Alexander: Maybe I stopped caring. Madam Leonedria: Yes. It seems you’ve given up on life altogether, even to the extent that this conversation may never be finished. You’re winded and weak, beleaguered by a mass of unneeded flesh. Do you need help getting into the chair? Alexander: I’m not that crippled. Madam Leonedria: Perhaps not yet, dear child. But your knees make a chorus of sounds. My, my, my . . .  and there’s pain writ large on that countenance. Don’t expect offers of pizza or pasta, though a glass of ice water will be forthcoming. Alexander: That would be great, Madam. You’ve not changed much. Still a hard-ass. Madam Leonedria: And what kind of ass are you, Alexander? I could be cruel, but a person who punishes himself like you needs no more burdens. Here, let me take those crutches. Alexander: No, thanks. I’ll just lean them against the chair. And it’s a very comfortable perch. Madam Leonedria: Oh, please don’t recline! That old chair is not up to the challenge. Alexander: Don’t you think that’s enough loathing? Madam Leonedria: In that you’re writing these lines, it’s best seen as self-loathing. But the readers are finding it tedious and petty, so let’s move on. I’ll go to the kitchen and get some drinks. Alas, that cubby-hole is a poor excuse for a kitchen. Alexander: That’s how they build these places, small and efficient. I kind of like it. Madam Leonedria: The cave we first met in was a much better literary device. I imagine this setting was crafted because it’s the life you’re facing–a subsidized apartment for the disabled. Now, do I have any ice? Ah, here we go. Alexander: I was a better writer back then, not that I’ve ever been very good at the game. Madam Leonedria: You certainly haven’t made any money at it, let alone managed any significant recognition. Here you are, a fine libation. Alexander: Ah, I needed that. Thank you, Madam. Madam Leonedria: I’ll sit here, my favorite reading spot. Alexander: Could tell from the lighting set up. Oh, I see you’re perusing a text on Zeno. I prefer Marcus Aurelius, at least when examining Stoic philosophy. Some say he had the benefits of what time added to stoic ideas. Madam Leonedria: Oh, we’re trying to impress the readers!? Alexander: No, it’s just a lesson in how idealism conflicts with reality. Here we have an all-powerful emperor who authored Meditations. Heck, that text is still being read a few thousand years after Aurelius’ death. Yet his son proved that Aurelius was far better at theoretical expositions than practical applications. Madam Leonedria: Ah, Commodus. Yes, he was wicked by nearly any standard. I recall him being described as lustful and cruel, but let’s not get into tales of his debauchery. That could take an entire day. Alexander: I came here to discuss concepts of God. That will lead to many clashes between idealism and practical concerns. Just chumming the waters, so to speak. We should get to the subject while the reader’s mind is still open. Madam Leonedria: God! Really? How tedious. Why enjoin the idea of God? Look at what good the notion has done when compared with the ills wrought in its name. All those egotistical and delusional prophets spewing out empty verbiage–petty vestiges of that mythic stage all sentient life forms go through. Alexander: You’ve gotten much more judgmental. Madam Leonedria: Merely a reflection of the writer, my dear. Yet judgment is largely what the concept of God is all about. There is an assumption of celestial justice, some higher conceptualization of right, wrong, and other moral absolutes. Honestly, your kind has to pass through this stage! There isn’t a God that will help humanity unless the species learns to help itself.    Alexander: Well, our conceptualizations of God often help to determine what transpires within any give context–and that certainly can have an existential impact. Look at what these idiotic ISIS people are doing. Burning, looting, raping, killing–all in the name of Allah. They’re even smashing their own cultural history, destroying statues that are thousands of years old. Madam Leonedria: Discussing God will not stop any of that. If anything, your faiths talk of Armageddon and other nihilistic prophecies. To me, these ideas are childish and self-destructive, reflections of humanity’s primitive state. Your species has to get through this phase. By foolishly clinging to these notions, humanity simply perpetuates their likelihood. Alexander, one of the most fatal of all flaws is a willful avoidance of change when change is needed. It . . .  Did you just yawn? Am I boring you? Alexander: I’m sorry, Madam. I truly am. The trek over here took a bit out of me. Whew . . .  But please go on. I can keep up. Madam Leonedria: No, you’re not ready for anything deep right now. It’s clear from your eyes that rest is needed. I’m beginning to wonder about the continuity of this piece given your state. Allow me to do some contextualizing while you relax. It is 3:51 AM on a snowy winter’s day in White River Junction, Vermont. By Western human reckoning, the date is February 9, 2015. Yes, you fear where the current conceptualizations of God are leading humanity, especially given the many burgeoning religious conflicts. So we toss out this tale as a life-preserver of sorts–with the hope that someone will catch it while there is still time. The question you must answer, Alexander, is why this urge to help others exists when you cannot summon the determination to help yourself.  Alexander: I suppose part of me has given up on life. Yeah, there are times I long for death. The pain and disability do not matter that much. But my failures and regrets are legion, and that is killing me. I have completely failed them, Madam. My efforts have amounted to nothing. Madam Leonedria: Yet you keep trying, as in putting these words to print. That’s why we’re here, my son. You heard my call deep in the night. Yet you’re far too tired to share anything meaningful right now. Please, go back to sleep, and we’ll talk when you awake.  Alexander: Yes, my muse . . .  I’m so tired it hurts.


Madam Leonedria: You certainly didn’t sleep well–groaning, moaning, and shifting all about. I could hear you from my bedroom. Alexander: Knees are on fire and back is a mess. Oh, let me sip on this drink for a bit. Every day is like this. I hate it! Madam Leonedria: Yes, I call it the spiral. The less one does, the less he or she can do. Eventually, it leads to what I see before me. Alexander: It’s my own damn fault. Well, let’s get to it. Madam Leonedria: By the way, I follow that little website of yours.   Alexander: Oh, where I post views and essays. Sometimes 50,000 people a month follow my ramblings, for whatever those ramblings are worth. Madam Leonedria: Most of them are dreadful! You write about the need to defend and attack, to even kill. Has age so twisted your soul that you cannot see the immorality of these positions?  Alexander: I see the paradoxes all too clearly, an existentialist who supports ending the existence of others. But what is one to do about the likes of Putin and ISIS? Putin is a threat to all of humanity due to his incessant land-grabbing. Eventually he’ll over-reach, and that could end us all. And ISIS is an organization that actively fosters depravity. Madam Leonedria: As in burning people alive. Alexander: And they do it in the name of God! Madam Leonedria: So you appeal to expediency, the practical need to kill killers. Alexander: Which makes me like unto them. Yes, yes, I understand all this. Madam Leonedria: You turn away from the idealism of ideas and dreams. Instead, you embrace banal pragmatism. To kill or be killed. This is exactly what those evil people want who torture, rape, burn and pillage! They crave that this superstitious and volatile species believes that there is no option but Armageddon. Given humanity’s puerile and sensationalistic press, every vulgar deed streams into our collective consciousness. Fear, anger, revenge, and fools like you drive retaliation. And so goes–until the demons dwelling within this species help humanity to destroy itself. It doesn’t matter if it’s in the name of God, patriotism or some other dubious rationale. You have abetted this cause with simple-minded essays that appeal to the worst in us! Oh, such an unworthy path. These things are surely something for those with us to consider. Alexander: I’m sure they will. Yeah, I have become as my kind, though perhaps I’m less greedy than most. Madam Leonedria: We shall see. Your species is wantonly acting out its confusion and simplicity, committing reciprocal acts of violence that have the potential to obliterate any meaningful future. Tell me, do you think a common concept of God could change even one bit of that?   Alexander: No. Christian Germany went to war with Christian France, England and Russia. Heck, the Protestants and Catholics butchered each other for over a hundred years–all in the name of Christ. I could give many examples of Moslems, Hindus, and all the rest slaughtering people of their own faith. Greed, intolerance, pride, pettiness, . . .  They seem to trump religious beliefs. Madam Leonedria: As these traits have tainted your idealism. Yet those of dissimilar faiths also attack one another precisely because of their religious differences. Alexander: Very true. Moslems and Christians have been killing one another for centuries, and everyone seems to have it in for the Jews. And the Buddhists and Hindus don’t take a back seat to anyone when it comes to attacking those of different beliefs. It’s a mess. Madam Leonedria: So how does this quest to find God have any promise of ending an iota of that misery? Alexander: It doesn’t. My work hasn’t amounted to a pee-hole in the snow. Maybe that’s why I’ve given up. Maybe that’s why I’m eating like a pig. I want to die–to be free of this insanity. Madam Leonedria: Including your own? Alexander: Especially my own! For some reason, God allowed me to survive well past death’s knock on the door. I wrote and rewrote, but it was all for nothing! I am witnessing falling towers, horrible wars, and cruelty on a monstrous level–all the things I’ve seen in my worst dreams. And I have tried to use my time well. You know I have. How many hours did I toil on Reflections? Madam Leonedria: You got the text published–and a lot more. Alexander: Reflections was an unmitigated disaster! It was completed in the manner I didn’t fully embrace and marketed at an absurd cost. I’ll leave a better rendition in my on-line files. Maybe someone will read it. Madam Leonedria: Does it matter? After all, you’ve given up on the concepts and idealism that the book articulates. Alexander: Its failure was a crushing blow. So I blog and waste time on trivial posting boards–doing no meaningful work. I so want God to take me . . .  for there to be that sleep that knows no waking. Madam Leonedria: That’s why I called you. The fatalism screamed out to me, which is no friend of existence, happiness, or much of anything positive. But are you strong enough for the task at hand? Alexander: It is a matter of desire. But the fact I’m here means something. Madam Leonedria: It does indeed. Yet it has been over six pages, and we haven’t advanced the cause very much.  Alexander: Context. It’s all about context. Let’s cut to the chase, as in seeking to describe the nature of God. Madam Leonedria: Oh, that word . . .  that terrible, terrible word! Why can’t you use the term Om, YAHWEH, Elohim, or a thousand others?   Alexander: We’ve discussed this many times. Nearly all those terms refer to an entity, a discrete being. It’s supposedly something with a distinct presence that is separate from us. Yet somehow, this omniscient and omnipotent creator opts to commune with our like, to care about our sorry asses. Thus the notion of a cosmic, white-haired, old man reaching a heavenly finger toward us–which I agree is a primitive concept. Madam Leonedria: Are you still maintaining that God is plural? Alexander: As in all things, actions, and thoughts.  Madam Leonedria: Thus encompassing matter, energy, and metaphysics. Alexander: All of which ride the arrow of time. Madam Leonedria: Be careful about treating time as an arrow. Its directionality is sometimes not what it appears. Alexander: We’ll get back to that. But yes, I think that perceiving God as a singular and discrete being is a grave mistake–albeit one that nearly all faiths have made. At least the Moslems and Jews don’t put a human face on the entity, except to note that we’re created in its image. Madam Leonedria: Some would call that the ultimate act of egotism. And didn’t you see your own reflection while looking for God? Alexander: Only to the extent that it taught me that we don’t have to look far for what all things are already one with. Madam Leonedria: Including those reading these words. But what about me, Alexander? Am I one with your concept of God? Alexander: To my way of thinking, you are indeed part of God. But isn’t that the problem? How does one put a form on an idea? Those with us read these lines and formulate an image of you, not that I’ve been effusive by way of description. Yet they will recall some of what we discussed and surely view you in the light of being a discrete entity. Madam Leonedria: Much like some have a vision of God that is based on what they have learned. Alexander: Yes, we tend to consider ideas as realities, even if they lack an energetic or physical presence. With regard to concepts of God, we do this to the extent that we will kill to preserve and protect our notions against all opposing ideas. I keep asking myself, what if we come upon life forms that differ from ours and have very distinct ideas. Madam Leonedria: Including ideas concerning God or the lack thereof. If such beings are advanced enough to bring themselves to other planets, most would also be wise enough to avoid communing with parochial and violent species. Alexander: Exactly. Perhaps the most basic criteria in moving beyond our current turmoil is to understand that we are just one of many species. Being one of many does not negate our identity nor presume a duty or right to impose our notions on others. We may one day learn how to listen and tolerate as well as express and opine. I know we cannot do that among our own kind at present. But the impetus of communing with an “outsider” might change our perspectives enough to open our hearts. At that point, I suspect we’ll more fully understand how much all life is interrelated. We may differ in degree, yet are united by physical and energetic principles, shared ideas, and this treadmill called time. Madam Leonedria: Such simplistic speculation, isn’t that what they’ll say? “Look, he’s writing about aliens and ETs! That guy is . . . .” Oh, what do they say? Ah, whacked. Yes, you are whacked. Then they will walk away from all this and begin turning the pages of their sacred texts. And tell me, what has happened to our talk about God in all this? Has it done any good? Alexander: I think our discussion dovetails well with the properties I’m striving to ascribe to God. I suppose the first tenet, if we want to call it that, is that God is all things and thus no one thing. The name we use to describe this amalgamation is one of convenience alone, as in a conceptual key that denotes the set of all things–including itself. Madam Leonedria: Paradox, how sweet thou are. Tell me, is God good, bad, big, small, hot, cold and all the rest? Alexander: God is all things, the collective and dynamic interactions of which determine what is or isn’t the case at any given point within time and space. If a species is ignorant on a particular planet, God lacks insight there. If a star is unstable, so too is God’s nature in that case. God is manifest in the myriad and shifting details that define all contexts. Madam Leonedria: And in that all contexts are ultimately related to one another, however indirectly, so too does your concept of God serve as a thread that runs throughout. Alexander: But it’s a dynamic thread in that all things change. Thus, God cannot be a fixed conceptualization if it’s tied up in the processes that sustain change or balance equilibriums. Its nature must vary according to the collective nuances that define a given context. Perhaps this should be our second principle. Madam Leonedria: Alexander, if all things are linked, and insight is part of all things, how can God possibly lack insight, love or any other thing? Alexander: Oh, good point. Well, these traits may not be altogether lacking, but are clearly not abundant in certain contexts. Madam Leonedria: Perhaps it is a simple matter of bothering to look. This concept of God sounds terribly impersonal. Alexander: Part of God is people, animals, and all things that can think. Some are self-aware, and thus so too is God aware. Some are good, and thus so too is God. Madam Leonedria: The same goes for greed, hunger, lust, and all the rest. Alexander: I think primitives tend to ascribe all the traits of themselves to God. Thus God gets angry. God punishes. God does what we do but on a much grander scale. Of course, if we postulate God is all that is, then God encompasses far more than what we are. We’re just a tiny piece of an unfathomable whole. Madam Leonedria: And some of these tiny pieces have the capacity to perceive the nature of the whole. Isn’t that what you have postulated? Alexander: Indeed. In fact, I’ve proposed that the purpose of life is to evolve species that can come to reflect on life’s purpose. Madam Leonedria: And part of that purpose is to reflect upon the nature of God. Alexander: Thus giving rise to God’s presence. Madam Leonedria: At least in the metaphysical sense. Alexander: Yes, and there are times when our thoughts strive to encapsulate the whole into the perception of a singularity, as was the case in my dreams. Madam Leonedria: Ah, that “dynamic being of ultimate selflessness” you once communed with. This is where you strove to forge a plural into a singular and found yourself as one with it. Alexander: Thus substantiating that God could not be fully conceptualized as a singular presence, at least by me. When I tried to seek that kind of distinct presence, I got blinded by the light. I was also linked with the thoughts of others, a grand communion that was shared by all. It was a profound experience. Yet I failed to tell the story in a way that changed anything. Madam Leonedria: Alexander, do you suppose these ramblings and views help your kind when it comes to dealing with their current problems? Will it stop a man from burning his neighbor alive or raping a child? Alexander: I think these notions may help some to better understand how interrelated we all are. Yes, people do horrible acts in the name of God, but most have no understanding that God is in all things! Madam Leonedria: Including their horrible acts. Indeed, isn’t that how some justify their terrible deeds? Aren’t they acting as the hand of God? Alexander: They certainly think they are! And if they want to make aspects of God horrible and terrible, they are accomplishing that end. But how can such people then claim that God is a kind and merciful being? God is what they have made it, a capricious and violent source that is as likely to kill as to love. It seems to me that these people have to take the step of assuming personal responsibility for helping to make God into a dreadful and vulgar thing. People of terror have to see they are striving to make God terrible–be it a plural or singular. Madam Leonedria: But can these ideas change behaviors? Alexander: That is the question. If we look at God as the sum of all things, it stands to reason that our collective personal behaviors go into helping to define if God is good, bad, or indifferent within the contexts we share. So obviously, understanding our personal responsibility in helping to shape contexts should make us ponder a bit about our worst tendencies and behaviors. Madam Leonedria: Unless we want to live upon a world plagued by violence, greed, duplicity, and many other ills. And clearly, many of your kind desire the world to be set alight. They have no moral compunction about committing the most depraved acts. So I ask again, can the ideas you’re articulating change behaviors? Alexander: Perhaps not. If people want a God of fire and destruction, that is what they will forge. Oh, I’ve failed in so many ways. My ideas have not changed my behavior, so how can I expect them to change others? If anything, I am becoming more aggressive and dogmatic with age. I openly call for assassinations, military actions, and even war. I know that by doing so I help give presence to their reality in this world of being. Madam Leonedria: True enough. You’ve become part of the problem and not the cure. But why, Alexander? Why have you strayed from existential ideals and embraced such brutal pragmatism? Alexander: Well, if all things are of God, so too is war, evil, and festering warts. Like it or not, these ills must be treated. I regard religious extremists as a cancer, and when this sickness become malignant and deadly–it must be excised. Madam Leonedria: Perhaps a better question is why do such blights exist? Alexander: I believe they are tests of sorts. Being seeks to perfect itself by way of form and thought. If we are fatally flawed in any way, we go extinct. Madam Leonedria: Which is the norm. All is in flux, including the elements that make this speck of rock inhabitable. A flawed species may kill itself through its own deeds or be extinguished by great rocks that fall from above. But why would a kind and loving God craft a universe such as this? Why do death, illness, hatred, greed, and all the rest exist? Alexander: They exist because being allows for all things that can exist. It is as simple and ruthless as that. All that is required is the correct contextual milieu, and even the most unlikely possibilities become realities. Yet if there is a thread that runs throughout, it has to be the seminal act that allowed what we call reality to exist–be it the Big Bang or something else. To me, this was an event when the one became the many, where the singular became the plural. On a moral level, it was an act of self-sacrifice, love, and giving. Madam Leonedria: A scientist might not see it that way. And it is clear that many of your religious leaders do not accept the idea that their collective deeds and acts help make God what it is. Alexander: Thus a holy man who preaches high ideas goads others to cut off the heads of prisoners and burn people alive. On a more mundane level, probabilities based on widely shared traits often become readily manifest. There are manifold examples of where greed, fear or intolerance leads to betrayal, murder, strife, and even war–all-too-often occurrences in this universe. Yet I do not see how the mere knowledge of how and why these ills occur can change our behavior. Look, I am still a glutton, even though I know it is killing me. Madam Leonedria: Are you a good man?  Alexander: I think not. That’s one reason I find precious little joy in this existence. I willfully surround myself with conflict by way of expressing ideas and opinions in harsh ways, though I seldom harm others. Madam Leonedria: Come now! You seek battle with words, and could not care less whom you insult or anger. You wallow in petty discord and angst, which most certainly does harm to others. Isn’t this true?  Alexander: Yes, I am a cyber-bully, a keyboard hero who takes no prisoners. Madam Leonedria: And this betrays your unbridled pugnacious attitude, egotism, and banal spirit. Given this, the person reading these words ought to consider the viability of anything you have to say, Alexander. Your soul is still wracked by the ills your father helped plant, although some of these ills are of your own making. Do you suppose the reader has some of the same foibles? Alexander: Our negative tendencies may differ, but all of us have them. But does sharing this obvious fact get us any closer to chaining our nihilistic traits? To be honest, I like the feeling of battle. It is a primal sort of urge. Within another context, I could have easily been a warrior–and been up to my elbows in blood. Madam Leonedria: Or perhaps you could have been a simple thug or a holy man goading the troops into battle. Nearly all humans have such ancestors in their genetic heritage. At one point or another, the blood of saints and sinners pumps through all hearts. Yet some clutch onto good ideals, while others let them slip away. Have you let your ideals slip away, Alexander? Is that why you seek death? Alexander: That’s part of it. But it’s mostly a feeling of abject failure and hopelessness. I don’t know why I love the species but often despise individuals. The contradictions are infinite, and my ability to change anything is nil–including myself. Madam Leonedria: As was noted, all fatally flawed species are defined by extinguishing themselves, just as are fatally flawed individuals. I presume you can see the linkage. So tell me, will the extinction of humanity diminish God in any way? Surely, your species is but a speck of flotsam within an infinite sea. Alexander: Oh, but how many specks have the capacity to contemplate their relationship with the whole?   Madam Leonedria: A very good question. Moreover, what is our collective responsibility to the whole? Alexander: I suppose the most essential element is preserving the capacity to ask such a question. Madam Leonedria: Which implies preserving life. Yet you’ve turned from that, both in your writing and your personal life. You advocate killing and live in constant conflict with others and yourself. Who are you to teach anyone anything? Alexander: I ask myself that all the time. Well, I don’t know how to contain our ills. Last night, I thought about possible nonlethal means of dealing with violent extremists. My mind ran toward gases, sound, and other measures that could temporarily incapacitate. Thus forces could safely enter any area to subdue miscreants–and do so with a minimal loss of life. Weapons could be confiscated and criminals could be arrested. Madam Leonedria: And then the miscreants could be locked away in cages of iron to ruminate of their behavior. Interesting. You’ve never written about this before. Alexander: It is where this conversation is leading. Perhaps there are ways of purging ourselves of those who kill that don’t involve killing. It would be a daunting task to invent a stun ray or environmental agent that could quickly and safely put large areas to sleep. Hmmm. Madam Leonedria: It’s a question of technology. Yet even should humanity develop means of mass incapacitation, who would control them? Alexander: Big Brother, in one form or another. That is problematic, yet so too is bombing an entire city. But we’ve strayed far from an examination of God. Madam Leonedria: Not at all, and especially if God is in all things–like these very thoughts we’re sharing. Listen, killing is hardly ever the only way, and it can never be embraced from an existential perspective. For example, education has the capacity to change souls, as do meaningful jobs and education. Your terrible failure has been in advocating violence and death, and doing so publicly. Yet there is hardly a word you’ve written about using technology, learning, or economics as means of salvation. That was an ignorant and terrible oversight, but I suspect you know that.  Alexander: Yet here we are, contemplating a new course. Whew, I am so damn tired. May I use the bathroom? Madam Leonedria: Of course. I can see from your haggard expression that a little rest is also in order. 


Madam Leonedria: Time to wake up, my son. Your snoring could wake the dead. Alexander: Whew . . .  very dizzy. Madam Leonedria: You certainly are not well, but much of that is your own doing. Do you wish to continue? Alexander: Let me get my bearings first. Man, there are times the world just keeps spinning . . .   Madam Leonedria: Let us hope so. But I understand, as in your perception of the world. Alexander: For sure. Now where were we? Madam Leonedria: We had just discussed nonlethal means of dealing with those who take life and threaten existence. It seems a technological leap is needed, and then comes the issue of who controls the methods employed. There must also be rules and principles in effect. Alexander: Oh, the use of such tools probably should involve national and international legislators as well as military and executive-level folks. The use of knock-out technology cannot rest in the hands of one person alone. That is for sure. Yet one has to maintain secrecy and security, so public debates are probably not a good idea. Madam Leonedria: One would think the open threat of such a device might prevent people from acting as terrorists. Alexander: Perhaps it would on a large scale that seeks to occupy entire countries or cities. Hmmm . . .  Odds are they would adapt and disperse. Madam Leonedria: Indeed. Thus your nonlethal means have limited applications. Alexander: Well, the threat of knock-out weapons prevents people of murderous intent from gathering en masse. That’s a huge plus. And it could be used on a smaller level to help save schools, shopping centers, and the like that are under attack. Madam Leonedria: Presuming there is sufficient time. But people will find a way of killing if this is their intent. They will plant bombs and far worse, as history has shown time and again. Alexander: One can see why so many prefer the means of simply killing the bastards–though that does make us like unto them. Well, we can also employ propaganda, education, jobs, and economic means. It’s sort of like a full-court press wherein those who find answers in killing are forced to consider alternatives. And some of these means can be far more easily implemented than gathering up armies and the like. Madam Leonedria: I think one also has to consider the reasons many groups seek to kill and destroy. Often, there is a grave injustice involved, such as the case of the Jews and Palestinians. One group tossed the other off the land it had occupied for 2,000 years, claiming a God-given right to do so. Alexander: That festering sore will plague us until the end of days. Both sides use religion as a basis for their claims, and both sides have valid issues. The Jews have a right to a homeland and so do the Palestinians. But it’s bullshit for one people or the other to claim a land that belongs to neither! From my perspective, the area belongs to God, and God alone. If those fools cannot share it in peace, they’ll surely share it in death. Madam Leonedria: Perhaps taking the world with them. Alexander: That’s because politicians are greedy and short-sighted enough to take sides. The US is Israel’s plaything because there are enough Jews in the country to form a very powerful and wealthy lobby. US politicians are notorious for their wanton greediness, intolerance, and dishonesty. They hover around lobbies like pigeons pecking grain from whichever hand holds out the most bounty. The Palestinians have their own lobby of sorts. Many Moslem countries sympathize with them, and blindly supply money, arms, and political support. Thus the dynamics are in play for Armageddon. You know, this political nonsense is an odd direction for a treatise on God to take. It only serves to piss off readers from one side or the other. Madam Leonedria: Perhaps not, especially given your definition of God as being in all things. I believe that some of those with us might perceive that such an approach can be a means of uniting us in a common understanding of how much we all share. Do you think anything could cement that view on a universal basis? Alexander: The very moment humanity discovers it is but one of many intellects in the universe is the time when this basic idea will become widely accepted. Oh, there will be debate, but who could argue that God has our form or our traits alone after such an event? We would see that humanity is a family within a vast community, and that we have to get our house in order before going afield. It’s surviving until that time that is the key. Madam Leonedria: Let me refresh your drink, Alexander. Alexander: Thanks. I do feel peaked. Madam Leonedria: Some forms of suicide are excruciating, and it saddens me to see you taking that path. Here you go. Alexander: Mmmm . . .  Water can be so very refreshing. Madam Leonedria: Clean water is a precious and rare commodity. Now let’s get back to the task. I agree that when humanity has proof of what it already knows, there will be a profound change in its nature. Why do you suppose that those who might be watching this tiny orb develop opt to remain hidden? Alexander: We’re eff’n primitives, Madam! Look at what is happening all over this planet. We butcher one another for the most petty reasons. And I’m like the rest of my kind, ever willing to cause and act with anger and violence. Madam Leonedria: All sentient species eventually understand the various stages of personal and societal development. Good heavens, texts are shared on the subject–along with encyclopedias of species. Currently, your specie’s technological prowess is far ahead of its philosophical evolution. This can lead to some dreary outcomes, so why doesn’t one of the enlightened simply swoop down and intervene? Alexander: There may be rules about interacting with primitives, though I’m not sure primitive is a good word to use. Ignorant or uninformed may be better terms. Humans have the capacity to understand and craft nearly everything that is possible–which is probably a fairly rare faculty. Look at Earth’s evolution. The planet has been around for over four billion years, and humans have only recently evolved. Some postulate we’re only a few hundred thousand years old. That’s a lot of time to pass for this relatively minute moment of intellectual development. Think of the knowledge we’ll have in just 5,000 years. Madam Leonedria: If humans survive their self-destructive tendencies. Alexander: I imagine some species don’t. If that’s the case, it’s best that we don’t develop the capacity to go hither and yon, at least not yet. I shudder to think about what we could bring into the heavens if we traveled through the garden in our current state. We would simply perpetuate our ills on countless worlds. In addition, the kind of knowledge needed to go out and about would give us access to the power of self-extermination to the nth degree. Hell, we’re close to that capacity as it is. Madam Leonedria: There are means to extinction that could defy your imagination, Alexander. Once grasped, a madman could let loose a device that could collapse or dissolve all that humanity is or ever could be. Alexander: If we don’t do it to ourselves accidentally. Madam Leonedria: Indeed. No advanced species would want an aggressor traveling through the heavens. Nor would they embrace giving an unenlightened species the technological wherewithal to destroy itself–either by accident or willful deeds. Alexander: Well, that problem has probably occurred many times during the course of history. One day we may read all about it, but I speculate those in the know certainly don’t want to bring future cataclysms into existence. So they watch and wait. I’m not sure if all species share the same guidelines about making themselves known, but I am sure that history is writ large with examples of failed interactions. Madam Leonedria: Again, we’ve gone from God to aliens, with a knowledge of aliens perhaps leading to a greater understanding of the nature of God. The readers are finding this theme redundant and tiresome, so why do we keep going there? Besides, it doesn’t seem that aliens are going to make their presence known any time soon! So how does humanity get over this existential hump? Alexander: That’s the problem. We need to buy time so that we can walk through time. Madam Leonedria: That’s a peculiar sentiment coming from a man who is committing suicide by gluttony. You so disappoint me. Alexander: I disappoint myself. Time . . .  It’s all about time. Madam Leonedria: As in mastering time? I think we’ve discussed this before. Alexander: Yes, if we manage to survive, odds are we’ve already learned how to manipulate time in the future. Madam Leonedria: We decided that’s not a good thing to do, if I recall correctly. Alexander: I know. One mistake vitiates an entire timeline. Of course, the counter-argument is that this mistake was already factored into being. That makes the past dynamic and violates the arrow of time’s temporal logic. Madam Leonedria: This eventually gets us wrapped up in the free will versus destiny conundrum. The readers might not like where that goes. Alexander: It goes right back to how we define God. If God is . . .   Madam Leonedria: If, if, if . . .  Is there any need for a concept of God in anything we’re discussing? Every species goes through this nonsense, this clinging to mythos. My goodness! You’re like two-year-olds gazing into a mirror. Look, you had a displaced people who crafted themselves as “the chosen” by the one true God. You had a carpenter who proclaimed himself as the only begotten son of the one true God! There was a merchant warrior who set people to the sword, with his inspiration coming from the one true God. When will your kind ever learn? My child, can’t you see that the notion of a one true God has led to only division and strife? Each has his or her perception, and these cannot be unified because . . .    Alexander: . . .  each person’s perceptions are unique. They’re often based on our individual experiences. These form unique memories that color our opinions and behaviors. Madam Leonedria: Thus we differ in our interpretation of word meanings–including the term God. Do we really need to get into this? The basic concepts are fairly simple. Alexander: Are we getting lazy? Madam Leonedria: Let’s avoid boring the reader. Alexander: That train may have already left the station. Be that as it may, I think you’re dead wrong about examining the concept of God. It can lead us anywhere, if prejudice and intolerance is abandoned.  Madam Leonedria: But why does the idea need to be called God? You haven’t answered that to my satisfaction. Alexander: Perhaps too much opprobrium or bias has been attached to the word by some. Maybe you’re right. But I thought part of this exercise was to encourage the readers to examine their own bias.  Madam Leonedria: Perhaps that was part of your purpose. Alexander: Ah, you remind me of Variety. Madam Leonedria: It’s hard to keep the characters distinct after a while. But please, try to tender another word or name for God. Alexander: Well, based on semantics, we could call God “akin.” That implies alike, of the same kind, analogous . . .   Madam Leonedria: This dictionary cites similar, related, close, near, corresponding, comparable, equivalent; connected, alike, analogous, and more. But how could one adequately describe us as being part of something that can reflect upon its own nature?   Alexander: Hmmm. I have to ponder this. Connected to existence . . . cosubstantial? No, that sounds like Burke. Meta-awareness–as, awareness of being aware?  Madam Leonedria: If you can’t find a name for a concept, perhaps you shouldn’t be writing about it. Alexander: Screw that! You wanted me to dump a perfectly good word, “God.” And this was done out of prejudice. Madam Leonedria: Not to mention intolerance. And these seem to be the very problems we’re seeking to address! Alexander: True enough. OK, I’ll play the game. We must relate any term used to our essential oneness with all things . . .  Beyond cosubstantial, we have to add a reflective capacity. And it has to incorporate a capacity wherein being, thought, and relatedness are all ensconced as fundamental aspects of existence. Whew . . .  existential familyism? No, no . . .  familyism carries baggage, as does existentialism. Finding a neutral term is a bear of a job! Madam Leonedria: I think you’re getting a bit closer. Alexander: Family, united, dynamic, akin . . . united! Existential Unitarianism! Of course, this has nothing to do with the Unitarian church and its dislike of the trinity. But the idea of oneness with all is there. Madam Leonedria: Existential Unitarianism sounds like the name of a faith rather than a distinct concept. Yet that doesn’t bother me. I simply want you to understand that words have consequences. I know you prefer the term God when discussing these ideas, but we’re well beyond the traditional definitions. Some species use the terms Sprag, Econoly, and Maqua as semantic pathways to what we’ve discussed. As you’ve noted, the terms simply open the door to meanings that are united in essence and nuance. Indeed, some use the term Essence instead of God. Alexander: Well, many terms can be made synonymous with God. They all encapsulate a way of perceiving the nature of being–which includes the concept of perception itself. They’re all linked at some level. Madam Leonedria: The terms may be linked, but you hardly seem the correct person to articulate anything to do with existence. Alexander: Still angry about my embracing the need to kill? Madam Leonedria: Advocating death is the very opposite of what you’ve learned. Alexander: There are different paths, Madam Leonedria, and we must take the ones we can walk. Humanity is far from having the capacity to constrain groups like ISIS without killing, though I conceed that we must work on developing better means. For now, they are a clear and present danger that does not accord us time or space. You take an idealistic perspective. I consider practical needs. Madam Leonedria: Banal pragmatism. Such a sad turn of events. You had promise, Alexander. But there is nothing special about you that isn’t special about all people. Perhaps your dreams sprang from the influence of drugs. Maybe your insights are little but ego mixed with imagination. Perhaps you grasped bits of the truth, but failed to consider fully your responsibility. Tell me, what good have you done? Alexander: I give voice to various perspectives, and that’s the best I can do. I am torn by the issues we’ve discussed, and recognize how terribly flawed it is to kill. I look toward God as an ideal, but see how far we are from that concept. Madam Leonedria: By definition, idealism is or it isn’t. But you look tired, my son. Alexander: I am. I have to head home, which means I must get up. Madam Leonedria: Let me help you. Alexander: You already have, my friend. Well, we made it through this dialogue. Madam Leonedria: Yet there is much more to discuss. Alexander: And miles to go before I sleep.



by Dr. George H. Elder  2/9/2015

I listened to Merkle and Obama today. I am stunned by the weakness of the German and US positions with regard to preserving the Ukraine’s territorial integrity against Russian encroachment. One is reminded here of Neville Chamberlain’s infamous dealings with Herr Hitler, a show of weakness that led to WWII. The complete impotence of Germany’s position is partially due to their anemic armed forces, with a mere 225 main battle tanks making up the real power (or lack thereof) of the German armored divisions. Against this, we see roughly 20,000 Russian main battle tanks. One thus sees a major reason for Merkle selling the Ukraine out–and that is very much what she is doing. Obama is floundering for a position, for he too recognizes the relative weakness of the NATO ground forces. The US has considerable military power, but it has been cast hither and yon, with most of our Cold War European forces being withdrawn. Yes, everyone thought the Cold War was over, and few contemplated that a new Hitler would arise to threaten Europe’s borders. And make no mistake about it, Putin is already redrawing the map–a process that involves turning the Ukraine into a vassal and impotent semi-state. In some respects, the Ukraine is partially responsible for its current military situation. Graft and corruption laid waste to the military for many years, and now we see brave soldiers go into battle with antiquated equipment, very little training, and no real doctrinal knowledge about how to overcome the enemy they face. Some of this is the result of negligence by past regimes, and some of it is due to poor current planning. But the fact is, the Ukrainians must save themselves because the key players in NATO will not save them. The Germans and French won’t even offer equipment, which shows just how “scary” Putin must have been during the recent meetings. The German weakness is particularly stunning, and I confess to having utterly failed to comprehend how dreadful their military situation is. The German government has put its people at grave risk, as any review of their armed forces will quickly demonstrate. Germany has become Europe’s “weak sister.” Poland has significantly greater military forces than does Germany, but they also have a very long border to protect. In the meantime, NATO sends the Ukrainian troops blankets! That is slim comfort to those who are in the sights of Putin’s minions. The justification is that NATO doesn’t want to see a proxy war. Apparently, NATO would rather see a one-sided slaughter! The real lesson here is to trust only yourselves, and not those who you thought were friends. I feel compelled to apologize for my country’s lack of action, though as always–the US is “hinting” that we will supply defensive weapons. Please don’t hold your breath on that. I thought US weapons would have been flowing in three months ago, but given the current “Rebel” offensive–I see no evidence of any advanced anti-armor weapons. Of course, the Ukrainian forces are taking a toll on the Russian invaders, and lives are being exchanged for ground. Theoretically, the Ukraine should be able to defend itself from the current threat even with its dated military inventory, but theory and practice are two different things. Sadly, the Ukraine is on its own, and all I can do is hope and pray. Please understand that many of us are not like Andrea Merkle or Obama. We welcome the idea of our countries sending the means needed to help Ukrainians defend their country. But our voices run up against the fear and lethargy of our leaders, and thus the power of Putin grows by the day. The stand Ukraine is making may cost that demon enough men, money, and material to change his plans, and thus the fate of many resides in the hands of those Ukrainian soldiers who are fighting for their country. Clearly, if Putin prevails, he will move to the next target, and so it will go until the walls fall everywhere. Some of us in the US are writing letters like this and urging our leaders to act. I’m not sure we can shift current policies, but we are trying. Indeed, many of us stand with the Ukrainian people–and we will work to help you in any way we can. May God be with you.    


Killing Killers

by Dr. George H. Elder  2/4/2015

 The pictures of captured Jordanian pilot Moaz al-Kasasbeh being burned to death by ISIS are haunting and disturbing. I was amazed by the valor al-Kasasbeh showed while the burgeoning fire consumed him. There he stands as the fire envelops his lower body–defiantly glaring at his tormentors. Here was a man of consummate bravery who was incinerated by a group of demonic cowards. They wore masks to hide their identities, yet their was no hiding their perfidy and wickedness. I tend to be liberal-minded–but with each passing day I become more convinced that every member of ISIS needs to be annihilated. This extends to anyone who has given them comfort or support, wherever they be.  If the devil has a face and presence on this earth, it is that of every wretched soul that is affiliated with ISIS. This group works against life, dwells in a realm of unfathomable ignorance, and brings death and misery wherever it goes. They are not Moslems. They are demons that are bent on unleashing unmitigated savagery under the guise of faith, an army composed of the worst dregs the world has to offer. It is the duty of all who believe in life, faith, and reason to effect their total annihilation, without mercy or recourse. Yes, we all know killing is wrong, but it is also wrong to tolerate mass murderers who rape, torture, and enslave en masse.  Soon enough, ISIS will be here in the states, and many suspect it already is. After all, every society harbors the disillusioned, those angry and bitter people who so easily give up their souls to any dubious cause. They hear the fool’s call, shed their humanity, and give free reign to their darkest impulses. Thus life’s marginalized malcontents and castoffs bask in becoming “holy warriors,” with their bitterness justifying unimaginable cruelty. The only recourse we have is to give them the same kind of treatment they so willingly give onto others. There can be no rehabilitation for those who have freely shed their souls, nor should we entertain taking them as prisoners. Do unto them as they have done unto others.     These mindless zealots are not an abstract threat. They are a terrible and growing reality that represents an existential danger. Given their efforts to secure chemical and biological weapons, does anyone doubt they’ll use these agents? ISIS has amply proven it is capable of boundless cruelty, and its leadership has publicly stated its goal is the destruction of our culture. If it takes boots on the ground to hunt these demons down, it is a misery that we have to endure. I know we have squandered much treasure and lives in fighting foolish and pointless wars, but ISIS is a peril we must face. They have given the world no choice, and have fully proven their depraved intent by way of beheadings, mass killings, and every imaginable type of torture.  The fight will not be easy because ISIS is not a nation. It is a terrible set of nihilistic ideas that swirl around in the minds of zealots, criminals, and fools–the devil’s fodder. The folly of joining this group must be demonstrated, though death is not deterrent to those who are willing to die. To these demons, there is no answer but obliteration, brutal, sure, and final. To those on the cusp, the complete futility of fighting a losing battle must serve as a restraint, though this can only be partially effective. The real battle is for the soul of those on the cusp, and this is surely a matter of faith. Islam is being bastardized, and those who thrive off mutilating its ideals must be exposed, isolated, and sealed in iron cages. Yes, defeating ISIS will not be easy, yet there is not choice. The irony is that we must expend lives and take lives to save lives. That is the grim irony of this kind of war. There is no other way…     http://www.nydailynews.com/news/world/jordanian-pilot-reportedly-burned-death-new-isis-video-article-1.2101691



by George H. Elder: 1/30/2015

The NFL is beneath our contempt in MANY ways. They’ve done all they possibly could to raise hell with the Pat’s, and it seems they never had a case to begin with concerning “deflate gate!” The hysterical press went wild, as they ALWAYS do, and we were bombarded with BS for several days. How can league sources, “experts,” or press-bought talking heads accuse anyone of deflating the Pat’s damn footballs when the officials never took the balls’ initial pressures? The whole story was crap from the get go–and the league knew it! There is NO damn way I’m watching the Super Bowl! Why the hell should I support the NFL in any way, shape, or form? The NFL is a corrupt organization as far as I am concerned, and is not worthy of our support. I know most will watch the game, but watching just pays the idiots who run the league. A cut in ratings hurts their bottom line, and I’m all for that. It is time for those at the top to go.


The Evil Pat’s

by George H. Elder :  1/22/2015

The evil Patriots are now the #1 story on national news, mostly because the press are mindless and unimaginative lemmings who habitually dwell on petty vulgarities. And this story is pure duff mixed with uninformed hysteria, the stuff reporters thrive off. Alas, I fear this BS is taking away from game prep. The Pat’s will play angry, but this is turning into a dreadful distraction. In fact, both Brady and Coach B were making their cases before the thought police today–which is crap. They should have been watching film and preparing. You know, I didn’t care all that much if the Pat’s won or lost in the Super Bowl, but now I want them to win. Like it or not, football is all about winning. And if anyone one thinks it is a “clean” game–watch closely what happens along the O and D lines. Each and every play could be called for something, not that this justifies deflated footballs. But I wonder if punching someone in the throat is worse than a deflated ball? What about kicking someone, or tripping him? Is that worse? Football is a violent game, and I have NEVER expected anything other than what we get. Did the Pat’s cheat? Maybe. Do other teams cheat? Maybe. Do players sometimes do cheap and illegal things to one another? Hell, yeah! Is it right? Probably not. But given a “war-game” setting wherein careers are at risk and millions of dollars change hands, what does one expect? To me, it’s simple. Yes, the Pat’s have a history of violating some rules, and they’ll pay the piper if that’s the case here. However, I don’t know if they’ve ever put out bounties, made policies about harming opponents, or done things of that nature. I can live with deflated footballs, though busted knees, injury “contracts,” and head-hunting bug me. Hell, a soft football isn’t going to harm anyone, and it doesn’t seem to have made ANY difference in the outcome of the game in question. A whip-block or high/low block combo can cripple a player, and that is a life-changing event. Given the nature of the game, this deflated football hullabaloo is much ado about absolutely nothing!  So what does the press focus on–the things that can harm players or the stuff of sensationalism? What do the sports’ shows focus on–anything deep or cheap sensationalism? We are surrounded by a press that ALWAYS appeals to the lowest possible common denominator. That are as flies eating feces, and just as insightful. 


The Power of the Moment

by George H. Elder 

1/18/2015, 10:00 AM

Here I am, wearing a big old grin from ear to ear. Loud music filters through my ears, Mama Cass and company singing in perfect four-part harmony. What could be better than this? Life accords us instances of pure bliss, if we stop to notice them. That is when we are thankful for what is, and don’t dwell on what could be–the power of the moment. I sit here hapily banging on the keys and dwelling on the tunes alone… “dream a little dream of me.” Yeah, some very good moments indeed. I hope those reading this essay also find these moments, though I know it’s not always easy. Reality can be  a harsh master–bills, family stuff, job crap, health woes, etc, etc. On occasion, we need a break from all that, so here I am, smiling broadly and enjoying loud rock music–albeit soft rock. I know the world is alight with unfathomable violence, the clashing of ideas and emotions that are punctuated by bombs, bullets, and bleating political phonies. Of course, there is also an endless parade of talking heads who tell us how we feel, what we think, and all the fears we ought to harbor. To be free of all that, just for a short while… now, that’s precious. So I took my mind for a walk this morning, and may do so for a few more hours. Rainey Days and Mondays, Baby, You’re No Good, Mama Mia, Feel Like Making Love… It’s very old rock music with a beginning, middle and end, usually telling a story that is wrapped around a melody. Don’t get that much of that with Rap, which seems to be something that many people without musical talent can master. Disco was irritating, but better than Rap. Country makes me want to chew my foot off at times, but it’s waayyy better than Rap. Yet there’s no need to go on and on about Rap. Let those who like it find precious moments of “Bliss” while listening to it. Ooohhh, Hotel California! That brings me back. And now, House of the Rising Sun! Ah my mind just drifted back a bit. I’m living in a dilapidated apartment across from the post office in Durham, NH. Just beginning the transition to becoming a coach. From a burn-out to a coach, the only job I ever loved. Memories, hundreds of memories. That was when I was alive. All else was tinsel and duff. Life was the smell of sweat and the clanging of weights! Screams, yells, grunts and groans while heavy iron is hefted. And all the while, one kid or another manages to do something he or she never did before. The athlete yells, “Yeeaaahhhh!” and gets high fives from peers. And I’m happy as hell. That is another joy of the moment, and it is where these tunes have led. It’s a great series of memories to touch upon. And as the quanta meld into one another a concomitant flow of electrons activates old recollections–the reflection of stored sights, sounds and meanings. There is Grady popping 325 overhead, Paul doing a 465 bench, and Lance racking in a 315 clean. Worries about money, moving, and business fall further into the background as this mind-walk continues. Yeah, everyday affairs need attention, but for the time being…“nothing really matters to me.”  Images of games pass by, now being replaced by thoughts of Plato’s metaphysical realm of perfect Forms. Now we hop to Aristotle–the source of our scientific approach to examining the nature of reality. That’s how memory works, associational activations between X and Y being the norm. Plato was the idealist, contending there was a special domain wherein perfect concepts exist as discrete entities. We can touch upon these “Forms” via the dialectic, but never fully realize their perfection in our ephemeral world of being. The Forms reside in a kind of an ideational heaven, one that participates with reality as a progenitor, yet is distinct from reality. Aristotle thought the concept was crap, and postulated, essentially, that ideas and possibilities are intertwined and scattered throughout being. Thus the potential for a chair resides in pieces of wood, with the thoughts of a carpenter forging a reality from an ideational possibility. These were the seas I swam at one time… And now there’s the image of Billy in the U Mass game. It was fourth and goal, and I could swear he was in! But the official disagreed, and thus went a truly great season. The wins and losses… how I hated that part of the job. In coach’s heaven, there are green fields as far as one can see. The air is crisp, a bit cool, and only a few fleeting clouds pass through an azure sky. The athletes are executing flawlessly, and come jaunting off the field as one situation leads to another. The opponent is very good, and its a clean, hard game. There is intense competition, one wherein coaches and athletes are tested to the maximum. But we’re happy. The success of the moment is all that counts, for no one knows the score–or even cares. Hell, there isn’t even a scoreboard! And I know that during this short time we’re sharing, your and my memories will fire–and our minds will walk far and wide. We’re linked via thought, despite the time and space that separates us. Ahhh, these moments harbor freedom, bliss compounded with time. Time is all we actually have, for it allows all other things–even the vibrations of those energy strings some bright lads believe support the fabric of this reality we share. Cat Stevens reminds me, “Its not time, to make a change…” This takes me to chicken and egg paradoxes. And so this web is spun over these moments. Your mind is linked with mine, and that is a special from of sharing. It is where the reader and writer become one. Oh, but enough of this. Please, go grab a few moments of peace and set your mind to flight! Leave the duff behind and ride on memory’s wings–however you opt to journey. As for me, lord knows where I’ll land next!


Bang, bang, Shoot ’em Up!

by George H. Elder – 12/31/2014

        Many of the pro and con gun arguments are tedious. It is not a simple matter of giving up freedom for security, for MANY nations with very strict gun laws have more personal freedoms than do we in the US. Other nations with highly homogenous societies have more liberal gun laws than do we, albeit with more background controls than in the US. The fact is, the more guns that are readily available in a racially, ethnically, economically diverse, and essentially unjust society, the greater the odds of their being used for mendacious purposes. Odds are odds, and in a mixed population such as the US–one wherein inherent conflicts are built into our ethnic and racial backgrounds, well–bang, bang, shoot ’em up, one, two, three. Add in the fact that nearly all crazies in the US can own guns, and the problem gets magnified. For example, a person like me is far too volatile to own guns, and Lord knows how many people I might have shot if I owned one. But I’m hardly alone in being half-crazed. Some of you reading these words are the very same way! Today, what might have ended up as a fist-fight 40 years ago becomes a murder. The number of deadly tools available to ALL Americans is THE essential problem in the US, and I have yet to hear anything approaching a solution. We are not the USA of the founding fathers, an elite club that included some amazingly short-sighted sots. We are the US of today, one wherein desire, violence, and greed rule the day… We are as children playing with razor blades. Is it any wonder our streets sometimes run red? Oh, but what the hell do I know?



by Dr. George H. Elder  12/16/2014

          Observing lily white middle class people striving to misapply stat’s and social science to explain racial problems is sad. This is the reason… That is the reason… They’re marginalized… They’re categorized… Yeah, right. It’s all elitist bullshit writ large. Live in an inner city community for a year, then open your mouths. Live in poverty, and then you might understand it. Live being surrounded by violence, and something might be learned. But until then, the vast majority of “us” have nothing meaningful to say. We’re fucking pitiful, lamebrains who do not know that experience should predicate opining. I’ve known poverty and violence, but not what it is like to live in an urban war-zone. I lived in Cooney Island for about three weeks when I was a kid, and that was enough for me. That place was nuts, and never once did I feel safe. Yeah, I had NO desire to live in the “hood” after that, and am quite content to dwell in Rural Vermont.  

          Oh, but we have die-ins right here in Vermont. Yeah, saw one on TV the other day, a group of mostly lily white Vermonters lying about of the floor of a building, pretending to be shot-down Black folks. It might have been more convincing if they died en masse out in the cold, and then stayed out there in their death-poses for an hour or so. Yeah, that would have a least earned them a few points for conviction. But as it is, I find the exercises empty, and sign of shallowness and a conspicuous lack of understanding. Yeah, Black folks have some reasons to be pissed off about they way SOME cops treat them. And to be sure, cops have some reasons to live in fear of SOME Black folks. That is the simple truth of things, though the lily white folks seldom consider why cops might live in fear.

          The last thing I would want to be is a cop in an urban environment. Hell, I would be the “man,” and thus the music and talk and all the rest would be about what an evil son-of-a-bitch I was. Course, when trouble comes, 911 would demand I go hither and yon, and there I would see the mutilated bodies and blood-soaked streets. The crime tape would go up, and folks would gawk at the latest statistic. And here I would be, trying to get Juan to tell me what happened–but he didn’t see anything. Nor did anyone else. Oh, an AK was involved, but that’s our collective right–to pack the most powerful heat imaginable. Now, I’m not a dumb cop. I know that AK could have been pointed at me, and the fact is–it’s still out there. No one’s going to talk, and so it goes. Hose off the sidewalk. Wait for the next call. And all the while, that nasty AK and a whole lot of other big bang is waiting for me or my partner. It seems like a hell of a way to make a living.

         It is easy to take sides in this, and don’t for a minute think I’m on the side of the cops. Some of them are brutal thugs, the very worst of what humanity has to offer. They get a power rush out of the badge, and use it in a way that discredits what the law is supposed to be about. However, the vast majority of cops are far from that. They have families, know love, and care about others. Truth is, most inner city folks are the same way. They love their kids, and all the rest. But a few are brutal thugs, capable of a level of violence that few lily white middle class mutton heads can understand. They kill for trivial reasons, and I would hate to be the people who have to confront them. Good Lord, a killer with an automatic weapon is someone I would not contemplate taking on. Heck, I’d call a cop… Of course, that cop might be all tied up at a demonstration, making sure some die-in folks don’t interrupt traffic flow or some such thing.

          I find it all very sad. I consider myself a liberal. I like the idea of occupying Wall Street. I like the idea of running down the miscreants who have polluted our political system with money. But I cannot be part of a movement that does not see both sides of a problem. The answers usually reside in the middle, a place that many do not care to go because it is the land of compromise. Hey, urban war-zones need cops, and cops need to come up with better means of dealing with threats. Man, I’ve seen some kick-ass non-lethal devices, and I ponder why more isn’t being done to develop these means. Then again, what the hell do I know? I am a lily white Vermonter, but one who is likely to step on someone who participates a in a damn die-in in front on me. Yeah, and then the cops would come and have to haul my fat ass away. Might need to thump me a few times. Oh, the horrors! No easy answers here…


 Ramblings on Furguson 

by Dr. George H. Elder   12/3/2014 

         Some have absolutely no difficulty in mustering sympathy for Michael Brown, a huge young man who suffered a needless death. Yet he was no innocent. For heaven’s sake, he bullied a store owner half his size, stole merchandise, and went trooping down the middle of the street like he owned it. If we examine the Grand Jury’s report, he got into a tussle with Officer Darren Wilson after being confronted by him. The blood inside the police car and on the officer’s clothing indicates Brown was reaching into Wilson’s vehicle, with the gun powder residue on Brown’s hands demonstrating he took at least one shot at VERY close range. How unlike the narrative of Brown simply raising his hands to give up. To be sure, the forensic evidence points to the strong probability that Brown was trying to take the officer’s gun, with Wilson being a poor match for Brown. Wilson claims he was punched in the head during the struggle, and I suspect the officer was both terrified and angry.            Brown tried to retreat after being shot in the hand, but his story ended in a blaze of gunfire. I shed no tears for the man, for arrogant criminality carries a bitter cost when one willingly tangles with an armed officer. As for Wilson, I am definitely not convinced that he HAD to kill Brown, although stopping him was his duty. Brown absorbed six shots, with the last hitting him in the top of the head. That’s a difficult trajectory to explain if someone is putting his hands up while looking toward the man who is shooting at him. But these are “forensic facts” for people to believe or reject. Indeed, there are those who will claim the evidence was tainted or manipulated or downright planted. Thus, the truth of things carries little weight in this kind of case, for it is all about the underlying story and interminable hype.            And while on the subject of truth, some cops are mendacious jerks–people who like to bully and intimidate those they are meant to serve. For example, we all saw the camera recording of officer Sean Groubert firing several rounds at Levar Jones, a Black man who was getting ready to do some shopping at the Circle K convenience store in Columbia, South Carolina. Jones was obeying Groubert, and simply getting ready to hand over his wallet as he had been ordered. Groubert suddenly fired five rounds at Jones in rapid succession. Luckily, Jones was hit only in the hip, with Groubert’s piss-poor marksmanship saving the man’s life. Jones is an innocent man who is worth rallying around, and there are dozens more like him dotted across the country. Yet their sad tales don’t seem to earn national acclaim, although they are very much the story behind the story. Instead, we dwell on Mike Brown.           Of course, we have the press to thank for making the Brown case into something it clearly is not, as in an innocent person being gunned down unjustly. To be sure, the press has manipulated the entire situation, beating the storey to death in an endless orgy of hysterical and often biased “special bulletins.” CNN is notorious for this approach, highlighting every imaginable triviality into a remarkable occurrence. In this sense, the press made the story. They eventually garnered the outrage of many who failed to see that this was NOT a worthy case to protest–let alone burn down buildings for. Here again, we saw those busy beaver reporters, titillating us as people’s livelihoods went up in flames. Hell, the talking heads had been stoking those fires for months. And now they have their blazing and puerile reward, those bottom dwelling slugs. They have yet another storey they can collectively scurry to, like an endless parade of lemmings scampering into an ocean of turmoil–albeit a self-made tempest.            Truth is, many good Black men are abused by officers for no good reason. This incenses me because I worked with numerous talented and highly ethical Black people as a coach and teacher. The very thought of any of them being wantonly abused by the law because of their color causes me angst. Unfortunately, Brown’s dubious case has become inextricably confused with a regrettable reality, as in the blatant abuse of innocent Blacks by officers. I understand the underlying reasons, which go back to the way all animals, including humans, tend to process information. Alas, we are, for the most part, categorical thinkers, creatures that tend to place animate and inanimate objects into groups based on little more than a few characteristics.            One can easily see this penchant at birth, with newly hatched chicks ducking when the rudimentary silhouette of a hawk is presented. Similarly, newborn infants will readily attend a paddle that is imprinted with crude mouth, nose, and eyes facial characteristics in preference to other forms. There are obvious survival benefits to these primal capacities for they allow us to react quickly and efficiently to biologically relevant perceptions. Fast forward a few years, and we find people tending to distill complex social occurrences into categorical conglomerations that dictate perceptions and reactions. The psychologists call these memory-based perceptual and behavioral patterns schemas. The most popular example as that of going to a restaurant. Repeated experiences teach us what to expect and how to react, with many details being implicitly processed. Thus, we see a neon sign and our restaurant schema immediately kicks in. We know food can be found within. We enter, and expect to be seated, waited on, to eat, to leave a tip, and numerous other actions and reactions that we often don’t think about on a conscious level. We are guided by past experiences and are often oblivious to many details.               Well, imagine the situation of police officers. They are taught how to act and react in ways that are designed to protect and serve. However, experience also plays a key role in the development of an officer’s perceptual and behavioral schemas, and therein resides an important aspect of an intractable problem. Like it or not, there is a terribly high crime rate in many primarily Black communities, and thus the local police tend to have their “self-preservation” and “aggression” schemas on high alert. They come to implicitly “assume” a Black person is likely to be guilty, or dangerous, or any number of other negative traits. These perceptions are based more on prior experiences than a detailed appraisal of an ongoing situation. After all, when it is an issue of life or death, we tend to react quickly and often without thinking, with stereotype-based schemas guiding our actions and reactions. This goes for Black and White officer’s alike, as it does for the subjects of their attention. The survival benefits of rapid reactions are obvious, as are the tragic mistakes that can ensue. And in some sad places, the police and local citizens live in the equivalent of war zones. Look at the death rates for young Black men and weep, knowing that Black on Black murder is the leading cause of death in this demographic.           These are underlying factors that many liberal-minded sots do not seem to quite grasp, as in those lily-white kids (LWKs) and adults who troop around protesting Brown’s sad fate. Hey, there are terrible stories to tell every day in urban war zones, so why don’t you bleeding hearts go to Liberty City, East St. Louis, Camden, Detroit, or parts of LA? See how the people who dwell in some high-crime neighborhoods have to live each and every day. Hell, one can get shot down by gang-bangers when going out to get milk for the kids, with the sound of gunfire being a constant refrain. Yet for some odd reason, many naive whites don’t consider the reality of Black on Black violence nearly as much as they do police vs. Black violence. Their “injustice” schemas blind them to the why details, propelling them to act without knowing.           On the other side, we have the leering, slack-jawed red necks, people who readily ignore all details in preference for their “prejudice” schemas. The youths ripping off stores and burning cars during televised riots reinforced their views, making them blind to the reasons this violence might be occurring. To some Blacks, this criminal behavior is an understandable expression of frustration over past injustices, something many white people cannot fathom. Instead, the red neck offers that the riots are convincing proof that, “Niggers have no souls!” Yeah, I was shocked to hear someone say that at a local eatery. It was just as bad as a former friend who told me, “That Nigger president will ruin the country! He’s an f’n scum.” Whenever I hear these things, I think of my Black friends. Then I think about my little nieces, who may one day have to hear these comments due to their mixed-race heritage. Then I get angry. No, I get enraged. I often confront these offensive louts, and am called a lousy liberal or far worse. In the end, I simply walk away from red necks, realizing that I am as bound as they are by my hatred and disgust–my tendency to categorize.           Still, it pains me to know that many of my Black friends have been putting up with this cop-on-Black bullshit for years. There are no easy answers. The cops live in fear, as do many members of inner city communities. There are good reasons for such fear to exist. But rather than grappling with the causes of urban warfare, we make a hero of the likes of Mike Brown–a vile thug by any standard. Where are the voices of those who condemn rap songs and other media that glorify violence, rape, and murder? Where are programs that monitor the health and welfare of children who are forced to live in dangerous communities? Where are the urban development programs that can create good jobs and a meaningful future for the disenfranchised? And even more importantly, where are those bleeding hearts who would rather protest Brown’s fate than lift a hand or direct a thought toward finding a way to lessen the blight that is tearing parts of our society to pieces? Where are they? Well, some are lying on the streets and walkways, acting out a pantomime that expresses the shallowness of their thinking. 



by George H. Elder (11/4/2014) 

I will vote in a few hours, although it is difficult for me to consider voting as an exercise in democracy or free will. America left democracy behind in preference for a system that is based on public relations, advertising, and special interest control, all of which are amply funded by wealthy power brokers. Our courts and politicians are quite content with this happy system, and the rest of us do little other than bitch about our do-nothing congress, rampant corruption, and terrible incompetence and waste in local, state, and federal governance. Yes, we all know something is terribly wrong with our system, and thus we are growing to despise it. Yet we sit on our collective asses and do nothing to change the situation, much preferring comfort over confrontation.  Will we lurch to the right this time? Well, that’s what we are told by the pundits, those idiotic talking heads who tell us how we feel, how we think, and what will happen. They have polls to “prove” what they say, but I think the country lost something when these wondrous sources of news became ascendant. To be sure, they serve no good end, much like the news services in general. They generate abundant noise, but do not inform us about issues. They are much like political commercials in that regard, spewing out mostly useless verbiage, and focusing on negative extremes–the stuff of gaudy sensationalism. Is it any wonder that we despair for our country’s future?  In some countries, elections are completely different. For one thing, the campaign periods are much shorter, just 6 weeks for major elections. You see, in some countries politicians are expected to be doing their jobs instead of constantly running for office. Private funding of elections is replaced by fixed-limit public funding, with various mechanisms being in place to fund those parties that demonstrate sufficient public support (usually set at about 5% based on elections). Yeah, wouldn’t it be neat to have more choices, with all the major parties being provided with enough funding to make their positions and plans known? Willfully false or misleading advertising can be punished by civil and criminal penalties, which sure would change the way our system works. Poll results are sometimes suppressed for the last week or so before an election, with the idea being that a focus on issues and turnout are central to a truly democratic process.  Some will say these notions violate personal freedoms, despite whatever benefits they might offer in terms of what we might call popular democracy. However, the system we have evolved has become a privately controlled cooperate club that is replete with totally nonfunctional governance and a bloated and largely incompetent bureaucracy. In short, we have evolved a political system that is the antithesis of what good governance is supposed to be about. Of course, those in power want the system to stay exactly as it is, and that includes both the Republican and Democratic parties. One can add the courts, bureaucracy, paid lobbyists, and private and public power-brokers. These have become the enemies of democracy.  What we need is a revolution, one predicated on ridding ourselves of every vestige of this money-driven political system we have evolved. I think we must act with civil disobedience as a basic guide. Yes, occupations, protests, cyber attacks, and other means are in order that target ALL those who are attacking our freedoms. Perhaps Occupy Wall Street, Occupy the Supreme Court, and Occupy Congress are causes that are worthy of support. I mean, truly mass protests by millions. I am beat and enfeebled, but if I love my country–I must do what I can to help preserve it. Yes, I have to be willing to go afield, to move these gimpy legs and to join kindred spirits. To me, it is a matter of patriotic duty, though some who like the current system may find it the stuff of folly. Well, at times I cannot walk well, but I have no choice but to make a stand. I think we all need to do that.   


F’ Ebola 

by Dr. George Elder (10/18/2014) 

            We Americans are often dumb as boards, a fact we prove on a regular basis. On one hand, we claim to be the strongest, bravest, best, etc., etc., etc., on the planet–with the most advanced of everything. We are the Best³, or factored to the ‘n’ th for you super-patriots. Then comes the story that less than a hundred Americans have Ebola. Well, it’s less than 10 at present… Oh, maybe less than 5. Nonetheless, we imagine it could be untold millions! Indeed, the news sources are going into 24-hour, hyper-drive hysterics, and regular folks like us have become all a dither. Some besiege 911 lines and crowd into ERs, such ignorant things to do. All too many live in daily fear, with talking heads proving how utterly mendacious and useless they can be. The common journalistic creed is to ‘appeal to the sensational, and scare them shitless.’ And here we are, breathlessly waiting on every lurid word.              I might lack the ill-intent, but I write many things that rather prove my ignorance. It’s a fact I freely admit. Would that our talking heads also note their fallibility, but hubris and image works against that. Shoot, I guess I don’t have enough pride or capacity to appeal to the lowest possible common denominator. But one thing is for sure. I am brave enough to admit when I’m wrong, which is something we all have to be. In short, you can buy into the current fear-mongering and hype, or tell the press, talking heads, and politicos to go screw themselves. I refuse to be afraid, to worry two-wits about getting f’n Ebola. Hey, something is going to kill me. That’s for damn sure. And if it is Ebola, a sudden pain in the chest, or a damn rock falling from the sky, I am not going to run hither and yon covering up my head and screaming into the wind! Hysteria makes weaklings of even the strongest, and if we are going to buy into our own propaganda about being strong and all the rest–then let us at least “act” with courage. Come on–buck up, you damn wusses! Make America the land of the brave, which it sure as hell isn’t right now!               Yes, the issue needed our joint attention AND actions, but fear does no good in the long run. People are paying their pound of professional and political flesh, and good things are being done. All that is swell and dandy, but the wretched Congress-people and power-brokers are making hey instead of actually fessing up to their own rectitude. Republican and Democrats alike are both eagerly embracing the notion of using the current hysteria as a means to political ends. Hey, if they really cared, we would have a surgeon general–and would have not cut the budget to the CDC, etc. Whose bright idea was that? The people who did this ought to be beaten with a bat and dumped from our hallowed halls–left to live with shattered bones and scars that show. Oh, wait a minute… those people are us! Yikes! We voted for the lame bastards, or perhaps we didn’t even vote at all. So screw us! We have met the enemy, looking right at us in the mirror.              Tell you what, I am well and truly pissed–and ain’t a bit afraid. I am going to do something about this nonsense–thus this letter that will eventually reach about 50,000 people on a good month. I am also looking up those “leaders” who are milking this story the most, and then I am going to correlate their fear-mongering with their votes on the CDC and associated medical funding. I’ll post the results, and then kick whatever sorry asses I can in the voting both. F’ those duplicitous, self-serving jerks! They are gone! Got to get together a list of the sons-of-bitches… There will be a lot of Republicans, with Obama’s dead-on-arrival budget also proposing CDC cuts. Screw them ALL! As for you reading these words, grow some gumption if you’re afraid and dread naught. The worse that can happen is what inevitably happens to all flesh, so grab hold of existence and don’t fret too much to enjoy the day. We are, as the musicians say, “Free Birds.” So chose your direction, and fly accordingly.



by George H. Elder (10/13/2014)

So, that damn hospital in Texas and the head of the CDC are blaming a nurse for getting Ebola–saying she violated protocols. What she did was to do her best to care for a dying man, and to do so in an environment wherein the formal protocols are not yet perfected, let alone disseminated to all hospital staff! In fact, the vast majority of hospitals in the US don’t even have the gear needed to use ANY infectious disease protocols. Look, the nurses are on the front lines. 5% of all Ebola deaths in Africa are medical staff, and this illness is far more virulent than our medical talking heads in the CDC are telling us. Training is the key, and perhaps this unfortunate nurse’s situation will stimulate the powers that be to get off their dead asses and to teach, practice, and perfect the skills needed to handle this situation. Rather than foist blame on a sick women who is fighting for her life, it is probably best for the administrators to ponder what THEY did wrong. But personal responsibility seems to be an alien concept to the medical authorities in Texas and the CDC–with men like CDC Director Thomas Frieden much preferring to blame the nurses rather than themselves. This is a pitiful approach to medicine.



by George H. Elder (10/10/2014)

I have so very many friends who are undergoing great personal trials at present. Some are ill, depressed, or have suffered great personal losses. I know all too well how difficult life can be during these situations, and sometimes existence is not all happiness and light. But there are moments. The other day, I was out and about with a good friend. We came to a boat landing, and it was difficult for me to make it to the water–such are these lame legs. But there I saw dozens of brightly colored dragon flies flittering about. Their iridescent red, green, and even blue hues amplified the wonder of fall’s colors–and for a few precious moments I was enthralled–perfectly content and happy. There were no worries about the past or future, just a sublime linkage with the present that made this existence we share a thing of beauty and meaning. The only advice I can offer is to seek those precious moments, either alone or with someone you care about. The pain will abate, and your burdens will be eased. It is a respite that can give one hope, if you allow that to happen. It is where and when I thank God for the fact that I am still alive… and able to share these words.


Medical Malaise & Ebola

by George H. Elder (10/7/2014)

Wow, 120 people died from Ebola in Sierra Leon TODAY. 120 deaths in ONE day! I heard that on the BBC this morning, and keep hoping the number is a mistake. There are so many sick people they cannot treat them, and hospitals are turning the ill away. They die in the streets or their homes, contaminating others. And these big-wig medical people in the US–they arrogantly tell us they can control the situation… that the disease is easily containable… that we have advanced medicine in the US, etc., etc., etc. They sound like arrogant children, yadda-yadda people who are more concerned with current appearances than potential and unfolding realities. The medical community let us down in Texas, and we’re supposed to trust them? Look, I’m not trying to be an alarmist, but I am alarmed. Hell, it’s an alarming situation, and trying to quell fear may not be as effective as getting treatment centers built in the impacted areas. In addition, rapid training programs and suitable equipment have to be set up for nurses and doctors, who are dying at an alarming rate.   Ultimately, the more people who get sick, the higher the chance of this virus mutating into something even more horrendous. Yeah, we have to act fast, but it’s not happening. Hell, we’ve only got two army medical centers in the impacted areas that will be ready by the end of the month. There is an acute need for dozens, and we’re simply moving too slowly. So rather then tell us everything will be fine and dandy, all efforts should be focused on actually building and staffing the damn facilities needed to fight this threat. In short, stop trying to placate the public and focus on the danger areas. These talking heads would serve us better if they were in the hot areas, helping to train staff and treat patients. That would do far more good than offering up soothing platitudes.   The medical infrastructure in countries like Sierra Leon is collapsing, with nurses and doctors dying by the score. God help and bless those who fight this battle on the front lines, and the least we can do is provide the needed treatment centers, training, and equipment ASAP. If we don’t get off our asses, this “containable” situation may be knocking on our door.  It seems it already is.  


Goddamn Goddard College

by George H. Elder (10/2/2014)

Asking murderer Mumia Abu-Jamal to give a commencement address was an idiotic decision that does no credit at all to Goddard College. I’m sure some misguided sots feel this was an enlightened choice, a sign of how progressive Goddard is. Truth is, thousands of people are now in complete contempt for Goddard, and I am one Vermonter who would never advise anyone to attend a school that does such a thing. If the school “must” invite this killer, how about inviting his victim’s wife? Read about what Mrs. Faulkner has gone through since her husband was murdered and try to understand how she feels about Goddard’s commencement speaker. It was a cruel and callous choice, showing no consideration to a survivor of Abu-Jamal’s perfidy. President Bob Kenny has made a laughing stock of Goddard, and I sincerely hope some of the graduating students have the courage to tell him exactly what they think. Better yet, abandon the ceremony at Haybarn Theatre, and gather together somewhere else. Think about Mrs. Faulkner and what she has endured. Say a little prayer for her, and serve up as much contempt as you can possibly muster toward Bob Kenny. He represents the very worst in higher education, and has obviously lost his way–placing arrogance and hubris above common decency. If you feel as I do, please advise Samantha Kolber, Communications Manager,  802.322.1724. But please, students of Goddard, don’t let a stupid decision stand uncontested. Exercise your freedom and let all concerned know that some students at Goddard still have souls. Gather together and share your accomplishments, and give no heed to ardent fools who cannot see the damage they are doing to Goddard.


EBOLA as of 9/30/2014

by George H. Elder

We had our first Ebola case in the US, a traveler from Liberia–which is becoming riddled with the disease. I just watched a news story about how the virus is being treated in Liberia–and it is ugly. A mother was dropping her daughter off at a hospital, having hauled her there in a wheelbarrow. Kid tries to make a break for it because hospitalization is seen as a death sentence by many. Mother intercepts her, and BOTH are taken into the hospital. Such hopelessness in their eyes. The actual extent of the illness in Liberia, etc., is unknown because the dying are often left where they fall, with others running away from them like frightened deer. And with every infection, the potential for the evolution of a more virulent form of Ebola increases. The numbers of infected may become such that this becomes an inevitability. We’re committing 2,800 troops to put up field treatment units, with hundreds of such facilities being planned. It might do some good, but I would not want to be one of those troops. This is scary shit. And now we’ve got this polio-like virus running about taking out kids’ mobility… Biological threats are every bit as dangerous as IS or Putin or X, Y, and Z. Dangerous days, indeed.


On Killing 

by Dr. George H. Elder 


Any higher truths I have ever recognized or believed in began the basic notion that killing folks is wrong. Of course, the state and individuals have crafted many exceptions, which makes the rule more of a suggestion than an unconditional truism or requirement. Yeah, some killings are even permitted by state-sanctioned laws (e.g. war, capital punishment, self-defense, etc.), and especially statutes promoted by people with strong “religious” and/or political beliefs. Other violations of our codes against killing can occur via illegal personal actions (murder, manslaughter, etc.). In fact, many states have laws that demand a killer should be killed for killing–or whatever terms one wishes to use for state-sanctioned execution.  I was against Vietnam, the Second War with Iraq, and nearly every other bit of military nonsense we have gotten our asses into. I find war a gratuitous and short-sighted exercise that is often practiced by men who should know better than to send their betters into death and damnation. I am blessed to have gotten this far in life without having killed anyone, though I may have harmed a few people along they way–not always righteously. But make no bones about it, I’m strongly against capitol punishment, for I feel the State should not be the final arbiter of truth, let alone life or death. Some folks might disagree, while others might feel as I do on a philosophical level–at least about some of these ramblings.  Yet here I am, advocating the assassination of Putin and the total obliteration of IS. What the hell is wrong with me? Either I’m for killing or against it. If only life were so simple, so devoid of ethical complications. The truth is, most of us are capricious creatures, with expediency often being our master. To be sure, we all have dark thoughts and impulses–most of which are kept in check. But if someone killed, molested, or raped one my kin, I might easily go after him, her, or them. I think most of us would even kill in protection of our kith and kin. We’re designed that way by nature and nurture–despite various religious injunctions and laws. There is powerful emotional component about the very idea of family that can bring out both the worst and best in us. One can become a psychotic avenger/defender or a life-sacrificing giver.  So how the hell is this related to killing Putin and destroying IS? Well, think “psychotic defender.” I regard Putin as a definite existential threat. He’s raising hell with all Russia’s neighbors and has already gotten NATO riled up. Hell, I have never regarded any Soviet or Russian leader as a greater threat–including Khrushchev. I’m hoping one of Putin’s own people will rid the world of him, even though we might eventually get something worse. But given his stated goals of Russian unification, his recent antics are just a warm-up. Here is Hitler 2.0 incarnate.  As for IS–those could have been my brothers getting their heads cut off. In a way, they were. According to their bios, we shared a love of the written word–except they had an overpowering urge to go abroad. But beyond the mass killing and cruelty toward their neighbors, IS now has the weapons to extends its perfidy abroad. This especially applies to commercial airliners and other modes of transport. Yet this is nothing. A review of what IS is planning to procure in terms of chemical and biological weapons has a potential toll far beyond that of a plane, train, or even city. They have the money and inclination for infinite mischief, but perhaps not the access–I hope.  The point is, many families are under a threat by IS, an organization that brags about killing Americans and many others. The emotional trip-wire has been sprung as far as I’m concerned, and I “believe” we have to act. The Muslim scholars’ religious arguments are especially good reactions considering the nature of the problem and the need to negate IS’s philosophical and “religious” support. However, it’s slow medicine for an acute dilemma, one that is devouring lives even while these lines are read. So we must try to kill or capture every IS member we can find, in as much as that is possible. Truth is, most of these holy warriors have behaved in such a sociopathic fashion that they cannot be “salvaged.” Jail or death are the only cures for people who make a regular practice of rape, plunder, killing, and far worse, unless one whishes to risk counseling programs and the like.  In achieving these ends, we must strive to avoid self-destruction, or the wanton sacrifice of the innocent. These happy objectives, like the notion of avoiding killing in general, are mostly suggestions rather than absolutes. Events hardly ever works out this way in practice, with the good, bad, and indifferent all paying war’s piper. I imagine we’ll kill as many civilians as we do IS fighters, for they are busily digging into the local populations. Yet still, I find myself desiring Putin’s assassination and the obliteration of IS.  I confess to being driven by fear more than anything else, and I clearly lack the courage and conviction to be a man of peace. I embrace an expedient that eschews our injunctions against killing, and I thus am a man without ideals, someone of banal practicality. I represent what we are, at heart, a terribly flawed species who is blithely speeding its way into self-administered extinction. Some of us might see where our path leads, but still–we cling to fear and expediency with a firmer grasp than we do to ideals.  So let the bombs drop. Let Putin be laid low. Do I think it will do any good? Perhaps–if we can buy some time to find more “reasonable” approaches to be implemented. Trading life for time is an all too common occurrence in human affairs. Some will argue that killing is an act of existential necessity that has a basis in nature and rationality, and I wonder if we will ever get beyond this stage. I certainly have not. However, it is absolutely necessary to be terribly conflicted when contemplating the use of death as a means to any end. I am sure my doubts are shared by many. Yet in desiring the death of some, I have failed the same ethical test as those I seek to kill. And so it goes…


Things that Go Boom in the Night

 by George H. Elder


             This morning we’re watching volleys of cruise missiles being fired from US naval vessels, giving an ample demonstration of what a single modern warship is capable of serving up. Dozens of bombers, drones and other aircraft are adding to the firepower being dumped on ISIS, which has become an existential threat to people and nations far and near. I despise the death and destruction raining down, though a part of me lauds the systematic obliteration of those who have joined ISIS. They are head-hunters in the most literal sense, psychopaths who show no mercy to anyone deigned an “enemy,” be they man, woman or child. Let them harvest what they sow.              However, to defeat this group, one must understand what compels it. To do that, we must study Abu Bakr al-Baghdadi–the current leader of ISIS. He is just 45, and has been involved in Islamic military movements since 2003, though not often as a fighter. No, this man is not an empty-headed thug. He has a Bachelor of Arts, Master of Arts, and Doctoral Degree in Islamic Studies, and has written widely on Islamic law. al-Baghdadi is a Sunni Moslem, and is closely affiliated with the Salafi movement. Salafism adheres to the notion that only the most strict and literal interpretation of the Qur’an and Hadith are acceptable. This is especially true with regard to the observance of legal and religious requirements, which collectively form the basis of sharia law.              In 2006 al-Baghdadi became a member of the Mujahideen Shura Council, and it is from his work with this group that he would be eventually bestowed with the title of “Caliph.” The term “shura” is associated with mutual consultation and/or counsel, whereby collective decisions are made regarding secular and spiritual affairs. Here is where sharia law is codified and applied, and this can vary depending on how one interprets the Qur’an and Hadith. al-Baghdadi’s renditions of the law are reactionary and puritanical, devoid of any of the mercy so widely called for by the Prophet.              In terms of war credentials, al-Baghdadi’s are not impressive–being captured by the US in 2004 as a civilian internee. Some bright lads found him a minimal threat, more of a scholar than a warrior. He was thus released, probably in 2005–though records vary. Alas, the pen is far mightier than the sword, as al-Baghdadi proved. By 2010 he was anointed as the leader of the Islamic State of Iraq (ISI), and he soon began a much more active military role. Famous for inciting suicide and car bombings, al-Baghdadi became the bane of Iraq’s Shia-led government. By 2012 he had well-established links with fundamentalist groups that were fighting against Assad in Syria, and in 2013 al-Baghdadi became head of the Islamic State in Iraq and Syria (ISIS).               In 2014, al-Baghdadi was named the Caliph of the new Islamic State–which had hitherto been known as ISIS. Caliph is a quasi-political and religious title for one who rules a Caliphate in accordance with the strict adherence to Islamic law. This is the outcome of Shura writ large, complete with the formulation of sharia-sanctioned maiming and death for what are commonly regarded as minor offences. al-Baghdadi’s ascension has caused great consternation in the Arab world because the title of Caliph can ONLY be bestowed by a collective agreement amongst all Moslem nations and not merely by the proclamation of any single nation or group.              These Islamic legalisms do not seem to bother the Rolex-watch-wearing al-Baghdadi, who appears to be buying into his own hype. In fact, al-Baghdadi claimed he would march on Rome, making Italy and Spain part of his new Islamic state–a place all Moslems should flock to. This indicates extremely delusional thinking, but al-Baghdadi also has aspirations that are much closer to his current haunts, with Jordan, Saudi Arabia, and Lebanon all coming under threat. Indeed, his formation of a Caliphate titillates many conservative Moslems who live in those nations al-Baghdadi claims–thus forming a fifth column of sorts.                  The problem is, many young people, regardless of faith, are drawn toward participating in the creation of a new and pure state–a place where the wretched corruption and excesses of the existing order can be eschewed for an idealistic way of life. After all, what could be more noble and pursuit-worthy than forging a society based on religious precepts, and especially to someone who has been long marginalized or discriminated against by his or her own society? Here is where life’s outcasts get to rewrite their present and future, becoming religious heroes vs. disgruntled youths or lamentable losers.              And when granted a holy pat on the head, a weapon, a coerced mate, and adequate training, the dark side of these lost souls comes pouring out. They kill and maim without thought or compassion, letting their demons within have free range as they unleash the contents of their souls on the innocent and guilty alike. They commit unspeakable crimes in the name of a faith they ill-understand, and gather all manner of riches so that al-Baghdadi and his cronies can continue to forge their perfect state. They are a blight, a hoard in the Biblical sense.              Killing al-Baghdadi will not stop them, for another talking-head will take up the leadership role. He is but a symbol, albeit one that is better excised than allowed to fester. The holy warrior’s quest is for an ideal, and the only thing that will stop them is death. That means killing our own, for thousands of ISIS fighters are born of our kind. There are 2,000 Western holy warriors, including 100 Americans, 500 French, and 400 Britons. Another 15,000 come from Somalia, Korea, Turkmenistan, Tajikistan, Uzbekistan, Egypt, Libya, Tunisia, Lebanon, and other places. To a one, they have richly earned a common fate.              The holy warriors will run for the hills or melt into local populations as the bombs fall, and will soon be unable to gather in large groups. They will switch from offence to defense, and strive to hide their equipment and resources. However, small groups are far more vulnerable to attacks than are large ones, and weapons that must be hidden away cannot be quickly and easily deployed as needed. Soon, those thousands of people the holy warriors tormented will become their tormentors.             And so it will go as the holy warriors are hunted down. They will be given no mercy because they showed none. They will be given no refuge because they made so many people refugees. In the end, they will reap what they have sewn–and nary a tear will be shed to mark their passing. Ah, but the ideas that compelled them will never die, and so it will fall upon others to repeatedly do what is being done. That is another story–and one that has no easy answers.   


On Beating Children 


by Dr. George H. Elder 


            The NFL is getting beleaguered with domestic abuse issues as of late, although one suspects that these have been around for a very long time given the personalities of many who have played the game. When one is trained to be overtly aggressive, it is hard to turn the switch off–and the fact that so many manage to do so is a credit to the game. Indeed, most teams sanction players who get involved in fights and other conflicts, though present and past punitive actions regarding domestic abuse are shamefully few and far between.              The bible sanctions corporal punishment throughout Proverbs, as an Proverbs 13:24, which stipulates:

 “He that spareth his rod hateth his son: but he that loveth him chasteneth him betimes.” 

            Here we find the wretched source of the advice to spare the rod and spoil the child. To be sure, some fools still use this religious sanctioning of physical force to justify whipping children, the results of which we have seen on our TV screens ala the good graces of the Minnesota Viking’s Adrian Peterson. Yeah, he truly did not spare his child from the rod, which seems to be a habit is his case. Now folks can justify this in any way they want, but I know what beating children leads to.              My Dad was beaten by his father for the smallest offences, and his father was not some ignorant red-neck. He was a child of the south, but a man with a degree from Cornell University–back during a time when degrees meant something. He was a world-recognized expert in veterinary science, someone who traveled abroad when expertise was sought. Yet he was a man of considerable anger and possessed an acerbic attitude that has passed down through the generations. And he most assuredly did not spare the rob.              He would strap my father for not eating all his food, for missing an answer on a Latin spelling test, for daring to leave the dinner table without being excused, and for so many infractions that my Dad’s life became a living hell. Alas, Thomas Edwin Elder’s cruelty of spirit irritated people beyond his family, and he found himself facing serious criminal charges at times, including murder and assault. To be sure, he was always found innocent, but his fundamental inhumanity attracted a certain amount of notoriety.              When my father came of age, he bore internal scars that never fully healed. Henry Elder was a tormented soul, and his father’s harsh legacy was well ensconced within him. His was an odd mixture of fear and rage, and he became an inveterate alcoholic. Dad’s father wrote him off, and would not even attend my parent’s wedding. After all, Henry was marrying an olive skinned, thick-lipped, and kinky-haired Latin, the daughter of immigrants from southern Italy, and a temperamental abomination in his racist eyes. If the truth be told, my mother was the glue that held our family together. She weathered by father’s constant storms, his terrible lashing out.              I saw some of my siblings beaten, and many was the time the house echoed with my Dad’s screams–often accompanied by the sounds of furniture being smashed. I lived in constant fear and gradually became very “disturbed,” a budding psychopath. I set fires and tortured animals, trying twice to burn down our home by the time I was just eight or nine. Thus my Grandfather’s legacy became a part of me too, the sins of a father’s father finding residence in a grandson. You see, there was a time I would think nothing of beating a man like Adrian Peterson with a baseball bat. Simply pick the right time, and even the most able man falls as easily as a child. It has taken me a lifetime to chain the beast within that generates those thoughts, and the beast need not have been implanted and nurtured in the first place.              So listen to me, Adrian. One day the beatings you serve up might come home to roost. You are ruining your kids, you selfish, two-bit, son-of-a-bitch. God gave you far more than many will ever know, and perhaps one day God will take it all back. There is this urge in me to attack–and I don’t even know you. I am old and beat, but that savage tendency remains. It is the same urge you are planting in your kids, Adrian, and for which you are directly responsible. If you can truly love someone more than yourself, perhaps you can also find some kindness. As for the Bible’s justification, screw that. The Bible has justified everything from slavery to child abuse–and that lame and primitive approach to raising children can be shoved where the sun doesn’t shine.                Coaching ended up saving my life. It taught many lessons, and most especially how to care about those I served. Their welfare meant everything to me, and it gave my life purpose and meaning. But through it all, I had constantly to fight the demons within. As I reflect upon it all, I can see the source of my sadder tendencies–my urge to lash out. It is a terrible legacy, the same one that many reading these words are passing down to their kids. Abusing children is the worst possible sin imaginable, for it echoes into the future in countless ways. That some would defend this style of raising kids amazes me. Let the children know peace and love, and spare them rods and insults and things that can mark their souls forever.


ESSAYS (also see full versions below):


Reflections: A Dream Quest

Reflections _978-1-62948-621-5

Nova Science is presenting a multi-part preview on this fast-paced text about dreams. The release date is March 2014, and the text is currently in press. Here are some free, open-access PDF files for some relevant chapters that can be downloaded from NOVA Science at:

https://www.novapublishers.com/catalog/product_info.php?products_id=46948 Chapter 1 – Title Page ii-ii, G. H. Elder / Editors: Dr. Dale Cyphert, Kira McFadden & Sayward Ayre. 978-1-62948-621-5_ch1 Chapter 2 – Contents ix-x, G. H. Elder / Editors: Dr. Dale Cyphert, Kira McFadden & Sayward Ayre. 978-1-62948-621-5_ch2 Chapter 3 – Preface xi-xiv, G. H. Elder/ Editors: Dr. Dale Cyphert, Kira McFadden & Sayward Ayre. 978-1-62948-621-5_ch3 Chapter 5 – Prologue: The Power of Youthful Minds (pp. 5-8), G. H. Elder / Editors: Dr. Dale Cyphert, Kira McFadden & Sayward Ayre. 978-1-62948-621-5_ch5 Chapter 10 – Dream Control Experiments (pp. 29-34), G. H. Elder / Editors: Dr. Dale Cyphert, Kira McFadden & Sayward Ayre. 978-1-62948-621-5_ch10 Chapter 14 – Is There a God? Signs, Signs, Everywhere a Sign (pp. 57-62), G. H. Elder / Editors: Dr. Dale Cyphert, Kira McFadden & Sayward Ayre. 978-1-62948-621-5_ch14 Chapter 24 – Roman Dream Concepts (pp. 131-134), G. H. Elder / Editors: Dr. Dale Cyphert, Kira McFadden & Sayward Ayre. 978-1-62948-621-5_ch24 Chapter 36 – Schema/Template Theory Relationships to Dreaming (pp. 169-172), G. H. Elder / Editors: Dr. Dale Cyphert, Kira McFadden & Sayward Ayre. 978-1-62948-621-5_ch36  This is a book that addresses the history and science of dreams. The author uses his own dreams as examples, some of which are unique due to Elder’s personal and medical history. The dreams include typical experiences, such as flying, but also extend to intriguing astral events, prophecies, and messages on the nature of existence. The author employs the first-person present tense perspective when describing his dreams, which makes them exciting and fast-paced. The narrative sections follow the typical academic style, although Elder has endeavored to make the material accessible to the widest possible audience. Unlike many mass-market books on this subject, it also examines dream science and history in considerable depth, providing readers with a wealth of unique insights into what dreams are and why we have them. For example, Elder relates some forms of dream prophecy to the workings of our episodic memory system, finding a persuasive basis of support in modern schema theory and neuropsychological research. Other dreams, such as those concerning God, humanity’s future, and astral adventures occasionally defy the author’s tendency to find rationalistic explanations, a fact that he both dislikes and admits. The historical review stretches back to Gilgamesh, and runs up to modern findings in the neurosciences. Of course, the ideas of Freud, Jung, and others are discussed along the way, with the reader getting a great deal of information on what dreams were thought to mean over the ages. Indeed, there are over 380 sources scattered throughout the text, and a quick review of the bibliography will reveal that this is a manuscript of considerable research and substance. Readers from high school to post-graduate levels will find items of interest in this fast-moving text, which leaves a message that is as much spiritual and moral as it is scientific. (Imprint: Nova Biomedical)  



Mr. Putin Says…

by Dr. George H. Elder


            Mr. Putin says he can take Kiev in two weeks. Maybe this is true, though I think the Ukrainian people would make the operation cost him dearly. In addition, taking a city is not the same thing as holding it–as the Germans found out during WWII. Yet we must be realistic. Putin does not care about casualties or sanctions or world opinion. He cares only about how the political themes involved in creating a “New Russia” plays into his quest for absolute power. For example, the ongoing fighting in and around the Donetsk airport proves Putin is continuing his slow torture of the Ukrainian people. I am amazed that the Ukrainian armed forces are fighting so well, for they are facing a beast who has no conscience or soul–only a savage inhumanity of character.              I do not understand the Russian people. Surely, they must see the distraught parents of lost Russian soldiers being hurried out of sight and silenced by thuggish “protectors of the state.” They must know that NATO has at long last been awoken. Furthermore, many Russians have Ukrainian friends. They must understand that the destruction and death taking place within the Ukraine is planting seeds of untold hatred. Here are two great peoples who once shared so very much. Now they are becoming mortal enemies, thanks to the poisonous policies and megalomaniacal urges of Vladimir Vladimirovich Putin–the devourer of neighbors and weaver or lies.              So I ask the Russian people to explain why it has to be this way. Yes, I am a simple man, one who does not understand why anyone would be proud to wear a Putin T-shirt. Minorities are brutally beaten in the streets, and the Russian people walk by–never saying a word or turning their heads. Soldiers are sent into harms way, supposedly to “liberate” Russian people. And when they die–no complaints are allowed, not even signs of grieving. Meanwhile, the Russian church leaders nod their collective heads, as if money from the state can compensate for their obvious ethical blindness–their loss of any true faith based on compassion, kindness, and giving. Is this the New Russia?              People of Russia, your souls are dying. The greatness of Russia has ALWAYS been in its people, yet now the Russian people have allowed themselves to be blinded and bound to the same nationalistic “religion” that they once resisted. Indeed, without the Russian people’s sacrifice, Hitler’s legions could not have been defeated. To be sure, Russia did the lion’s share in saving the world from rabid Nationalism. There is no doubt about that. But now, Russia has become a nationalistic power, one that greedily feeds off the land and people of it neighbors. This is how Putin has poisoned the Russian spirit and led its people astray. He has made you into predatory beasts in the world’s eyes, yet I know there is hope.              If only one in one hundred Russians can see the true danger Putin represents, that equates to 1.4 million people. It stands to reason that one or more of you can slay the dragon, for if you do not–then what happens to Russia? It will soon be surrounded by hostile and angry neighbors, with Putin’s aggressive policies insuring that their hatred will last for generations. Russia will also become an armed camp, with more and more money being dumped into a military machine that will only serve to generate military responses. And as powerful as Russia is, it cannot defeat the entire world.              Play the chess game out, and see where it leads. Putin takes a bit of the Ukraine and so disrupts the country’s economy that the nation knows nothing but misery–along with a deep and festering hatred of all things Russian. No matter, Putin’s goals have been achieved, so he moves on to yet another tasty country–perhaps a bit of Estonia so that Russia has better access to the Baltic Sea. Estonia is such a small country, and it has no measurable military. NATO sends in its rapid deployment forces, and thus begins a much more difficult fight for Putin. Four divisions of Russian troops roll in, though it doesn’t go well. The losses in armor and aircraft are very severe, and the initial thrust is brought to a standstill. Four more Russian divisions are called into the fight, and the battle takes a turn in Russia’s favor.              But NATO is now on full alert. Thousands of British, US, German, and French troops deploy onto Poland, Latvia, and Lithuania, with Romania, Hungary, Italy, and Turkey also activating large armies and reserves. As the battle in Estonia heats up, several NATO divisions stationed in Lithuania and Latvia thrust into Estonia. They crush the Russian advance, and begin pushing it back in places. Russia has to divert considerable forces to match the NATO buildup in the central and northern sectors, and Putin decides on a forward strategy to prevent fighting in Russia itself. He thus moves 59 divisions into the Ukraine and Belarus. The idea is to push northward through Lithuania, and cut the NATO spearhead off.              However, Russia’s move is matched by NATO, with US, Polish, German, French, UK, Hungarian, and Rumanian troops rapidly moving into the western Ukraine and Belarus. NATO not only stops the Russian forces, but inflicts terrible casualties. Russia now calls up all its reserves and warns that it will use every necessary means to defend its territory. In the meantime, casualties mount at an alarming rate on both sides, with the shattered Russian forces remaining in Estonia being compelled to retreat. NATO demands that Russia pull out of the Ukraine and Belarus within 48 hours, but Putin’s response is the commit 23 more divisions to the battle. He also sends 12 more reserve divisions to the north in a holding action.              Suddenly, NATO thrusts from north to south and crashes through the Russian positions in northern and eastern Belarus. It is the greatest envelopment action in history as NATO armor rushes down both sides of the Dnieper River and penetrates deep into the eastern Ukraine, turning well west of Poltava and heading for Sea of Azov. The Russian troops fight with great courage and ferocity, but the speed of NATO’s advance is astonishing and its vast reserves seem endless. Moreover, the local citizens are causing constant problems, despite savage countermeasures. The occupied people do not believe in taking prisoners.              Putin now has a choice. Use tactical nucs or lose the war. After all, his nation of 143 million is facing the armed forces of over 800 million people. The numbers are not in his favor, especially as several thousand American reserve units begin entering the battle. Of course, Putin opts for tactical nucs, and unleashes them. He strikes at 20 major supply areas, such as Riga, Vilnius, Orsha, Karma, Nezhin, Lubny, and 36 sites of high NATO troop concentrations. Unexpectedly, less than half the missiles get through, which was an area of concern even before the attack was launched.               NATO immediately responds with tactical nuc’s on a one-for-one basis, with 56 missiles devastating Russian supply centers as well as Russian troop concentrations. Smolensk, Bryansk, and Kursk are all hit, although the vast majority of the strikes are on the Russian armed forces, with 90% of all missiles hitting their mark. There is no Russian army left to speak of, although civilian losses within the Ukraine, Belarus, Baltic states, and along the Russian border are in the millions. Great cities have been laid low, and the cry for Russia’s total defeat echoes from afar. NATO forces reform, and push forward, compelled by the loss of so many of their brothers and sisters.              Putin’s only remaining choice in full out nuclear war or surrender. He knows from the tactical nuclear missile strike that the US and NATO have developed a fairly effective missile shield. Putin thus decides to go all out nuclear–for it has to be a massive strike in order to glut the West’s defensive shields. He will not surrender, for he is proud and strong, like Mother Russia. Then one brave colonel pulls out a pistol, and shoots Putin in the head. The madness ends as suddenly as it had started. In the meantime, millions of people have died. Yet they are not the ten’s of millions who might have died had Putin not been assassinated. A peace treaty is signed recognizing the 2005 boarders, and thus the war ends. Russians within the nations that were attacked largely opt to leave, for they are despised and know there is no future for them within these tortured lands.              The man who killed Putin is quickly tried and shot, his name being reviled as that of a traitor by the Russian press. But in 20 years, as the radiation levels become more tolerable at home and in the neighboring countries, Russian researchers find a letter from this soldier that had been hidden away. “I did the thing that was most needed but least desired. I did this to save my country, to save Mother Russia. If there is a Russian who is reading these words, this means I have succeeded.” Soon, the Russian people begin to understand. A villain becomes a hero, while Putin become the stuff of past nightmares–something few like remembering or talking about.              There is a Russian patriot reading this letter. You must act before the bombs start falling. The situation I described can only become a reality of you do nothing. And then what do you say to your father, your mother, your wife, your children, your future? WHAT DO YOU SAY? How can anyone justify doing nothing? Saving Russia and the world is your responsibility and yours alone. It is something you must do for the sake of humanity and your family–and the sooner, the better. 



Cutting Off Heads…


Dr. George H. Elder 

And so another war cannot be ignored, largely in an area that we “liberated.” I wonder if ISIS would have come into existence in an Iraq run by Saddam? Perhaps an enfeebled version might have sprung up in Syria, but I tend to doubt it would have gotten any further. Saddam was a brutal tyrant who savagely suppressed any uprisings and military actions that were not of his making. So we freed the Iraqi people from a tyrant, and opened the door to an organization that literally wallows in blood and savagery. Indeed, ISIS seeks to expand into Jordan and Saudi Arabia, as in some modern day version of an ancient plague that is manned by psychopaths and led by self-serving demagogues who wear religious rags and Rolex watches.  Well, what to do? Two Americans have had their heads cut off in brutal fashions, and we’ve probably killed a few hundred ISIS fighters, either directly or indirectly. But these are early days. ISIS is good at recruiting, appealing to people who do not think very deeply–but are keen on making themselves “better than” or “holier than” by way of unmitigated cruelty and violence. They are largely outcasts, people who have nothing but brutality and fear to mark themselves as powerful or worthy or righteous. They remind me of the old KKK, members of which marched under a banner of Christian ideals while lynching, burning and castrating people.  Yet ISIS has money and the mendacious enterprise and efficiency of a criminal organization. In short, they must be countered, and that is why we will become just like them in our destructive ends–though perhaps not in our means. Nonetheless, our ends will be to obliterate ISIS as an organization, though killing ideas is never easy. Some fool always picks up lost causes, as Putin is by picking up the pieces of Hitler’s shattered nationalistic dreams and using the bits to achieve his own destitute ends. In the meantime, we become the killer of killers, and so it goes. To be sure, there is little choice, and therein resides the problem. There is no end to the spiral we are on.  ISIS cuts off heads, and we will bring hell-fire down upon them en masse. And so it will go until one day some bright lad develops a vengeance weapon that causes such harm to us and our friends that the hell-fire bombs and missiles we drop turns into the same nuclear fires that power the sun–with actions and reactions leading to a largely empty battlefield. That is the course of events, their ultimate resolution when one plays out all the cards. I often ponder if a better outcome might have evolved if we had simply stayed away. But the arrow of time moves in one direction, and thus there are no do-overs. They cut off heads, and we drop bombs. How far we have strayed from God’s path, and especially those who claim to be acting in Allah’s name. Rough times ahead…


 Future Shock 

by Dr. George H. Elder


            Several years ago, I had a dream wherein I was acting as a future rebel who was bent on blowing up a colossal fortress. I was with a group of like-minded people that stealthily approached the fort’s towering blackish-gray walls. I was in awe, for the structure seemed to fill the ominous, nocturnal setting. The edifice stood atop a rocky promontory and seemed to organically meld at its base with the landscape. After avoiding several trip-wires, motion detectors, and other security devices, our group easily penetrated into the fort via cutting though bars that protected a huge sewage pipe.              I recall the stench and muck we encountered within, but soon enough we managed to find an access hatch that led to the fort’s lower infrastructure. We quickly separated into small groups, with me and another fellow ascending stairs and traversing a dizzying array of corridors. There was great fear, but we were well-trained, determined, and knew where we were going. Our mission was just, having to do with personal freedom–and our task was to do away with what we took to be a dictatorial power structure.             Many of the details elude me, but we had to constantly evade various traps and avoid cameras, with one ambush device being a waist-high metal rotor concealed within various walls that would rapidly deploy upon sensing motion. The purpose of the device was to knock intruders off their feet and crush them against adjacent cement walls–repeatedly battering them into a pulp. But we jumped over the rotors and quickly planted explosive charges here and there. I wasn’t positive when the charges would go off, but after the payloads were deployed our focus quickly shifted to getting out of the place–and especially after alarms sounded!              Hoards of “semi-women” wearing tight-fitting leather uniforms darted through corridors and raced up and down stairwells. Their bodies appeared feminine, but their faces bore mustaches, beards and goatees, as if there had been in a mixture of the genders that did away with the notion of male and female. Some of their weapons were very futuristic, and others were more old-fashioned–as in razor-sharp Japanese katanas. The soldiers were fast and agile, and I knew there was no escape. Part of me felt guilty for being part of a violent operation that could take lives, but another part knew that the battle had to be fought–though dying in this dark and sterile place of steel and concrete was a terrifying prospect.              I awoke just before they caught me, and the dream’s meaning remained unclear for some time. As fate would have it, my days of graduate school at Penn State were indeed filled with private and public battles, the most prominent of which involved free speech. To be brief, I was canned from my teaching position for making a stance against a policy that forbade me from asking students to become public or private advocates for various actions that they supported. I went public after being dismissed, and thus began a very explosive series of battles that obliterated any chances of securing future teaching assignments. Yes, my anti-academy polemics killed my career, although some of my opponents also suffered–with at least two leaving the department within a few years of my dismissal. I thought it a good trade.              Still, some elements of the prescient dream remained mystifying, such as the hermaphroditic soldiers. Yet thanks to an acquaintance who recently graduated from a prestigious school–the more subtle messages within the dream are at last coming into focus. There are those who work against freedom of thought without ever quite realizing that is what they are doing. They are taught that words like Black, White, etc., are essentially racist in nature because they are divisive descriptors that are based on stereotypical concepts. Similarly, terms like men, women, etc., are sexist because they portray gender-based stereotypes, including those words that are reserved for people of trans-gender, gay, and lesbian persuasions. Yes, one pays $60,000 to $80,000 per year to have their children taught these often “politically correct” doctrines, with the students smugly walking away from it all thinking that they are pretty damn bright.             And if one uses terms these graduates don’t like, one is quickly branded as being this or that–with words like paternalistic, antiquated, racist, and much worse being bantered about. These would-be academics claim to be superior in their discursive styles and ways of thought, although I noted they seem a tad inconsistent at times. I have recently been called a prick and cunt by some of these bright young folks, though the terms were couched in barely coded language. They disagreed with me, and ultimately strove to make their points the old-fashioned way. I found it very amusing–to be linguistically categorized as this or that by would-be elitists who supposedly seek to stand above using such crude tools of categorization. Granted, I was teasing them a bit, although my views were sincere.              Let us briefly return to the dream’s metaphors. Of course, the fortress is the overweening power of the academy to shape minds and actions, albeit in strictly directed and approved fashions. Some call this “political correctness,” though I call it operant conditioning. One is patted on the head and given “tasty” intellectual acknowledgements for displaying approved academic behavior–woof, woof. The hermaphroditic soldiers are the legions of freshly matriculated students who would deign to guide our thoughts, deeds, and language use. These nascent fascists don’t even know they are being fascists, such is the ardor of their conviction vs. their ability to grasp the nuances related to their academically instilled ways of thinking. Since the first step in gaining wisdom is to know that one does not know, I depend on the happy idea that life will eventually teach these young people what the academy has failed to.              I worshipped at the alter of higher education for many years, and am well familiar with the various linguistic relativity theories that run through some dated and recent suppositions regarding how people use language. For example, the notion that one cannot experience or communicate certain thoughts (e.g., racism) without specific words has been around for a very long time. The theory maintains that we cannot think about hate or rose or car or racism without having terms for these ideational and/or physical referents. Thus, one can slowly do away with racism by eliminating terms that could be construed as racist–although whom decides what words are or are not racist isn’t quite clear.              It is a simplistic concept, for what defines a thought? Surely, it cannot be words or language alone that defines thought. Our pets anticipate when we are coming home from work, often waiting by the door. They have no words for friend, time, happy, or situation, yet all of these “ideas” are in play. Furthermore, they often commune with us through nonlinguistic vocalizations and nonverbal com, expressing desires and other concepts that they often intend–as in hunger, play, and pet me. In fact, they can change or induce our subsequent actions and reactions, all without the use of anything we would call words or language. Thus thoughts and words are two different things, albeit that they can be and are related in some species.             The real task is to understand exactly how thoughts and words are related, which takes us into neurolinguistics, neuropsychology, and even neurophysiology. I delved into these weighty areas for many years, writing a text on the subject that was published by NOVA Science. The reason I did this was because many people in the academy were promoting ideas regarding how communication functions that I knew were inconsistent with what science has revealed. I will not bore you with the details because the subject matter can be weighty–yet some things are easily understood.              For example, it appears that we are categorical thinkers by nature, and even at birth. A newborn will attend a paddle-board stimuli adorned with stereotypical eye and mouth facial markers in strong preference to other patterns. A newly hatched chick will duck when the form of a predatory bird is presented. There are many hundred examples like these of hard-wired perceptual and reactionary traits, but the central point is that we continue being categorical tinkers as we mature–regardless of our education and quaint ideas about language. We know this from brain damage studies. To be sure, people with focal lesions can lose their abilities to recognize and/or name all manner of different categorical associates–as in faces, specific types of objects, colors, or even emotions.              We cannot “educate” our inherent information processing design away, nor am I sure this is a wise thing to attempt. Humans process information via abstract or concrete categorical association, something that has been proven time and again. This is the heart of metaphor, the ultimate means by which thoughts are shared. I wish there was more focus on this area being taught in the academy because most of what I see at present is a species of insular idealism and intellectual elitism that stands in sharp contrast to a lot of science–not that science should be our God. Indeed, what we don’t know would fill a universe vs. the scant array of texts concerning what we do know.                One can certainly contend that we should always be aware of what messages our words are conveying to a given audience, though the blanket eschewing words like Black, White, queer, etc., might not be the best way to accomplish this end. What is required is the donning of an allocentric perspective. This is a capacity wherein we strive to perceive ourselves as others perceive us, which is no easy task. It demands a removal of the self in preference for a greater focus on how others might be interpreting our communication and viewing our actions. This idea entails a greater understanding of external perceptions of our ongoing interactions rather than a strict concentration on word use alone. No, it ain’t easy.             At present, I am a dismayed by what continues to spew out of the academy. It’s the same old shit-on-a-shingle that was being crapped out when I got my doctoral degree. Well, I never fit into the academy when I was there, being far too course and blunt in my views. If a concept lacked support, I said so–albeit in harsh terms at times. You see, I was older when I got my PhD, being 46. I had worked, gotten knocked around a bit, and tasted both failure and success. When I was the age of some of the kids I have recently communed with, I was doing all sorts of drugs, getting into tiffs, and partying up a storm. I am not saying young people need any of that “reality,” but they surely need more life experiences before opining on how life works–let alone how we should use language. I opt to be optimistic, hoping that this generation will eventually learn to judge itself–as well as others.      


A Cause Without a Cure 

by Dr. George H. Elder 



            I despise the nightly news shows. As usual, the press is doing its very best to beat a story to death, as in the Ferguson debacle. Reporters are acting like flies buzzing about feces, and after awhile so cover the material as to obscure what is actually there. Mix a remarkable lack of imagination with ample hyperbole, and one gets the US press, which is infamous for making as much noise as news. And they drone on and on, gagging us with special reports that are often much ado about nothing. So, what can we take from the Ferguson story that is helpful?               The convenience store’s videotapes demonstrate that Michael Brown had “probably” acted like a thug on the night he was killed, committing petty thievery and physical intimidation toward a much smaller person. That being said, he did not deserve to be shot down, although no one is quite sure what transpired between he and Officer Darren Wilson. I suspect Wilson was scared witless, not that this justifies shooting someone six times. Yet fear can easily be transformed into anger and irrationality, and thus we have the distinct possibility of both Brown and Wilson behaving in ways that led to an all-too-frequent outcome. Yet even if this is the case, the local Black community is inflamed and many Whites are largely mystified by what has unfolded.              The degree of racial divide that is crawling out of this fiasco is palpable. A recent Pew poll reveals a staggering divergence in views between Blacks and Whites. For example, only 37% of Whites feel Brown’s death reveals big issues about race, while 80% of Blacks do. When asked if race is getting too much attention, 47% of Whites say yes, while just 18% of Blacks answer in the affirmative. In addition, 60% of Blacks feel the police reaction has gone too far, but only 33% of Whites feel this way. Finally, a huge majority of Blacks (76%) have no faith in the ongoing investigation, while Whites are three times more likely to trust the investigation.             Yes, scratch the surface, and the racial divide comes gushing out. I do not believe Brown is a great exemplar for anyone to rally around, but I fully understand that the manner of his death was a reactionary impetus for many Blacks–a collective injury of sorts. To be sure, many innocent Black people are hassled by the police for no reason, which is something I have witnessed. On the other hand, many Black youths indulge in criminal behavior–with homicide being the number one cause of death in 18- to 24-year-old Black men. In Palm Beach County, Florida, five times as many Blacks are killed by homicide as die in car accidents, and in some cities the murder rates are staggering. For example, in New Orleans, a whopping 466 per 100,000 young Blacks are lost by homicide each year vs. the national average of 77–greater by a factor of 6. In fact, on a national level, young Black men are 6 times more likely to die from homicide and 7 times more likely to commit murder than are Whites the same age.             There are lots of reasons for these statistics, as in poor graduation rates, high unemployment, poor paying jobs, limited opportunities, gangs, sociocultural influences, and what I call White Fright. To be blunt, some White folks are scared witless by young Black men–judging the whole by the actions of a relative few. The police certainly have a history of racial profiling, and I ponder what else they can do given the existing crime stat’s. This goes for both Black and White officers, with their reactions often being a matter of personal welfare. Hey, when an officer makes a mistake of the streets, he or she can die from the miscue. So the police go with the odds, and thus see many young Black men in terms of high-risk. It is a very sad and miserable truth, for which I do not see an easy cure.             I was a coach for 11 years, and worked with numerous young Black men. Of course, these were college kids, with most being well educated and very determined. Thus the Blacks I worked with differed a bit from national averages, and went on to do some remarkable things. I did not witness the violence or criminality manifest by some young Black men, and thus never developed White Fright. Hell, I was much more criminally inclined than my charges when I was young, being somewhat of a thug myself. The essential point is, not all young Black men are the same, which is something White folks and the police have to recognize. Moreover, even Black men who come from very tough and poor neighborhoods differ in personality and tendencies, as do all people in general.             Yet many folks fail to see this because we tend to be categorical thinkers. It is largely a matter of how our brains are wired to react. We notice a few traits, and from these invoke a stereotypical schema that dictates our subsequent actions and reactions. The survival benefits of such a mechanism are obvious, as in rapid flight from a charging animal or other dangerous situation–an act of self-preservation that is governed by rapidly processing and reacting to a few cues. The “whole” does not matter when we think this way–just a few traits. Some of the schemas we develop are derived from harsh experience and others are learned via family, friends, and the media. We thus watch 48 Hours, listen to the news, and learn what to fear. In short, reactionary prejudice can be taught.             So a White dude sees a Black guy heading his way on the street. ‘My God! That’s a Black guy! I’m screwed! What to do? Oh, what to do?’ Whitey quickly crosses the street to avoid conflict with a man who might be a kindly minister or paramedic. The details are lost once the schema is invoked, with fear guiding many actions, thoughts, and reactions. And Lord help any White person who sees a group of five or more inner-city young Black men milling around outside a store or on the corner. This is a no-go zone for most White folks–including me. Some of the activated fear responses are well placed, though not always.             Thing is, a gathering of young Black men is often also a no-go zone for many Black people, folks who live in communities wherein violence is endemic. Yet one has to get milk and food for the kids, come whatever may be waiting around the next corner. That women or man going to the store can’t walk away or cross the street to escape those kids, and knows very well that everyday life carries great risks in this part of town. But given the economics, where else can one go? In fact, the vast majority of violence young Black men unleash is on other Blacks.             We should recognize here that violence does not stem from young Blacks alone. I have good friend who is Black, and he got hassled the other day by some ignorant, red-neck White teens–kids that are a blight on any community. He confronted them, and I am thankful he wasn’t shot or attacked. Such things can and do happen in rural Vermont, and are occurring at an increasing rate. “You do not know what it is like,” my friend has advised. “It is a constant threat, the same one you would feel in Washington.”                I do not see an easy cure for any of this. I think a family unit including a Mom and Dad is important in providing children with a model on how to live well, and one of the central problems in many communities is that such family units simply do not exist. Kids are born and raised by single moms, with their fathers being nowhere near. Many of these fathers lack a sense of personal responsibility, one that is usually instilled while being part of a family. Thus the children of these wayward fathers grow up and repeat the often dreary model of the life that they experienced, and so it goes–deadbeat dads giving rise to deadbeat dads.             This isn’t a problem of Black families alone, for many are loving and caring. In addition, numerous White families are undergoing parental divides, with fathers bugging out to pursue whatever pleases their fancy. I fear where all this will lead. At its core, this tendency to avoid personal responsibility is all about selfishness–a prioritization of the vagaries of one’s transient desires to that of familial duties. It is hard to raise a family, especially when one has no education, no job, and lives in a society that prioritizes the self above all else. It is not a matter of Black or White. It is a matter of poor values and limited opportunities–which run rampant when the idea of family turns into dust.                So what to do? Punishment is merely a means of treating a disease of the soul and not of preventing it. Of course, there is often no recourse but punishment when punk kids make surviving on “their” home turfs miserable for an entire community. The only long-term salvation I can see is crafting a context wherein the family structure can be preserved–which is easier said than done. So what do we do in Ferguson and other places to achieve this end? That is the essential question that is never asked. We cannot do a damn thing at present. Now that the reporters, anarchists, and their like have grabbed onto the issue, the entire town has become a nightly battle zone. This will burn itself out eventually, and then we can turn our thoughts toward how families can be preserved. At present, I do not have a clue, and am not ashamed to admit it.   




So Wanted to Say Goodbye… 


by Dr. George H. Elder

             I met Jack in rehab at the Genesis Center in Lebanon, NH. Oh, this isn’t the kind of rehab center celebrities go into when they get too drugged out or otherwise self-indulgent. No, it was a place for physical rehab wherein one does various exercises to get out and about–as in being able to walk, go to the bathroom, and perform the most basic parts of our daily routines. Jack had been laid low by a severe stroke following the use of an experimental chemotherapy drug to treat his bladder cancer. I was coming off a very bad reaction to anesthesia which aggravated an existing coordination problem.               In any event, we were roommates for a short while, striving to get through the protocols needed to get home. Hardly anyone wants to be in a nursing home, no matter how “nice” that home might be. However, some people have no choice because they simply cannot do what is needed to maintain an independent existence. Yet Jack and I were determined to go home, so we worked our asses off. My journey was easier than his. I was younger (62 vs. 71), less impaired, and a former coach–meaning I already had a mad-dog attitude about achieving goals.              However, Jack was also very determined. He was a teacher who worked with autistic children–and he sure as hell wanted to continue with the job. Jack played tennis and was otherwise very active, but that damn chemo made a mess of things. Still, he had gladly taken the risk, for his cancer was aggressive and Jack showed a warrior’s spirit in fighting it. Nor did he back down from the consequences of the therapy. Jack would put on his bionic braces, as we called them, and troop up and down the halls–being aided by one of the PT staff.             I was horrified by how weak and clumsy I had gotten, but worked hard to regain a bit of balance and control. My battle only took about 12 days, though Jack’s struggle had been about four times as long. Still, we got out of that place within a few days of one-another and kept in touch. Jack went back into chemo and my glacial slide continued, a condition called Multisystem Atrophy (MSA)–or so they say. We spoke on the phone, occasionally for very long times.              Then came that call wherein Jack told me that the treatments had failed. We both knew what that meant, and I was miffed that he had been so casually sent home to die. I thought it callous, especially considering how the treatments had degraded his quality of life. Jack’s needs soon exceeded his wife’s capacity to provide, and he ended up back at the rehab center–having lost a great amount of weight and strength. This is typical of the wasting some cancers cause. I tried to call him on Monday, August 11, but the attendant told me that phones had become difficult for Jack. I asked if I could see him later in the week, and the fellow said yes. I asked if I should get there sooner rather than latter, and he said I probably had some time.              So I went to Genesis on Saturday, bound and determined to give Jack some company. But he had died the day after I called. I was stunned. The nurses would not tell me any details, for such are the laws governing privacy. But I managed to talk to enough people to piece the story together. And I am still so very upset. As I type this, tears flow. I damn myself for not being there for a friend, for not saying a final goodbye. We don’t get second chances at such things, and I am beyond sad. Jack fought for life, like we all do–and strived against long odds. I recall the conversation we had about his kid while at Genesis.             “How am I going to tell him?” Jack asked.             “I would think he knows.”             “Maybe,” he said with a frown. “But I try to keep the details from him.”             “Why?”             “I don’t want this on his mind. He’s got classes to worry about, and I want him doing well. He has to take school seriously.”             “God, I wouldn’t know what to say. Damn cancer. Took my Mom and raised hell with my family.”             “But we have to keep trying.”             “We do. I see you doing that with your walks.”             “I think it drives the attendants crazy, but I have to keep trying. Just hope I’m not too much of a burden on my wife.”             “Hell, she knew the job was dangerous when she took it.”             “I don’t think she bargained for this,” Jack sighed.             “Maybe it won’t be so bad. You can walk on your own now.”             “A little bit. Doubt I’ll ever use this hand again.”             “But your mind’s still there.”             “If you say so,” Jack replied with a smile.             “I know so. Well, I have to get down there in a bit. Got my big evaluation today. I am going to kick some serious ass.”             “That’s the spirit!”             And so it went. Jack was high maintenance due to the effects of his stroke, but he made it out of Genesis shortly after I left. Over the coming months we called one another and shared various stories and updates about how our lives were unfolding. Occasionally, we talked about falls or medical problems, which are minion in anyone with chronic diseases. But mostly, we discussed life in general, as in Jack’s love of the many types of birds that flocked to the feeders at his house. Then I got the call wherein Jack related that the doctors at DHMC told him that further chemo was pointless. The cancer had spread from his bladder.             I begged him to try Cancer Centers of America or some other hospital, but he was worn and weak. One often hears death in a person’s voice well before it pays a final visit. There were times I called when he could not speak very long, though he reported about the weight loss, lack of appetite, and all the rest. He said he was going back to Genesis, and we both knew it was a one-way trip. I promised I would visit, and thought there would be more time. But I failed my friend, not that there was anything I could have done to ease his passage.             Time… It’s all about time. We only have so much of it, and squander hours on end in useless and trivial pursuits. We march toward that final period that ends all sentences, and seldom fully consider the things that are truly important while life’s lines are being written. Jack knew what was important, and it all went back to family for him. There he was, ravaged by a stroke and cancer. Yet his concern was always for his son and wife. To my way of thinking, such a perspective is an act of love. And when one loves, one is living fully. I am positive that Jack lived fully until his time came, and hope that I am half as courageous when that period is placed on the end my last sentence.   



by Dr. George H. Elder

              In Iraq, ISIS cuts off the heads of nonbelievers and kidnaps their women–handing young girls over to the gentle graces of the “holy warriors” who slaughtered their friends and families. In Israel, there was a videogame made wherein one gets points for blowing up Palestinian houses and killing the residents. In the Ukraine, 20,000 Russian troops hover on the border, sending in weapons and “advisors” that have turned that corner of the world into a vast killing field. In Africa, Ebola runs rampant, freed by world neglect, poverty, and superstition. All over this earth people of mal intent practice their perfidy, plotting and planning, striving for power and wealth, and blithely spending lives as if they were an expendable currency–a mere means of achieving desired ends.             So what do we do? Fools like me write articles, while others pray for relief in churches, temples, and other places of worship. Some take harsh positions blaming the right, left, or various religious groups for all our ills, stridently arguing that one side is 100% right while the other is totally wrong. Lies and distortions flow, and after a while the truth becomes buried under layers of obfuscations that make it nearly invisible. And all the while the pot bubbles and boils, much like the world itself stews in the juices, vapors and toxins that we have served up.               I shake my head and close these tired eyes. What can we do? Oh, what can we do? If I were wise, or at least a tad intelligent, I’d have an answer. Yet all I can offer are insights from dreams. In one of these, I sought an answer to a question concerning God’s existence, only to find myself looking into a mirror–staring into my own desperate eyes as they gazed back into my soul. Yet in that sublime moment, I finally realized that self-reflection is our only hope, though it often requires a type of honesty that burns our souls. To see ourselves as we truly are is no easy feat, and it is a process that can leave us in tears. It requires us to think about how we are thinking, to see ourselves as others see us–and to understand fully how our actions are influencing the world around us. Oh, why did we beat our child? Why did we steal? Was cheating on our spouse worth it? The answers sear us, but without asking such questions–there can be no reflections.             I wonder if Netanyahu mourns the Palestinian children who have died? He knows that not all were the victims of Hamas’ callous uses, for bombs are dropped by people–and people make mistakes. Bombs have no souls; no regrets or remorse. They are part of the spears that our leaders throw, and once set to flight they cannot be recalled. Yet the real damage is what killing en masse does to one’s own people. Imagine Israeli children playing computer games wherein one gets points for obliterating other children. Imagine a society that compares the mass killing of any people with “mowing the lawn.” An insightful and reflective leader might notice that the callousness manifest in these games and views is indicative of an underlying morality that makes the “good” as wanton as those who are considered “bad.” Indeed, what differentiates the good from the bad when both sides have a complete disregard for the innocent? In terms of reflections, Netanyahu might as well see the face of a Hamas extremist when he looks in the mirror, for they are as one in using lives as means of achieving political ends.             Ah, but it gets even worse. Every now and then, the world gives rise to demons who find happiness and meaning in there own perfidy, who brutally seek to craft the reflection of a supposedly “higher” belief or ideal regardless of the consequences. Consider Abu Bakr al-Baghdadi, the leader if ISIS. Here is a man who wears watches that cost thousands of dollars while calling himself humble and holy. He oversees the slaughter of all who disagree with his views, using the agency of men who are even more blind than himself. Ultimately, he does not perceive the massive ego that a mirror might reveal, the wretched and simplistic self-absorption that can justify mass murder and doling out captured Yazidi girls to the gentle graces of his “people.” Yet anyone who can decapitate prisoners, shoot them in mass graves, or commit similar crimes is hardly worthy of being considered a person. Here are beasts who are completely incapable of seeing their own reflections, their savage inhumanity of spirit. They justify their horrors by dim-witted recitations of holy texts and spewing ideologies that they obviously do not understand. They simply cannot perceive that they are the worst humanity has to offer, for such is their blindness.             We have witnessed the coming and passing of such wretches in NAZI Germany, Cambodia, Rwanda, and a host of other places–and the potential for becoming demons resides in most of us to one extent or another. The ancestry of these beasts stretches deep into the past, and only a few have faced the same vile debauchery that they have dished out. I ponder about God’s nature when I think of such things. If God is in all things, than the collective actions of all of us must define God’s being within a given context. During WWII, many Jews considered this issue, with some finding against God. To be certain, how could a good God ignore their plight, the gave injustices being perpetrated upon them each and every day? It might have been more appropriate to find against humanity, for if there is a God, we are most certainly part of it. Indeed, the people of many nations have crafted contexts wherein butchering their neighbors was perfectly acceptable, a necessary means.             Ah, but we are just a tiny part of an infinite whole, and can hardly perceive that when we defile ourselves, each other, and the earth around us, we also defile a bit of God. We simply fail to see the divine in our own reflections, though some might claim to have a higher understanding of God that makes their “accounts” sacrosanct. Such is the mental illness of men like al-Baghdadi, Hitler, and so many others. They see themselves as THE whole, instead of tiny aspects thereof. Extreme narcissism mixed with myopia is the bane of history, and so it goes. It is a blinding and binding set of traits that produces beasts to this very day.             Some beasts can only be contained in cages of iron until their days end, though many would argue that we should simply kill them. Yet killing does little to prevent their eventual resurrection in one form or another–for they seem to spring anew from every corner. Some might argue that killing makes us like unto the beasts we slay, and I am torn by this contention. A part of me wants to see al-Baghdadi literally torn to pieces by his victims, slowly and painfully–over a period of several days. Then I reflect on the gratuitous urge, and am shamed by what I see. To be sure, I am acting like al-Baghdadi in my desires, which is the real danger of terrorism. Terrorism makes us terrible people, both the perpetrators and the victims. We do unto other as was done unto us, regardless of our morality–our underlying principles.             Our generation has seen more than it’s fair share despots, but I believe they have an awful role in perfecting what we will become. If the beasts and their works become ascendant, our species will fall into interminable conflicts that will prevent an evolution of what we might otherwise become. Instead of striving for the stars, our missiles will find targets here on earth. Our kind will be laid low by interminable wars, but the universe will go on. We will be but a lost opportunity, a tiny bud that did not fully blossom because it was fatally flawed.             I wonder if we will dare blame God if this grim possibility becomes a reality? In the end, I suspect God sets the stage for possibilities but does not assure outcomes. That is our job. The best advice for any leader is to consider fully the image one sees in a mirror well before acting, and to see within this reflection how interconnected all things are. An act of cruelty makes one cruel, while killing anyone makes one a killer. Look at where such actions lead before taking them… and see what influence they might have on the collective welfare of the whole. Alas, fools are minion–and truly good people are rare by any measure. Good leaders are rarer yet. So we sit on the precipice and reflect on what we can do. It’s a joint responsibility, but the answers don’t come easily. 



On Killing Kids

by Dr. George H. Elder

  I have been arrested and jailed by the police. I deserved it and have no complaints about how I was treated. I have also helped the police when asked, as they have helped me. In general, I find the police of great value, and far more so than as a mere means of preserving the peace. But what is going on in Ferguson is nuts! The more I see, the less I can understand why the police are reacting so strongly. I mean, I am seeing some very heavy military equipment that one does not associate with the kind of force needed by the police for crowd control. Granted, a Humvee can go lots of places and save folks come floods and other disasters. But some of the weapons being deployed are WAY beyond crowd control. You know, given an armed populace, all the elements are in place for a real war, and I am hoping that cooler heads prevail. No, a kid shouldn’t be shot down like Brown was. It was bullshit, and especially the lack of medical attention that was brought in. On the other hand rioting and looting is hardly the best response! That is an insult to a family that lost one of its own–a terrible blight on an already tragic situation. The police have over-reacted, and the chief and others have to go. The looters should be punished to the max. As for the officer who shot Mike Brown, let the fed’s run the investigation and prosecution. Take it out of the town, and let the guilt or innocence fall where it may. Tonight, the potential is there for a real fight, with guns blasting away on all sides. Let us hope this doesn’t happen. We are living in strange times. There is madness everywhere–and life is beginning to mean nothing.



by Dr. George H. Elder

            Few Americans make any kind of meaningful stand protesting what Israel has done in the Gaza strip, a fact that is clearly evidenced by the recent Congressional authorization of $225 million for the Iron Dome shield. The vote was a whopping 395 to 8, with the likes of Harry Reid offering that even more money would be forthcoming. This, in conjunction with the administration authorizing yet more weapon transfers to Israel, clearly indicates which side the US has taken–and always takes. It has been this way for many years, though some Americans are deeply disturbed by the blatant bias of  “our” foreign policy.             Of course, most Americans approve of Israel’s action, with 57% opining that the Jewish state’s ongoing war against the Palestinians is justified. This is despite the horrible pictures of dead and dying kids, mutilated bodies, and the vile collective punishments that proliferate by the day. So how did it come to this? After all, the US usually does not support the mass killing of children, women, and civilians, at least overtly. Yet here we are, tossing more weapons into the fray–thus insuring the IDF can “mow the lawn” even closer. That’s what they call these “cleansing” operations in Israel, with the notion being that Palestinians are little more than weeds that require an occasional pruning via the ham-fisted shears of the IDF.             America’s actions must both inflame and mystify many abroad, and especially those in Palestine. After all, it is largely American ordnance that has killed 1,700+ and wounded another 8,500 Palestinians–figures that are bound to grow. It is as if we have donned moral blinders that obscure the massive loss of life and property that the IDF is causing–an idiotic policy that only serves to make more radicals. If it were my mother, father, brother or sister who was being laid low, I would want revenge–just as those traumatized people most certainly do.             And they will lash out, thus feeding Netanyahu yet more political fodder–more “reasons” to feed off those innocents some arrogant Israelis call weeds. Now, we in the US are largely blind to all this, with most not understanding that American policies regarding the Middle East were the impetus for those radicals who took down the twin towers. We just don’t get it–as in understand how a vote to arm those who murder people en masse will come back to haunt us in the end. Nor do the Moslem masses understand why the US reacts as it does, so please let me offer one American’s view.             The truth is, the US is an “occupied” country–a place where a disproportionate amount of the media and nearly all of the political power rests in the hands of a wealthy and vested elite. And in the US, the Jews are amongst the elite in many fields. As a group, the Jews have worked very hard to accomplish this end–which was hard-going for a small and disenfranchised group. Currently, there are between 6,200,000 and 8,300,000 Jews in the United States, depending on how one categorizes what being a Jew is. If one extends religious affiliation to having a grandparent who was/is Jewish, the US Jewish population rises to roughly 11,000,000. These sound like big numbers, but as a percentage of the US population (310,000,000+) they are tiny–ranging from 2.0% to 3.5%.             Moreover, it is not like the entire US Jewish population is monolithic on most issues. As has been often observed, the definition of an argument is putting two Jews in the same room. I have known numerous Jews, and consider many to be good friends. It is a mistake for anyone to think that all Jews are alike, that most worship money, and that many have no ethical values. Granted, every so often a Woody Allen comes along who is wanton and salacious enough to cast a grim light on an entire people, but it is lunacy to judge the whole from the actions of any one person. Allen-type debauchery occurs in members of all faiths, and it is my personal observation that most Jews are moral people.             They are successful, bright, and wealthy. Over half (55%) of all Jews in the US have a college degree and 25% hold advanced degrees. Only 29% of the general US population holds college degrees and just 6% have Master’s or PhD’s. Truth is, most Jews prioritize education, and invest heavily in their children’s academic and career futures. This pays off. Over 60% of all employed Jews have professional/technical (41%), management and executive (13%), or business and finance jobs (7%). As a result, 46% of all US Jewish families had an income of $100,000 or more in 2010, while 75% were in the $50,000 or above bracket. Corresponding figures for the US average are just 18% at $100,000 or more and 48% at $50,000 or more. The Hindus have also achieved lofty economic standards in the US, but no other religion is even close.             The point is, Jewish Americans control a great deal of economic, corporate, professional, media, and technical power, especially in relationship to their modest numbers. I laud these accomplishments, for much bigotry and entrenched reticence had to be overcome. Indeed, there was a time when Jews were not welcome to participate in American politics, but now there are 12 Jews in the Senate and 22 in the House, with the 12 in the Senate representing 12% of its total membership vs. the mere 2.0% to 3.5% of Jews in the national population. Once again, no one begrudges Jews from making such progress on so many fronts.             And while Jews seldom agree on anything, they have a gaping blind spot for Israel. To be sure, many American Jews are as loyal to Israel as they are to the US, and thus some of the primary reasons for US policy bias are fairly obvious. When it comes to Israel, America Jews tend to both fund and vote for those who defend its interests, and thus there are hardly any differences between Republican and Democratic policies regarding Israel. In America, power goes where the money flows, with the press beating whatever drumbeat its financial masters dictate.             People from afar must understand that the notion of the US being a democracy is largely an illusion. Our political system has become predicated on who can garner the most “contributions”–which our courts equate with “freedom” of speech. I know that sounds absurd, but politics in the US is far from reasoned discourse between independent parties. If anything, we have a power system based on public relations, and it costs a lot to make glossy commercials criticizing your opponent and praising your own deeds–be the ads true or not. In that America has a vested Jewish elite that controls an enormous deal of wealth and public outreach capacity that can be used to pursue political ends, Israel has systematically become America’s master.             Some Americans will claim I’m being extreme here, but please consider how the votes go on supporting Israel. You’ll seldom find such obvious bias in policy votes promoting the welfare of Poland, Italy, Ireland, Turkey, Germany, or any other nation that comes to mind. Our relationship with Israel is “special.” Indeed, we are Israel’s bitch, to be used and abused as our masters see fit. Just consider how Netanyahu taunts Kerry and Obama, his political playthings. I am ashamed of our leaders’ weakness, their political blind eyes. Eventually, there will be a terrible price to pay for this abrogation of authority. In fact, it is happening already.             One of those kids who has witnessed his family being blown to pieces will understand that his “best” recourse is not the idiotic and impotent means of achieving “justice” that Hamas employs. He will understand that Hamas is mostly composed of irresponsible fools who butcher their own as blithely as do the Israelis. Here will be a Palestinian “weed” who studies biochemistry, earns advanced degrees, does world-class research, and becomes one of the very best on earth in understanding the genetics of life. Yet he harbors deep within a festering hatred toward all things Jewish–reliving constant nightmares of his family’s grizzly death. The trauma drives him. It hounds him, giving his soul no reprieve. So he plots in private and stays away from political affiliations, with no one knowing what this outwardly happy man’s ultimate intensions are.             Perhaps the plague he finally releases will begin in Jerusalem, or maybe Tel Aviv. His breath will become labored as the fruits of this traumatized “weed’s” genius spread and multiply, ignoring borders and all means to contain it. He knows no Iron Shield can stop the deadly virus, and smiles while musing about how desperate Israelis will be trying to flee to the US. Yet there will be no escape–no time to make antidotes. It will be a collective punishment, as in what has been repeatedly imposed on the Palestinians. The entire world will suffer for the hatred that Netanyahu has foolishly planted in so many, and the US should not wonder why it had to be this way when the piper comes to collect his dues. We will die by the millions, perhaps finally understanding that we made some very poor choices.             This scenario is not a matter of if, but only of when. Perhaps 50 years, maybe more or less. But there will be a terrible price for the mass murder that has been committed by the IDF, and no army or force on God’s earth can prevent it. Feast in victory, Netanyahu, but know you well that your country’s fate has been sealed–if not the world’s. The land has always been God’s, and God’s alone! Instead of sharing the garden, you opted to “weed” it again and again and again. Well, Israel will reap the harvest of hatred that it has planted. As for we Americans, it is important to understand that being anyone’s bitch has a steep cost.               



by Dr. George H. Elder


 We have seen the pictures of screaming and mangled Palestinian kids, along with the limp and bloodied bodies of those who are rushed into overburdened hospitals by frantic families and friends. There are no words that can justify blowing up children, and it is utter folly to even try offering excuses. Claiming that it was the fault of another that “caused” you to act wickedly is to ignore any sense of personal responsibility–as in a policeman who shoots a kid to get at a criminal. When all is said and done, what Israel is doing is every bit as wicked as what some Palestinians are doing, and continuing this madness will not change a thing. Do you think a kid who loses a best friend, sibling, or parent to a bomb “we” Americans supplied will hate us any less than he or she hates the Israelis? The towers in New York fell for a reason, though we seldom consider what it might have been. We see effects, but often fail to see deeper root causes.   At present, ALL the warring parties are planting the seeds of their eventual destruction, and one day mushroom clouds or far worse will sprout over all the major cities in the land of milk and honey, incinerating Moslems and Jews alike. We’re only 50-100 years away from that nightmare, but the seeds are being planted right at this moment by myopic and jingoistic nitwits who justify killing children as a matter of national defense. Take a look into the eyes of those kids who are being pounded every day by bombs and missiles–who see their best friends and family members being blown to bits. Their eyes reflect hatred; stark, pure, and infinitely deep. It will fester and grow, devouring everything in its path. Those children will one day become wild-eyed adults who embrace death, with their only goal being foisting the misery and loses that they suffered upon others.  No words can change that, and it is time for the US to step aside. Israel is becoming like the beast it purports to despise, and it has lost vast amounts of moral authority as the slaughter continues. It is a nation that may one day reap a harvest that technology cannot protect it from. Be it a virus, bacteria, or bomb, the results will be the same for all concerned–friend and foe alike. It is only a matter of when and not if, for the hatred being instilled will find its recourse. In the interim, it is best for the US and others to cease supporting anyone in this dreadful miasma, this desecration of what was once the holy land.   Perhaps America can do some good for the survivors, but this can never be accomplished by supplying weapons, blind support, or banal justification for unmitigated evil. Israel’s leaders have made it into a land of mass murderers; ordering pilots, sailors, and soldiers to kill and maim thousands. They are the tip of a spear that was thrown by a fool, yet hardly a one said, “NO!” Nor is any wisdom to be found in Hamas’ leadership, a group that trades lives for political gain. The sad thing is that both the children of David and the Prophet KNOW what will one day happen as the wheel takes its inevitable turn. At it’s essence, the land being fought over belongs to God, and God alone. If it is not shared in peace, it will surely be shared in mutual death–with only the wind echoing a refrain to what might have been. 



April 2, 2014:  The Supreme Court, in all its finite wisdom, had decided that their version of freedom of speech prevails, and thus the rich can dump even more money into our political system. Soon enough, the majority of what we hear will be the shrill voices of those who are rich enough to buy congress and to pay for the PR bills. This court has become an enemy of the democratic process and the masses, but a dear friend to the vested few. The answer is term limits for all justices, or the death of our democracy.  


Putin Hitler: Russia’s Big Mistake


By Dr. George H. Elder

            Putin ordered his “special” forces and troops to seize the Crimea, and no one stood against him. Oh, the US and others complained bitterly, but now his sights are being set on the Eastern Ukraine. In the meantime, we hear cheering Russian masses singing patriotic songs. Those masses also smiled and cheered when anti-gay laws were passed, with Putin being all to happy to engage in the same scapegoating that dictators traditionally use to unite the unwashed. They claim the “out-group” is the result of all ills, but the leader is strong enough to take them on. Indeed, the leader is wise and powerful, capable of crafting a new world order where a down and out nation is once again respected.

             Hilary made the obvious comparison between Hitler and Putin, something our erstwhile president seems loath to do. Oh, we threaten sanctions, do nasty economic things, but it seems American power has been vacated. Getting involved in Afghanistan and Iraq has exhausted the country on many levels, and at present we lack the gumption to stand up to Syria’s perfidy, let alone Putin’s. So we carp mightily while Syrian children die en masses, and cry aloud as countries are consumed by a man of consummate wickedness, a willful man who lies with all the practiced aplomb of so many of our own political leaders.              I despise the prospect of war, and did not want us getting involved in Iraq or any number of other areas wherein there was the prospect of long-term boots on hostile ground. This is seldom a good idea, although that lesson seems slow in coming to some US leaders. Now, we have squandered lives, treasure, and public determination on treks that ill-served the country’s long-term interests. Our goal ought to have been simple. Destroy those who caused 9/11. We opted to build nations instead, something we could never do considering the political background of the countries we opted to occupy. And while our brave men and women bleed, our national will grew weaker, which is completely understandable. Indeed, we all realized that “our” democracy is not the bread-and-butter of many cultures, and thus what kind of nations could we really build?              Now we have a vicious beast afoot, a true threat to his neighbors and world peace. He is armed to the teeth with thousands of nuclear weapons, has a vast army, and seems to have no compunction against using force. Putin Hitler knows we lack the will to confront him, and thus he has opted to run wild. He will take and expand, until his dear Russia is what it once was–a vast amalgamation of captive souls who dare not complain. He will use intimidation for the most part, but eventually, he will kill more directly. It is the Beast’s way, and always has been. And all the while, the Russian mass’ will cheer his name, this new messiah of the Rus.                 In the end, he will miscalculate. Nearly all dictator’s do, for they are creatures of unbridled narcissism and ego. This can lead the world and Russia into a disaster that makes WWII seem like a tea party. Imagine if Putin Hitler goes after a treaty state, and thus the US and others are compelled to react. That’s when it all can end, in hundreds of blinding flashes that incinerate millions of souls. So what do we do? Well, the only recourse I can see is for him to die, though I am ashamed to confess the depravity that such a conclusion betrays.              My hope is that a Russian patriot will do the deed, and Putin Hitler certainly has no lack of home-grown enemies. Indeed, his opponents are the world’s best hope, and their efforts should be supported. I know “our” direct involvement in killing Putin Hitler violates US and international Laws, and it also violates my own ethical standards because I feel all life is precious. But if Putin Hitler lives, millions will die or suffer. One has to ask, would it have been better to kill Hitler in 1937, or to have let WWII happen? Is the loss of one man worth the death of 50 million people? It is a fair question, though arguing alternative realities is pointless for beings that are bound to the present.              Putin Hitler has shown himself to be a beast in every sense of the word, and it is far better that he die than be allowed to kill. It is a question of how, and this brings us into black operations, the very things that Putin Hitler did for a living. He was a director of secret assassinations and other dark deeds, someone who ordered such operations during his 16 years of KGB “work.” I am positive his personal defenses are very strong, but there are many Russians who would much prefer to see him dead–despite the cheering masses. As for the morality involved, killing Putin Hitler is far better than the eventual destruction of a multitude, including his admirers.              This essay comes to an admittedly terrible conclusion, one that sanctions death as a means of preserving life. I suppose one could use the same rational to justify killing any leader who invades another country, and perhaps that is not such a wicked thing. As a man who has sought God in many ways, I find my conclusions disturbing and unethical. It is the byproduct of a man who cannot call himself good, for seeking the death of anyone is inherently bad. I wish I could discern another way of dealing with Putin Hitler, but I cannot. He is the end product of an institution that wallowed in blood, and we see from the abuse of his nation’s laws and the rights of those around him that this Beast is a clear and present danger to the entire world. It is better that he pass, and for advocating that–I am as dreadful as he.   +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++   Friday, October 4, 2013 I just signed a contract with NOVA Publishers for Reflections, and thus begins another adventure. There is much to do in terms of marketing and all the rest, but this book was the best I can do in many ways. I am certainly glad an “established” publisher picked it up. I was ready to go the self-publishing route, but that is a VERY poor way to move any significant number of books. Here is the current blurb, though it will certainly change:  

  • Reflections: A Dream Quest addresses the history and science of dreams. The author uses his own dreams as examples, some of which are unique due to Dr. Elder’s personal and medical history. The dreams include widely shared experiences, such as flying, but also extend to intriguing astral events, prophecies, and insights concerning the nature of existence. The author employs the first-person present tense perspective when describing his dreams, which makes them exciting and fast-paced. The narrative sections follow the typical academic style, although Elder has endeavored to make the material accessible to the widest possible audience. Unlike many mass-market books on this subject, Reflections also examines dream science and history in considerable depth, providing readers with a wealth of unique information concerning what dreams are and why we have them. For example, Elder relates some forms of dream prophecy to the workings of our episodic memory system, finding a persuasive basis of support in modern schema theory and neuropsychological research. Other dreams, such as those concerning God, humanity’s future, and astral adventures occasionally defy the author’s tendency to find rationalistic explanations, a fact that he both  dislikes and admits. The historical review stretches back to Gilgamesh, and runs up to modern findings in the neurosciences. Of course, the ideas of Freud, Jung, and others are discussed along the way, with the reader getting a great deal of information on what dreams were thought to mean over the ages. Indeed, there are over 380 sources scattered throughout the text, and a quick review of the bibliography will reveal that this is a manuscript of considerable research and substance. Readers from high school to post-graduate levels will find items of interest in this fast-moving text, which leaves a message that is as much spiritual and moral as it is scientific.



  Saturday, September 07, 2013             The dithering concerning bombing Assad’s military assets continues unabated, and I find myself in the minority yet again. Moreover, I am also taking a stance that is in fundamental disagreement with my personal beliefs regarding the sanctity of life. However, I would hardly call my position categorical on that issue as I’m pro choice and pro assisted suicide–though only when one is terminally ill and suffering. On the other hand, I am against the death penalty, so my philosophy on taking life is hardly “mature” or consistent as it now stands.             The problem is that context makes a mockery of categorical positions. For example, in my view it is unconscionable to force a woman to give birth to a child that is the product of a rape or incest–regardless of one’s position on abortion. Similarly, one can be against the death penalty, but still seek the life’s blood of a criminal who savagely raped and murdered one of your kids. The situation often dictates what recourse we seek, which puts me in the camp of moralistic relativism–a dreary place for sure.             I suppose my position on the “need” for attacking Assad is based on fear. There are chemical weapons out there that make Sarin look tame, such as VX. A leader who uses such weapons on his own people is also prone to using them on others, as Saddam proved during the Iran/Iraq war. We turned an official blind eye to that, at least until Iraq became unfriendly. It was the fear of such weapons that drove us to attack Iraq, though it turned out that Iraq had abandoned its chemical munitions. Silly us.             Now we have a person who has definitely used these weapons of mass destruction and done so on a large scale. Yet there is NO desire in the hearts of the American people to stop him. Been there, done that, didn’t work out so well. And it isn’t like the UN will ever intervene, toothless and useless organization that it is. My goodness, the UN has the oddest governance and decision-making mechanism imaginable–one wherein one powerful nation can insure that nothing gets done. Until that changes, very little good can come from that organization.             Of course, giving the UN power would come at the cost of countries like the US, China, etc., conceding control and authority. It does not seem that the powerful nations are ready for that, and thus it often boils down to nations taking unilateral actions that meet shifting and transient ends–such as destroying Assad’s means of using chemical warfare. As its core, we have created a toothless world governance, mostly out of fear that it will one day bight us in the ass for our own perfidy. We are simply not willing to give up our control, our sovereignty. Indeed, the idea of actual world governance has become anathema to nearly all powerful countries…             Given this dreadful status quo, each powerful nation takes it on its own shoulders to stop a threat that could one day reach its shores. The US has shown time and again how silly that behavior is, and now we are too weary to act. Had Bush not lied us into the Iraq war, it might have been possible to get mass support for eliminating Assad’s WMD. But now, we must go it alone or turn our heads away. Oh, but the cost of turning our heads away eventually leads to terror at home.             The only real answer is to craft a UN that has real power, a power that cannot be controlled by any one country. That will not happen any time soon. So on one hand, people in the US bitch about us playing the part of the world’s police force. But  on the other hand, we’ll also bitch about not being subject to a police force that isn’t under our solitary and direct control. I don’t suspect many folks see the irony in all this. There is only one answer, but we’re not quite ready for anything like “real” world governance yet. I hope the future will not curse us for our myopia. I hope it doesn’t end up destroying everything we love…      


  Thursday, September 05, 2013              The American people have no desire to take on anyone in the Middle East, be the cause good or bad–just or unjust. Thus the majority of us are quite content to passively watch while innocents are gassed en masse, humanocide writ large on our TV screens. We have become like so many beaten dogs, whimpering at the mere thought of yet more conflict. Given the lies that were told to get us involved in Iraq, who can blame the people for being reluctant?              My problem is this: in Assad we have a petty tyrant who truly does have weapons of mass destruction. Furthermore, he has shown an inclination to use them on his own people–and on a large scale. He is allied with several quasi-religious and extremely violent groups that are both capable and numerous, and one wonders what we will do if those noxious white clouds suddenly appear in a New York subway or Fenway Park. That is the threat, and not just what is happening in Syria, terrible though it is.              I despise war, and think it is ample proof that humanity has hardly evolved in over 5,000 years. Furthermore, the American people have every right to feel exhausted, having been involved in an only partially justified fight that has lasted the better part of a generation. Alas, there comes a time, exhausted or not, when we have to do what is in the best interest of our children. And like it or not, removing those chemical weapons from the scene is in our best long-term interest.              Yes, it is only a temporary fix, something that may buy us 10-15 years before another dictator arises who has a yearning for power and no qualms about using ANY means to get and keep it. Already, we see all the efforts we extended in Iraq drifting into a mindless civil war that will spawn the next “strong man,” the coming dictator. And in this failure, we see yet more reasons not to get involved, for many American lives have been lost and vast treasure spent for little, if any, long term gains.              It is a matter of using power intelligently. One aids those who are fighting for their own freedom, with Bosnia being a prime example of how effective this policy can be when used properly. We have the technical ability to degrade Assad’s ability to rule without putting boots on the ground, and to do so in a fashion that allows the Syrian people to express their own will. We may not like what evolves, but what choice is there to act given the weapons involved?              So I agree with the policy of removing Assad’s chemical weapons, though I find Obama’s handling of this situation very dubious. If one sees a mad dog at the door, one doesn’t dither before acting–and the butchering of over 400 children surely indicates that we are dealing with a mad dog. Instead, we go through this legalistic national and international debate, and at a time when our people are already exhausted. Our leaders have no choice but to act, even if there is a lack of consensus. To do nothing means that we have truly lost, for we will have become a people who can watch children suffocate by the hundreds while waiting for our dinners to be cooked. Where is the humanity in that?     



LATEST BOOK: DEEP THOUGHT: Humanity’s Longest Day.

BOOKS IN PREPARATION: REFLECTIONS: A DREAM QUEST (click for sample!) Essays of a Mad Man.   CURRENT BOOKS IN PRINT: Child of Destiny Book 1 of The Genesis Continuum. (Amazon) (Barnes & Noble) Pursuing a Legend (Book 2) is available now. (Amazon)(Barnes & Noble) Forging a Future  (Book 3) is available now. (Amazon)(Barnes & Noble) Deep Thought  (prequel) is now available on Kindle Select.   WARSHIP TECHSPEC: US 16 Inch Range Problems, BOI 1-45 NAVORD OCL A28-45 Base Detonating Fuzes InfoBultn: No. 29: USN AA Summary WWII, Oct. 1945 BERICHT 166: Heavy Armor for Ships, Germany, 1943   LATEST ARTICLES: SAMPLE FROM REFLECTIONS Diary of a Madman Buying Favor Vota has a Hissy Fit Mea Culpa Sandy Reflections The Author as Enemy On Sci-Fi Artwork On Sci-Fi Artificial Intelligence On Sci-Fi Character Development On Sci-Fi Conflict On Sci-Fi Editing On Sci-Fi Themes On Sci-Fi: The Question of Religion On Sci-Fi Violence


Humanity’s longest day begins with a deep space observation satellite detecting a large“energy bubble” encompassing Penn State’s campus in State College, PA. No one knows what caused the mysterious event, including its creator, a graduate student named Alexander Barr. He has discovered how matter, energy, and thought are interrelated, with the critical information coming from ancient texts. Alexander’s efforts are making him into a being of incomprehensible power, but he carries the flaws we all harbor within. The powers that be try to stop Alexander’s development and end up wounding him. The resultant energy release devastates the northeast, destroying major cities and killing millions of people. Alexander slowly recovers and becomes ever stronger, with an outreach that can extend to the furthest reaches of the universe. All the while, efforts are made to contain the threat he is thought to represent and thus begin judgment errors that makes the apocalypse seem like a pleasant day’s outing. There are no rights and wrongs here, just well-intentioned actions and reactions that often go horribly wrong. Will the earth survive? Indeed, will existence itself continue? The stakes are huge, and you’ll have a front row seat.  

Parts of the battered Serenade are formed into the scouting ship Ral’s Rake, and Ral takes on a robotic body. He begins a tempestuous relationship with Anita, which comes to a tragic end when the crew soon discovers the badly damaged Dragoonter. She is transporting thousands of Elesian children, but it strays too close to the Serenade and is decimated by the ship’s automated defense systems. A subsequent collision cripples the Rake, destroys the Serenade and Dragoonter, and tears Ral to pieces—thus crippling the mission.

Ral’s remains are salvaged, and Anita installs his AI modules in the capsule. However, Ral betrays the crew and turns the renovated Rake over the surviving Elesians. Anita removes Ral from the capsule and installs another AI system named Marcus. Thus begins a final attempt to reach Terra. The Terrans and Alcara continue their savage battle over the capsule, but the Seekers finally intervene. The crew members are given the choice of continuing the mission of pursuing whatever life-courses each selects. Will Kara and the others decide to go on? If so, will they survive the trip to Terra? Will the missing Seeker still exist, and if so, can he be awakened? Will the old adage be careful of what you wish for be the mission’s final epitaph?   The Universe shifts as the battle draws near. The Alcara have used a mass transfer device to destabilize the Universe. As galaxies and star systems shift, the Confederation revives the long dormant Fulcan fleet in a bid to destroy the powerful and titanic weapon. Thousands of ships gather to confront the Alcara and their deadly device, and one question reverberates among those ready for battle… will the fleet get though? As the battle draws closer Kara meets the “Ancient One”, the lone surviving member of the earliest sentient species. Using her extensive powers, the Ancient One helps Kara awaken dormant abilities that could help in the impending battle. The key question remains…will Kara and the crew be able to make the jump to Terra and reach the legendary Seeker in time?     The universe’s expansion is nearing its inevitable end and everything is being devoured by entropy. The key to having a future is a missing energy source, a legendary metaphysical being known only through ancient tales. The last hope of a dying universe is to awaken this dormant Seeker who possesses the capacity to link the entire universe in thought and deed. He alone may be able to rekindle the sparks of a new universal cycle. The remaining advanced species desperately want existence to continue, and send for missions to search for the Seeker. One such mission unexpectedly and inexplicably materializes on a primitive world that is inhabited by the Labateen, a Stone-Age warrior culture. Here they encounter Kara, an outcast Labateen noble woman and fierce warrior. Kara knows details about the Seeker’s litany that go well beyond coincidence, although to Kara they are simply the ways of God. Is Kara the key to locating the long lost Seeker? And what of the races who believe that existence should end in an entropic whimper and who will not sit by while others attempt to alter the end of the universe. Lofty ideals give way to brutal pragmatism as a confederation of races struggles to survive and save existence. For a view of the first few chapters, please click here.



I am proud to be a Liberal, but Ed Snowden is no hero to me. He broke sworn promises, supposedly to help our common good in avoiding government intrusion into our personal affairs. But a man of honor should stand ready to suffer the consequences of his actions, be those consequences just or unjust. All I see in Snowden is a self-serving blabbermouth who runs from Hong Kong to Moscow–ever striving to avoid being held accountable. How can anyone regard this behavior as heroic? He is certainly not acting like a righteous man who is seeking to do his fellow countrymen and the world at large any altruistic good. In the end, he will have to pay the piper, and all his days will be spent behind bars. That would be a better fate that being reviled as someone who ran from accountability, the same accountability he would hold the government to by way of his deeds. How odd for an individual to regard himself as worthy of judging the body politic while lacking the resolve to face judgment for his own actions. His is the height of egotism, and those who laud this behavior ought to consider what harm Snowden has done to others–as well as the country as a whole. If he had stood ready to face the music, he might be worthy of praise. But his actions are so craven as to repudiate any claim that he is serving a noble goal. Let him be judged for his deeds, as he surely will be. In my estimation, he is an egotistical coward–and one who has obliterated any chance of being regarded as a good person.




  This is an entry from my diary that was sent to the FBI on April 15, 2013 via an e-mail form that is on the FBI website. I imagine it is still in their records, although they did not reply. At the time, I had no idea what the symbolism in the dream meant–though it is clear now. Here we have a Muslim shark captured in Watertown–while hiding in a boat. I wish the hell I could have been more helpful in discerning the meaning, but find it odd that these kind of predictive dreams are still happening. I thought they were over, and still do not understand their basis.   Monday, April 15, 2013               I had a mantic dream last night, but did not recognize it at the time. I was swimming in the ocean, which was warm and inviting. I swam without problem, but sensed something was wrong. Then I noted a shark was circling, coming in closer and closer. I didn’t know what to do and there was no escape. The shark opened its mouth and went after my legs, mauling them in a way that was palpable. I woke up yelling, but had no idea what the dream meant–other than a threat was in play.             Today, a terror bombing happened during the Boston Marathon, which killed at least two and wounded about 110 or so. Numerous people had their legs injured, and in a few cases legs were completely torn off–ripped asunder. Metaphors and premonitions. It seems the old predictive dreams have not completely evaporated, though what good it did is problematic. Those sharks will always be circling, just biding their time before zipping in to take a bite.             The thing is, the ocean, shark, and swimming metaphors might have another meaning, something that is related to the details of what happened. I wish I could see it, as in a name or location. Alas, I’m too damn limited.             It’s 11:08 PM. It seems there is a battle of bumper stickers in Cairo, with Muslim sharks being pitted against Christian fish. I wonder if that’s it? There are some white supremacists “shark-tank” conservatives in Florida, extreme conservatives. Man, I have lost it. Usually, I can make sense of these things.             Death toll is up to three with 140+ injured. Amputations are needed–a real mess. Lots of mauled people. I felt the pain in my legs when that damn shark attacked, but awoke from the misery. Those poor folks cannot awake from their nightmare.             I hate these damn dreams, and thought they were finally over. I will send this out and hope it helps, but I doubt it.    


Saturday, December 15, 2012

Doing a bit better, but still not very productive. I am greatly saddened by the murder of 20 children by some nut-case with a bunch of guns. It happened yesterday, and has had a very traumatic effect. I hope you folks in the future are doing better than we are with regards to these damn gun issues. The primitives in the US cling to their interpretation of the Second Amendment, which has made the country into an armed camp. It is a primal way of living, with ANYONE having access to weapons of all kinds. It is lunacy writ large, and there is NO security! Any fool has the power to easily kill, and it is often exercised! I wrote a little prayer for the dead kids, although a redneck from Georgia didn’t like the sentiments on one posting board, equating the mass murder of kids with traffic accident losses. Can you imagine such a thing?

Grant these lost children a place frozen in time where they are forever surrounded by their own kind. Wrapped in environs of safety and cheer, and dreaming of things that kids hold dear. 

It is fairly clear that the society we have forged is a failure in many respects. Hell, our society can’t even protect its own children! It will change or dissolve. That is the nature of things, with the fatally flawed going extinct. I think where we went wrong was in placing the welfare of the individual above that of the state, which has led to all manner of problems–as in the murders and shootings we see on a daily basis. Personal responsibility toward others has been made into an option rather than an obligation, and thus the disturbed and criminal take guns into schools or playgrounds and kill kids by the score. Meanwhile, the NRA chirps about OUR right to bear arms. Idiots, myopic nitwits who suckle on automatics instead of security blankets. Stupid is as stupid does, and it seems we have condemned ourselves to repeat this same sad storey ad infinitum. I imagine this will happen umpteen times more during what remains of my life before going on into the future. I was going to write a comprehensive essay, but I am still seeing double. I am going back to bed. Still very tired at times–overpoweringly so. Sorry, I am letting you down.


Buying Favor

by Dr. George H. Elder

         I’ve been reading about the most prolific and wealthy political donors who help to pollute our political system with vast wads of money. The top ten in this group includes Sheldon Adelson (Republican, 79, Las Vegas, gambling), Harold Simmons (Republican, 82, Dallas, business), Bob Perry (Republican, 80, Houston, real estate), J. Joseph Ricketts (Republican, 71, Chicago, business), Fred Eychaner (Democrat, 67, Chicago, media), James Simons (Democrat, 74, New York, finance), Robert Rowling (Republican, 59, Texas, business), Peter Thiel (Libertarian, 45, California, business), William Koch (Republican, 72, business), and Joseph Craft (Republican, 62, business).          Some of these rich folks are brilliant, such as Simons, a mathematician and theorist who has written scholarly articles. Others, such as Adelson, are not scholars by any measure, but are shrewd and hard-working business aficionados who know how to turn big profits. Most are elderly, white, Republicans, who contributed mightily to right-leaning political causes, and for not much gain in the last two elections.          Yet what bothers me about ALL these folks is that they might be better served in giving some of their hard-earned money to people who really need it–like me ;). Hell, I’m awash in a sea of red ink, and that tide keeps coming in. And there you guys go, wasting over two billion dollars on two causes that do little more than create the kind of discord that ensures that the nation doesn’t get a damned thing done.          You buy and sell political influence by the millions, and make yourselves popes of the moment. Then the lame-ass politicos come and kiss your rings. They say words that please you, and all the while our country goes to hell in a hand-basket. Tell me, are your egos that bloated? Are you sure spreading your ideology is the more important than the ongoing corruption that is destroying our political system? Yeah, you folks ought to be ashamed of yourselves. And that little bit of sage advise I just offered ought to be worth a few million–or at least enough to pay for my damn propane bill.          So instead of giving to some damn pac to do the devil’s work with regard to our nation’s welfare, help folks in ways that count. And I know some of you rich people are already into philanthropy, although many of you seem to hate it when giving comes by way of social programs. I just don’t get that. On one hand, some of you rich bastards give to beat the band to scholarship funds, building programs, and education. But then you get all strange when it comes to the government doing the same thing. Someone will have to sit down and explain all that to me.          But instead of swift-boating a Kerry or mangling a Mitt, why don’t you guys give to the “Save the George Fund.” Yep, you could foster the creation of witty essays like this here–at least during those time when I can stay upright. Yeah, I’m a disabled person, one of those useless eaters. Of course, needy kids deserve the help more, as do wounded vet’s, battered women, and the like. The point is, you folks just coughed up over two billion dollars in political donations. And what did you buy? Well, you got an increasingly divided nation, a congress that can’t get a thing done, and the possible ruination of America’s future. What a deal!          You people ought to be whacked with a big stick, but let’s not go there. Instead, let us look toward what needs to be done to help the country. And don’t tell me it’s giving even more money to damn politicians! The system has become corrupted enough, and it has reached the stage wherein it is failing fast. You rich geeks have been a big part of the problem and not the solution–which is something you need to be told. So put your mendacity aside and help set things right. I think you know the causes that are worth a damn, and they are not associated with parties or pacs or politics. They are associated with your neighbors, children, and folks in need. If you guys can’t see that, you’re not looking hard enough.     


Voter Anger or Vota Anger?

by Dr. George H. Elder

         Brian Vota did work for me assembling and painting models for about eight years. Actually, I helped to set him up in business within the small scale model ship community, with his primary emphasis being 1/1250 scale model planes. He also did work for me on larger scale models of all types, and was good at what he did. We maintained a cordial business relationship over the years, and I would speak to him at least once per week. Indeed, sometimes he’d call three times per week.          Now, Brian had always leaned toward the far right, as do many others. Yeah, he claimed to admire the Third Reich and was big into collecting guns, bayonets, and other lethal weapons. He saw Armageddon coming around every corner, and would go on long-winded racial, misogynistic, and social welfare rants. I didn’t agree with his philosophy, but we were on good business terms.          Then came the election, and Obama’s victory seemed to have unhinged Brian completely. The day after the election, I got a call from Brian which must have lasted less than a minute. He advised me that my models were being returned, some of which had been out on consignment for three years or more. I hardly got a word in edgewise, and only hoped that all my goods would indeed be returned.          Well, not everything was returned, and those items that were arrived in the condition you can see in the photographs below. Some models were simply tossed in a box and left lose, including several 1/1200 scale metal models and 1/700 scale WSW kits. Numerous parts of these items were scattered about, and there wasn’t a single model that escaped undamaged. Moreover, various pieces were missing, ensuring that no kit could be completed. On top of all this, Brian had been prepaid in goods and money, all of which is now lost.          There was a short note in the box calling me a “useless eater” and claiming that I had “stolen” from him. I suppose that was Brian’s feeble way of justifying taking payment for having done no work and destroying what wasn’t his. I consider his actions wanton and dishonorable, something akin to how a hysteria-prone debutant acts when someone doesn’t like her dress. In effect, he had a hissy fit–a temperamental outburst; a tantrum.          I was irked because I was out a very good chunk of change. Then Bill Gilpin cut through the angst by noting it was more a case of “Vota” anger than “Voter” anger. Another collector wrote me an e-mail indicating I suffered a case of “Vota fraud,” and so the puns went. One can’t be angry while laughing, but I owe you collectors a head’s up. The moral of the storey is be careful who you do business with. If the guy sounds extreme, odds are there will come a day you’ll regret prioritizing business over belief. I certainly wouldn’t advise anyone to do business with Mr. Vota unless he or she is of his persuasion–and then that person has my deepest sympathy! Photo 1 : Photo 2 : Photo 3 : Photo 4 : Photo 5 : Photo 6 : Photo 7 : Photo 8 : Photo 9 : Photo 10 : Photo 11 : Photo 12 : Photo 13 : Photo 14 :



by Dr. George H. Elder

         I’ve been a pain in the ass on the social networks about the coming election. The truth is, I’m afraid. I’m one of those disabled people, the kind who are barely hanging in there. Yeah, I suppose I’m one of the 47%, and I’ve read the planned policy changes that Romney and company want to put in place. They are terrifying to me because I cannot afford to make ends meet if these cuts are made, and am thus in an untenable position.          A good friend who is also disabled told me not to worry, that folks like me will not be put on the ice flow. He is an ardent Republican, and I get the sense that he still has some money. I do not. And I know he couldn’t have fully read the Romney/Ryan plan for privatizing Medicare and Medicaid. Basically, I would be forced to procure private-market insurance with a government voucher that stays at a fixed value–despite likely healthcare cost increases. Moreover, the “premium support” clauses in the plan means that insurance companies, not doctors and nurses, would make decisions about my care. Lastly, Ryan plans on cutting Medicaid by 30%, so there go my medications, the only things keeping me alive.          Yeah, I’m scared. I’m scared because I actually read the plan, which is something 95+% of the public has not done. And it hurts me to see my friends disregarding the implications of a Romney election as they apply to the old and disabled–folks like me. But I don’t blame them. Most people were hurt by the Great Recession of 2008, and they yearn for better times. That recession was not Obama’s doing, as any fair-minded person knows. His mistake was promising the world when any fool should have known that it will take 10-20 years for the banks to clear all their bad debts. That is the simple truth of things, something no politician likes to talk about.          The economy is slowly mending, as the numbers clearly show. And to be honest, the policies of both Obama and Romney are unlikely to have much of an influence on the bad loans that the banks are still carrying. Those bad loans stood at 5-7% during the worst of the Great Recession, and are now at 3-4%. Traditionally, a rate of much over 1% was deemed as an indicator of poor bank health. As for the national debt, the only thing that can reduce that is for the economy as a whole to improve, for even the most draconian budget cuts won’t make much of a dent on government burrowing if revenues do not increase–the stuff of taxes.          So I understand the problem, and the limitations of government to fix it given the current rate of bad loans. The ugly truth is, we have to endure while the banks work their way through a mess that they in large part created. In the meantime, we have to decide what kind of society we want. Hey, if you opt to cut the old and disabled out of the picture, then understand that we will suffer accordingly. There is no sugar coating it. You are my friends, and will stay that way, no matter how this election turns out. As for me, there is fear and uncertainty, with the full expectation that I will soon lose my home, furnishings–everything. However, I hope to retain the wonderful memories of the good times we have shared. In the end, they may be all that is left to any of us.


Sandy Reflections

by Dr. George H. Elder

            Well, Hurricane Sandy is nearly over, although there are still millions without power and tens of thousands have lost their homes. Like many others, I thought this storm was going to be much ado about nothing, such is the press’s typical yadda-yadda spin on things. But this time, the weather guys and press got it right. It was indeed the perfect Frankenstorm storm in terms of destruction. Some good preparation managed to keep deaths down to around 50 or so, although the counting isn’t done.               What is scary are the pictures ofNew Jersey’s coastal cities. They are wiped out over vast swaths of land. It was tidal surge for the most part, but wind damage was also a big factor. In one place, a wind-blown fire started in a flooded community, and 110 homes, apartments, and businesses were burned out. The first responders were magnificent, and did their best despite chest-high waters. No one was lost in that particular incident, although there are dozens of tragic stories.              The main killers during the storm were falling trees, some of which had stood for 300 years. In one case, two young teens were lost, with one visiting his buddy in a kind of storm sleep-over. God, I hope it was quick, and I cannot imagine the angst the parents must feel. Yeah, none of us knew it was going to get this bad. The early estimates are 20+ Billion in direct damage and another 30+ Billion in indirect losses to business.              As I reflect upon it, I think God tries to tell us things–though we hardly ever get the message. In this case, we have the second major Northeast hurricane in two years, both of which caused devastating floods. Yeah,Vermontgot pummeled last year, and I saw that mess first hand. It was sickening–washed out homes and communities, LNG tanks, trees, and debris bobbing up and down in the raging currents.              Huge ice sheets are melting and the average temperature is climbing at a rate that makes these storm more likely. But will we do anything about it? Hell, no! Humans are about as responsive as frogs placed in a vat of water that is slowly heated. The poor creatures turn into frog stew before doing anything to escape, and thus is our plight.              We simply endure instead of acting, and by the time we do decide to move–it is often too late. It doesn’t take a rocket scientist to see where this approach will lead. There are lots of Sandy’s waiting in the wings as the weather patterns destabilize, and hundred-year storms may become the norm fairly soon.              In terms of politics, we have those happy folks who believe that the government should have a minimum role in our lives. They live by this odd creed that the private sector is ideal in solving all problems, and that government is inevitably piss-poor at doing anything. Then there are those who believe government should have a role, albeit a positive one. In a lot of ways, this is what the current election is all about.              On one side, we have Romney–the champion of free enterprise, a man who has made it perfectly clear that he wants to cut government spending in order to save our future. Hell, he even campaigned on the idea of eliminating FEMA and other disaster relief programs, calling them “immoral.”              On the other side, we have a barely competent man, but one who believes that government can have a positive role. I didn’t vote for Obama first time around, but note that he inherited an awful situation from that dolt of a man who ran the show for eight years, George Bush minor. Now that guy is living proof that some of us are much dumber than frogs. Nonetheless, he was elected twice–often by jingoistic bluster that has lead us to ruinous financial losses and costly military adventures.              So what does God do? The Devine demonstrates a force that no individual can stand before, and that only the collective power of a government can help us survive. Yet do you think anyone got the message? Like I said, folks can be as dumb as frogs, and many just won’t get it–no matter how loudly God yells.              I sure as hell do not love Obama, but I’m going to vote for him. He’s done a fair job with a barely manageable financial situation–though no one wants to tell the people the truth. The banks are holding so many bad debts that it may take an entire generation to get beyond what blind greed has wrought. Yeah, a lot of the bastards that caused this mess have floated ever so gently to earth on their golden parachutes while the rest of us got a golden shower of financial woes.              But beyond all that, we have to listen when God speaks, and yeah–I believe this storm was a sign. We need FEMA! We need emergency responders! We need government involvement when the waters raise and the winds roar! Ideology won’t keep the kids alive when our homes crumble, and it’s only our collective efforts that can preserve us against these travails. This should be an obvious lesson, yet we have become so enamored of greed that many Americans simply do not see it.              Hey, if some folks want to be frogs, that’s fine and dandy. But I’ll be damned if those people should be allowed to drag the rest of us down with them. Before Sandy, I Googled– Romney disaster relief. There was about 700,000 hits, IIRC, with many of them noting how he wanted to dump FEMA, etc.. I contacted every news service and toss-up state organization that I could about this undeniable fact. I am sure I wasn’t alone, but the collective impetus has resulted in a Google search of — Romney disaster relief — now getting 28,800,000 hits.              Oh, Romney is backing off his hyperbole, saying that he now supports FEMA and disaster relief. But he has such a history of saying whatever is needed to win a given crowd that I don’t believe him. The man’s true ideals come out when he is amongst his kindred, and that idealism is based more on greed and divisiveness than any kind of altruism. His is a Laissez-faire creed, one that eschews government for the sake of the rugged individual. Yet what individual can stand before a force of nature, the breath of God?              I don’t know if the truth behind all this matters. We hardly ever listen when God speaks to us, and some even dare speculate that God doesn’t speak at all. Well, I’ve had the good luck of nearly dying, and am currently hanging on by painful threads. I have learned to be thankful for every moment and to listen more than I ever did before. And believe me, God does speak to us. We seldom notice what God has to say, but how could anyone one miss a scream likeSandygave us?              We’ll see in less than a week. We have the impetus of individualistic greed verses the power of the collective good. It will be very close, but if we choose incorrectly, I wonder what we’ll do when God next gives us a nudge on the shoulder, a good talking to? Because then there may be nowhere to turn, no collective power that can spare our old, young, helpless, and lost. That’s the choice we face, frogs and humans alike.


Coaching’s Lessons

            It’s a wonder I became a coach at all considering my dubious past. I was a miscreant oaf who was fond of doing all sorts of drugs with my felonious friends, and I made drinking into a regular and terrifying event. In fact, I became infamous during my youth for rowdy escapades, some of which were ended by the local constabulary. There were some reasons for my wonton behavior. I grew up in a “dysfun­ctional” family, although I suspect nearly everyone does. My father was an alcoholic and my mother was seemingly oblivious to the discord that sur­rounded her. We were also poor, and I developed a terrible self-image, which wasn’t helped much by my obesity.             My confidence improved when I started lifting weights at age fifteen, and I became addicted to it. In fact, I took all 1,020 pounds of my weights with me when I came to UNH, and set up a weight-room in Congreve Hall dormitory. Lots of students used my facility, including some varsity athletes. I got to know those guys very well because we trained together, and trained hard. My prePhysical Therapy major and experience in the iron game helped me to formulate programs for the athletes, and these proved effective. UNH’s head football coach became aware of my abilities from his players, and he hired me to run the Univer­sity’s weight-room in 1977, my senior year.             I had a lot to learn about coaching and the lessons didn’t come easy. It was an athlete we’ll call “Grady” who taught me to respect my charges when I began my coaching career at UNH. Grady was a six-foot four-inch +, two hundred and sixty seven pound offen­sive lineman who was recovering from a nasty knee injury. He was the quintessential laid back Vermonter, ever rustic in his views and mannerisms. He spoke slowly and had a wry sense of humor, being a casual guy and seeming to lack in passion. Howeve­r, Grady worked out hard in the weight room, and we grew to like one another.             Yet I didn’t fully respect Grady because I thought he had a fatal flaw in his character. I had heard from one of my fellow coaches and from a few of Grady’s teammates that he was not aggres­sive enough. One athlete even called him a “pussy”—which is the ultimate insult for a football player. I half-believed what those lame sots were saying about Grady because of his mellow man­nerisms, and I’d taunt him on occasion.             “Hey Grady, are you really as much of a candy-ass as all your teammates say you are?”             “Come on, Dino, you don’t mean that.”             Grady used to take my barbs in stride, but one day he objected to my badgering by giving me a gentle cuff across the face. My rowdy past instantly came to the forefront, and I decided to take a hands-on approach, all three hundred and twenty pounds of me. I hauled off and slapped Grady’s face so hard that my blow sent him reeling back­wards. Grady’s eyes lit up, and he came back at me with a whack across the puss that still makes me cringe when I think about it. The kid almost decked me there and then, but I came right back at him. In short order Grady and I were slapping each other all over the damn weight room, much to the amusement of the leering athletes. Grady would take a shot, and then I’d return the favor—slap for slap.             I mean, these were blows that could knock most normal folks senseless. The only problem was that at five-foot eight-inches I could barely reach Grady’s face and head, yet he had no difficulty in pummeling me from a distance. Yeah, getting into that tiff was a very bad judgment on my part—yet in for a penny, in for a pound. The madder Grady got, the more he mixed forearm shots to my head with his slaps. He certainly wasn’t acting like any “pussy” I had ever tangled with before. He was behaving like a guy with an hard-ass attitude and mal intent, and I knew I couldn’t last long at the rate I was taking damage. Man, I couldn’t even see strait! In desperation I reached out and grabbed one of Grady’s long arms in mid-strike, stopping it cold. I smiled at him.             “For God’s sake Grady, why don’t you do this on the field?”             “Man, your face is red. I bet mine is too.”               He looked at me, perplexed, and then a smile slowly spread across his mottled face. I told him we better stop fighting before one of us got hurt, and I was pretty damn sure it would have been me. He nodded, and I was greatly relived. Grady taught me to respect my charges for what they are, and not what others might say behind their backs. Grady became an All American football player the following year and later went on to become an outstanding coach in his own right. I’m not sure if our slap fight had much to do with Grady’s success, but we both got to learn a little bit about ourselves and each other that day. I came to see that mutual respect between athletes and coaches is fundamental to successful teaching. Moreover, taunting one’s charges can come with a stiff price!             Until my tiff with Grady, I had depended on my strength and size to garner respect. I could take well over 400 pounds off a set of squat racks and push it over-head. I could military press three hundred and eighty five pounds, and do full depth squats with five hundred and sixty pounds for easy repetitions. Oh yeah, I was strong for a non-steroid guy. However, impress­ing athletes with the amount of iron you can move around does not make a coach. I still had a great deal to learn about the profession and myself. Most of my education was based on my interactions with athletes, but I also learned a great deal from observing my peers’ coaching methods.              My experience with Grady taught me that denigrating ath­letes is wrong, but many coaches believe that a person has to be torn down in order to be built back up. That’s the typical martial mentality we see in the Marines, although it also exists in many sports. Indeed, there are some coaches who justify their cruelty by adhering to this dogma. The more I came to care about my charges, the more I came to utterly despise maligning them. In fact, I found myself becoming quite vocal if I thought a person was being un­fairly treated.             “Ken” was a promising athlete who some coaches thought was not performing up to snuff, and one of the part-time coaches took par­ticular delight in tormenting the poor kid. The comments Coach “Caddy” made to Ken were cruel and cutting:             “You’re a waste of a scholar­ship, Ken… Christ, you hit like a sissy… Why the hell do you bother wearing a jock?”             It went on and on, but I knew Ken was trying because I saw him working his heart out in practice and in the weight room. He was complete­ly dedicated to improving himself, and he was making good, but slow, progress. Ken talked with me in the weight room a few times about how miserable his nemesis was making life for him, but I assumed he could handle the situation. I was wrong. I saw Ken in the locker room one day, face turned toward the wall and eyes staring blankly into nothing­ness. I asked him if anything was bothering him.             “I can’t take it any more,” he said in a whisper. “Even my teammates are starting to shit on me now. But you know I’m tryin’. I really am.”             Then he stared off into space again, lost in some terribly painful world of lonely despair. To see a young man reduced to such emptiness is a haunting thing, so I spoke with coach Caddy privately.             “What do you mean, lay off him? The kid’s just acting like a baby, and you’re falling for it.”             “Nah, I think he’s had enough.”             “Don’t you get it, Dino? He’s going to get tougher from this. He’ll perform better as a result.”             “I wouldn’t take the bullshit you’re dishing out.”             Coach Caddy got angry, and sneered.             “You know what your problem is? You’re not a coach to these kids! You’re their friend.”             Coach Caddy said the word “friend” as a venal insult, but I thanked him for the compliment. Ken dropped out of school at the end of the semester, and I never even got to say goodbye to him. His fate still pains me. He was such a happy kid as a freshman, all enthusiasm and hope. Then he was broken by the aspersions heaped on him, made an outcast by his sophomore year. Coach Caddy found a full time coaching job at another college a year or so later. I imagine he’s still breaking down kids to build them up. Ken is just another casualty of his game plan, and I suspect there will be others. Yeah, coaching does have a dark side.             I became friends with many of my charges at UNH, and that is when coaching started to become a labor of love for me. My first utterance when entering the weight room became a bellow that shook the entire facility, a sort of  primal roar. In short order I was firing off program info and taking in reports from football players, runners, swimmers, and all manner of other athletes. I worked out with the kids, listened to their problems and fears, and grew to care about them on a personal level. The athletes, in turn, came to respect me as someth­ing more than just a coach, and for the first time in my life I came to feel an emotional attachment for what I did. I looked forward to coming into work, and I continued to learn about both coaching and myself.             One of my harshest experiences as a coach involved a lack of empathy, and it still haunts me. The incident occurred in early May, at a time when the students were getting ready for either graduation or summer vacation, a normally happy time of year. There were only a few athletes lifting in the weight room and we were wantonly shooting the breeze. The banter in a weight room can get a bit vulgar at times, and we drifted into tearing up homosexuality, typical politically incorrect “fag-bashing” talk, replete with squeaky voices and faked female mannerisms. It came time to close shop and I harried the kids out of the room so that I could go home. “Sam” was being stubborn, and continued to lift after the other athletes had left, so I chided him about being recalcitrant. He glared at me, and I asked him what was wrong.             “You’re an asshole. You’re just like all the rest of them.”             I was shocked. I had always thought of Sam as being basically stable, yet the person I saw was seething with rage.             Sam grabbed my arms in a vice-like grip, and I thought he was going to punch my lights out. Then he suddenly released me, and bolted out of the weight room. I followed Sam down a hallway and through some corridors befo­re finally catching up with him in an abandoned locker room. He was slamming his fists into metal lockers, punching huge dents into their doors. I thought Sam was going to break his hands, so I grabbed one of his arms. He spun around to face me. He was wet-eyed and trembling, his knuckles bleeding. Sam spoke to me in semi-coherent half sentences that were mixed with tearful agony.             “Dad said I don’t have a home… if I’m that way… Not his kid. And you guys… you’re being assholes about it. So what am I going to do? Because I am that way. I am! Can you tell me? Can you? Can you? Can you?”             In all the years I had known Sam it had never donned on me that he was gay, and I doubt that more than a few of his former teammates know about his very well hidden homosexuality. I was stunned. Sam was anything but the stereoty­pical image of a gay man, not that such an image actually exists. He was a handsome and well-muscled two-hundred-and-twenty pounder who used to revel in being explosive. Indeed, no one messed with him on or off the field. He was often with girlfri­end­s, and some were stunningly attractive. Yet there he was, spilling out his guts to a coach who could scarcely believe what he was hearing. I wondered to myself, ‘How many other kids have I hurt in that weight room with my inane comments? How many black kids? How many poor kids? How many gay kids?’             In all likelihood Sam had wanted someone to talk with about his homosexuality for years, but no one was there who would listen without judging, including me. So Sam just lived with his secret and acted “moody.” I tried to cover for my failures by telling Sam to love himself no matter what anyone says or does. He replied, “How can I love myself when ever­yone else hates what I am?” I could not answer his question, and I never got another chance to. He graduated, and God only knows what has happened to him. Perhaps he has learned to love himself or maybe he is still living a lie, a perpetually tormented soul. I sure as hell added to his misery on that day with my inane banter, and there is no way to take that foolishness back. There are some mistakes one cannot atone for. Coaching teaches that you an action taken cannot be undone, either on or off the field.                By this time in my coaching career I had stopped drinking and partying. No more all-nighters doing cocaine, no more 3:00 am joy rides at ninety miles per hour, and no more people overdosing in my apartment. Instead, I was studying books and technical papers about weight training methodologies and writing articles that were being published in nationally circulated magazines. I soon got letters asking for advice from all over the United States and the world— South Africa, Switzerland, Finland, Denmark, England—even Australi­a. I was becoming respected in the field, both at home and afar.              I had long despised the simplistic single-set per exercise training system that was promulgated by the Nautilus Company, so I came out publically against it. I ridicul­ed the methodol­ogy in magazines such as Muscle & Fitness and Muscular Development. At the time, my views were denigrated by some as being antiquated, although mostly by those who didn’t fully understand the physiology and exercise science involved. The battle raged for seven years, before Arthur Jones, the primary proponent of the single set train­ing methodology, publically admitted in the mid-1980s that multiple sets might be beneficial. I had my first real taste of victory in the ongoing battle, a good “I told you so” moment. In the interim, however, I became known as a loose cannon, someone who wantonly violated the expected public decorum of coaches. In coaching, one is expected to be respectful in public forums no matter how one feels about an issue. Alas, I never quite learned that particular lesson, but I’m glad I didn’t! A person who holds his peace will never change anything for the better.             There came opportunities for me to leave UNH, including one that would have landed me overseas and paid more money than I thought possible. However, I had grown to love UNH, my job, and my athletes, so I stayed put. Some of my fellow coaches believed I had no ambition, but I felt that I had already found nirvana—and my nirvana was a crowded, sweat-smelling weight room located deep within the bowels of UNH’s ambling fieldhouse. Even my parents complained about my remaining at UNH, but I was happy there, despite being paid wages that never exceeded $13,500 per year. Besides, I was still learning from my charges.             An athlete named “Carl” taught me the value of two-way communication. Carl was a highly recruited lineman who opted to come to UNH because of the school’s vaunted engineering program. He was one of the rare gifted intellectuals who also liked to play football, and the kid was a coach’s dream. He worked hard, he learned instantly, and he got along well with both his coaches and teammates. The coaches and athletes felt Carl had great potential, and he was a joy to work with. Yet everyth­ing wasn’t all light and happiness in Carl’s career. He hurt his ankle in practice during his freshman year, and it didn’t seem to heal. Then he started to lose weight, and the head coach got on me to find out why.             I sat down with Carl frequently, and we tried to get to the bottom of his dilemma. When I think back on it, our meetings were more a matter of my giving Carl advice rather than listening to him. I advised Carl to eat more, get more rest, work out harder, take more vitamins, etc., etc., etc.. Yet I should have noticed that Carl was telling me things about himself that were important. He told me that he was losing weight despite eating triple servings and that cuts and bruises didn’t seem to be healing well. He also said he was constantly feeling run down and tired.             Carl told me that the doctors thought he was doing fine, but then he came back from his sophomore year’s semester break weighing only 225 pounds, down twenty pounds from his freshman year. I became very concerned. I saw how hard Carl was working in the weight room, but his strength and size were dwindling away every day. It was scary, and I had no idea what to do. I kept on giving him advice, but nothing I said seemed to help much. Carl was frustrate­d, the head coach was beyond annoyed, and I felt the heat.             Over spring break Carl started to feel very ill so he went to see his family doctor. The doctor took some blood tests and found out that Carl’s blood sugar count was over eight hundred! He was a severe diabetic and was in rough shape. The endocrinologist Carl saw was amazed that he hadn’t gone in­to diabetic shock, and he was very concerned about the degree of damage that might have been done to Carl’s internal organs. I was told his kidneys and other internal organs may have been severely stressed and the news hit me like a lightening bolt. That kid could have been badly injured or killed by what I regarded as reckless incompetence, and the thought of my personal failure to notice the obvious still eats at me.             Yes, I felt responsible. I should have been listening more and talking less. After all, diabetes runs in my family, and I was familiar with its symptoms—symptoms that I had utterly failed to see in Carl. I told him how terribly upset I was for my blindness, but Carl was understanding—observing that no one seemed to have noticed. Carl’s ankle injury never healed properly, and he had to have the bones in his foot “frozen” via a surgical procedure. He has to take regular insulin shots now and his future prognosis is uncertain. Carl became the team’s manager and film man, and continued to lift over the coming years.             He knew how guilty I felt about his medical problems, and once told me, “It wasn’t your fault, Dino. Even my own doctors didn’t know what was up.” Yet I’ll forever wonder if I could have helped him out by noticing more and assuming less. Carl got his degree in engineer­ing. He walks with a limp now, and I look at myself as being one of the reasons for that gait. The key lesson learned was one of accepting personal responsibility. The athletes coaches work with are more than names on a roster. They are our charges, and we owe them the very best we can possibly offer. Anything less is unacceptable and unforgivable.             The end of my coaching career started with a bang. On July 26, 1985 I went into the weight room and got dropped by a vascular event while picking up some weights that had been left out. It was a traumatic accident, complete with slurred speech and convulsions. Some speciali­sts in Boston said I had bisected a vertebral artery in my neck, and the injury left a number of aftereffects. I couldn’t feel the left side of my body and right side of my face properly and I lost some coordina­tion. I also became plagued by vicious right-sided headache­s. Still, I wanted to continue coaching.             I coached at UNH for another two years after my injury, but I could no longer lift weights. My headaches became intractable, but I would not give up my career. I had grown to love what I did with a passion that I had never known for anything else. I had also grown to care about my charges above all other things, including my own welfare. Yet I was becoming a liability to athletes due my symptoms, and I was medically discharged in 1988. There was a great chasm where my soul had once grown. Part of me died, and all that was left is a bloated vestige.             A person who has never coached can little understand the allure and attach­ment the job has to its practitioners. Coaching replaced many of my self-destructive urges with a desire to see my charges improve. I became one with their efforts, hopes, and problems. In return, the athletes gave me a way of living that only coaches can truly under­stand. I soared through the air with a receiver who was leaping to make a spec­tacular one-armed catch. I raced down ice with a winger who scored the break-away goal that put us into the national playoffs. I shed tears after some of the agonizing defeats, lost in a world of utter despair that knew no recourse. I lived experientially as well as vicariously. My life had meaning and depth. I was happy.             I left my job with profound regrets because I still had a great deal to contribute. Indeed, learning how to give was my most important lesson as a coach. Coaching is all about giving. It’s giving advice, it’s giving concern, and it’s giving love—the latter being by far the most important. Coaches must love their charges every bit as much as they love themselves and their families. Sure, one gets angry or disappointed at a kid from time to time, but in the end, coaches must always want the very best for their charges. I now find myself an unlikely academic, a refugee from the only job I’ve ever had a passion for. I dwell in a pretentious and superficial world wherein one simply doesn’t holler or be demonstrative—which are traits that have no place in the academy. Alas, the required lifestyle simply isn’t me, and I have no real place in higher education. I’ll always miss the clanging of weights and the sights and smells of the weight room. It is a very special place, a place of labor, learning, and love.


Leave a Reply